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My dad let me drive to my aunts house (4 hours away) and while I was driving he gave me a 2 hour speech about how he doesn’t understand why I choose to live like this. He told me that if I continue like this I can consider myself out of the house by next year. He hates me, I just know it.
I can’t believe this is what my dad really thinks of me. He said “I work so hard and you don’t even give a shit” I don’t even remember the last time my dad and I had a decent conversation that wasn’t about how much of a failure I am. All the things he said… he was right. I’m a disappointment, everytime my dad looks at me he looks so sad and angry. He looks like he regrets his life. It’s horrible, I just wish my dad could love me. I wish I could make him proud. It seems like I will never achieve that. For now I’ll do everything he asks. All I want is my fathers validation, I can’t even look at him in the eyes, I can’t be in a room with him, I can’t start a conversation with him.
I will lose weight and get my grades up, I’ll do everything he asks. By next Monday I’ll be 185lbs (I’m 197lbs rn). I’ll do it if that’s what it takes for him to just say “I’m proud of you”.
I can’t believe this is what my dad really thinks of me. He said “I work so hard and you don’t even give a shit” I don’t even remember the last time my dad and I had a decent conversation that wasn’t about how much of a failure I am. All the things he said… he was right. I’m a disappointment, everytime my dad looks at me he looks so sad and angry. He looks like he regrets his life. It’s horrible, I just wish my dad could love me. I wish I could make him proud. It seems like I will never achieve that. For now I’ll do everything he asks. All I want is my fathers validation, I can’t even look at him in the eyes, I can’t be in a room with him, I can’t start a conversation with him.
I will lose weight and get my grades up, I’ll do everything he asks. By next Monday I’ll be 185lbs (I’m 197lbs rn). I’ll do it if that’s what it takes for him to just say “I’m proud of you”.