Fuck, I whine about what I could've been everyday

[Androgynous]

I was raised terribly, I'm mixed race, really mixed, but by blood I'm mostly South East Asian and I can't pass as any other race
My parents and sibling are above average in terms of looks but I am below average

I was abused harshly as a kid. From the ages of 8-15 I would get an average of 5 hours of sleep per night, and this is partially on me because I would be up all night playing bed wars or some shit but a good portion of this wasn't in my control

I wasn't breastfed, actually I wasn't fed at all
I had a BMI of 10-12 from the ages 8-15 and I was really short, at 14 I was 4'11 so you can do the math

I also was really sick, had tuberculosis and other sicknesses

My father is 5'7 my mother is 4'11
The only thing I have going on for me is that I miraculously turned out to be 5'10 (I live in SEA so this is huge) and that I have the vivid, creative imagination type of ND
I used to be extremely low inhib and never stressed, prob cuz of my ND but that has clearly been withering away

I never really whined about being abused, fuck, I'd go back in time to experience it all again just for the fuck of it
but man, I could've been so much more if I was nurtured properly.

Anyways that's it, just wanted to journal about it ig

 

[LTNUser]

You were destined to be doomed from the beginning
You're tall so you still got chance to pull girls
What do you look like?

 

[Androgynous]

You were destined to be doomed from the beginning
You're tall so you still got chance to pull girls
What do you look like?

I'm extremely feminine looking, I'd say I'm H-LTN or L-MTN. I really shouldn't be complaining much especially since I live in SEA, just a mentalcel rn tbh

I'll hardmaxx to HTN one day

 

[iblamejah]

I don't think its over