Short Ugly and Brown
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when I was younger (before teen years) and I liked girls I wouldn't ask them out because I was too shy and nothing more
as I got older into my late teens I started to ask out girls that I liked bc all my friends had gfs
at that age I never thought I was ugly, or attractive. I just thought I was normal looking and never really thought about my apperance.
after the first 10 rejections or so I started to watch videos that talked about bluepilled stuff like wearing matching shirts, wearing cologne, etc
then I continued to get rejected and by 25 rejections or so I learned about the redpill and I started going to the gym and talking with a deeper voice (this actually got me looks in class but it was just looks of girls thinking: "look at that idiot pulling his shoulders back" etc)
Then after another few rejections I started to notice that all my white friends had girlfriends and my ethnic friends didn't except the ones that were chadlite or higher in looks. I wasn't completely aware of the blackpill but I started to take the height/racepill.
Fastforward to like my 35th rejection I stumbled upon faceandlms and the blackpill. I slowly started to accept the fact that I wasn't a 4-5/10 like I previously thought but moreso like a solid 3/10 and straight up ugly.
I started to study facial aesthetics and learned that slowly by slowly I had all the bad features that were resembling of an ugly male.
This is all when my hormones spiked too which led me to desperation, I started to lower my standards and hit on uglier girls. I still kept getting rejected.
Now its come to the point where I've asked out close to 50 women and have not managed to go on a single date.
Because of this I have trouble looking myself in the mirror everyday and its gotten so bad that I have such low self esteem that
-Ive stopped doing my hair in the morning and just wear a headband
-Ive stopped hanging out with my friends because I get depressed if we take a photo and I see how ugly I am
-Ive started holding my head down to cover my face (including when I sit down) so other girls don't see me and puke
-I stopped looking at the mirror when I use the bathroom
-Ive started browsing plastic surgery research and I've learned all my flaws (now I just have to cope until I'm old enough to get the surgeries (so like 4 months)
its over
as I got older into my late teens I started to ask out girls that I liked bc all my friends had gfs
at that age I never thought I was ugly, or attractive. I just thought I was normal looking and never really thought about my apperance.
after the first 10 rejections or so I started to watch videos that talked about bluepilled stuff like wearing matching shirts, wearing cologne, etc
then I continued to get rejected and by 25 rejections or so I learned about the redpill and I started going to the gym and talking with a deeper voice (this actually got me looks in class but it was just looks of girls thinking: "look at that idiot pulling his shoulders back" etc)
Then after another few rejections I started to notice that all my white friends had girlfriends and my ethnic friends didn't except the ones that were chadlite or higher in looks. I wasn't completely aware of the blackpill but I started to take the height/racepill.
Fastforward to like my 35th rejection I stumbled upon faceandlms and the blackpill. I slowly started to accept the fact that I wasn't a 4-5/10 like I previously thought but moreso like a solid 3/10 and straight up ugly.
I started to study facial aesthetics and learned that slowly by slowly I had all the bad features that were resembling of an ugly male.
This is all when my hormones spiked too which led me to desperation, I started to lower my standards and hit on uglier girls. I still kept getting rejected.
Now its come to the point where I've asked out close to 50 women and have not managed to go on a single date.
Because of this I have trouble looking myself in the mirror everyday and its gotten so bad that I have such low self esteem that
-Ive stopped doing my hair in the morning and just wear a headband
-Ive stopped hanging out with my friends because I get depressed if we take a photo and I see how ugly I am
-Ive started holding my head down to cover my face (including when I sit down) so other girls don't see me and puke
-I stopped looking at the mirror when I use the bathroom
-Ive started browsing plastic surgery research and I've learned all my flaws (now I just have to cope until I'm old enough to get the surgeries (so like 4 months)
its over
