How I became a college drop out recluse neet

[Deleted member 11126]

I was always a weird guy on forums and still blackpilled but way better. So you could say it was nature as well as nurture but this event basically fucked me up and competely amplified my anti social tendencies

My freshman year of Uni I went to this part and bumped into some frat guys I was way drunk out of my mind. And I got punched hard since I had no reflexes I fell flat on my forehead on this concrete. Those dick heads laughed at me and left me for dead. I woke up 30 minutes later went home.

Ever since then I have had paranoia to leave my room or go outside whenever I see people I think they are laughing at me. I have extreme paranoia I do sometimes wonder if I have brain damage its too late to fix it now. I am only now improving 2 years later but I still feel anxiety when people look at me or in crowds. Every social situation puts my brain in flight or fight. After the head injury I stayed locked in my dorm room for 2 months till I failed and then dropped out in shame. My parents berated me for this for a year so I developed even more shame and fear to leave my room and felt like I was constantly looked down on.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Never been the same since then my brain associates any social settings as danger.

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Is there any hope to change now?

 

[GabachoCopium]

 

[Deleted member 4301]

Did you ever see a doctor about this

 

[Bojack]

Idk mane but im giving 100% in my uni studies right now

 

[Deleted member 11126]

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Kayne shit innit

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Did you ever see a doctor about this

No but I did mention it and he said it was probably fine never did a scan. I don't know if its brain damage or just that my body associates social settings with a bad event. Being locked in a room for a year after the fact made it way worse and rewired my brain to be an antisocial freak

 

[Deleted member 31457]

Klinefelters

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Idk mane but im giving 100% in my uni studies right now

I wish to go back someday I always carry a knife if some faggot does that to me I will kill them

 

[Bojack]

I wish to go back someday I always carry a knife if some faggot does that to me I will kill them

Yes ppl are def bullying me in uni keep your guard up around these ppl

 

[Deleted member 11126]

Yes ppl are def bullying me in uni keep your guard up around these ppl

It was just really bad luck. If I was sober I would have left because it was a bad situation but I was too drunk to understand the trouble I was in. Also since I was drunk I landed on my head I didn't even have the reflexes to fall straight it waasn't the punch it was landing on concerte that fucked me up.

 

[Razeb]

I was always a weird guy one forums and still blackpilled but way better.

My freshman year of Uni I went to this part and bumped into some frat guys I was way drunk out of my mind. And I got punched hard since I had no reflexes I fell flat on my forehead on this concrete. Those dick heads laughed at me and left me for dead. I woke up 30 minutes later went home.

Ever since then I have had paranoia to leave my room or go outside whenever I see people I think they are laughing at me. I have extreme paranoia I do sometimes wonder if I have brain damage its too late to fix it now. I am only now improving 2 years later but I still feel anxiety when people look at me or in crowds. Every social situation puts my brain in flight or fight. After the head injury I stayed locked in my dorm room for 2 months till I failed and then dropped out in shame. My parents berated me for this for a year so I developed even more shame and fear to leave my room and felt like I was constantly looked down on.

that's honestly brutal. I was a shut in two years ago when I was in my 2nd year of uni cuz I got pissed off that almost everything was online among other things so I just stayed at home and did nothing but game and watch movies. I fixed up last year ngl but I feel like I'm falling back into my old habits cuz I haven't done any uni work in 2 whole weeks, missed multiple quizzes. This was because of stress because I had almost no money in my bank account and because my student funding was delayed as fuck so there was a reason this time because the stress was seriously crushing me. I received some of my student funding this week on Monday so that's good.

I'm gonna try to catch up on Sunday/Monday by reading multiple chapters cuz it's only 2 but yeah guess I was just born this way, guess that's just how my brain is wired

 

[Deleted member 11126]

that's honestly brutal. I was a shut in two years ago when I was in uni cuz I got pissed off that almost everything was online among other things so I just stayed at home and did nothing but game and watch movies. I fixed up last year ngl but I feel like I'm falling back into my old habits cuz I haven't done any uni work in 2 whole weeks, missed multiple quizzes. This was because of stress because I had almost no money in my bank account and because my student funding was delayed as fuck so there was a reason this time because the stress was seriously crushing me. I received some of my student funding this week on Monday so that's good.

I'm gonna try to catch up on Sunday/Monday by reading multiple chapters cuz it's only 2 but yeah guess I was just born this way, guess that's just how my brain is wired

Yeah my condition gets worse whenever I feel stress I cannot deal with people and close myself off which is arguable the worst time to close people off when things are going bad you need to be open

 

[Deleted member 40986]

Dropped the chance to betabux. Mirin

 

[Maalik]

brutal and relatable

 

[Deleted member 11126]

brutal and relatable

story?