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wollet2
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Not because you exceeded the maximum years partying or having fun but the opposite, staying inside all day in a 1 roomed house with no food and no heat, with barely money to pay for my medication and a debilitating disease that has left me paralyzed (but nobody cares about and im too stupid/brain damaged / non motivated to chase an official diagnosis / advancement of my maximum uni years)
I cant leave my house, i cant and dont want to meet people, i cant get a job. I m extremely depressed and anxious for the future all the time. Unable to feel anything good.
Given how afraid i am of old age and missing out i should be doing more, but im not doing anything and i cant do anything. Idk whats worse and why do i keep believing like i can do stuff and torture myself. Its over, im delaying the inevitable scary thing which is suicide/death. But how can I JUST KILL MYSELF. ITS SO SCARY. I MUST DO IT. FUCK LIFE FOR PUTTING ME INTO THIS SITUATION
I fucking hate people and i hate life. There is no other way, im being forced to suicide. Whats the alternative? Being an ugly old cripple that will get alzheimers at 40 and die from depression or cancer? And where will I live. And how will i deal with all this depression.
I cant leave my house, i cant and dont want to meet people, i cant get a job. I m extremely depressed and anxious for the future all the time. Unable to feel anything good.
Given how afraid i am of old age and missing out i should be doing more, but im not doing anything and i cant do anything. Idk whats worse and why do i keep believing like i can do stuff and torture myself. Its over, im delaying the inevitable scary thing which is suicide/death. But how can I JUST KILL MYSELF. ITS SO SCARY. I MUST DO IT. FUCK LIFE FOR PUTTING ME INTO THIS SITUATION
I fucking hate people and i hate life. There is no other way, im being forced to suicide. Whats the alternative? Being an ugly old cripple that will get alzheimers at 40 and die from depression or cancer? And where will I live. And how will i deal with all this depression.