Simply Sores
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"Maybe if I lift, dress well, grow as a person and work hard then she will want me"
The problem that I've been facing recently is that I can't progress anymore as I have nothing to look forward to. After 6 months of training daily, eating at a caloric deficit and looksmaxing my crush effectively rejected me.
Granted she was friendly enough to talk to me have coffee a few times but it progressed to nothing. She never showed me any affection. When i first approached her she was super friendly and invited me to sit with her. I think she was being polite by agreeing to meetup a few times. As I did compliment her a lot but she never complimented me other than telling me that I "look fine" when I begun criticizing myself (fishing for complements).
Unfortunately, I lost a lot of progress during the past 4 weeks as I've been drinking or doing drugs (weed) almost daily, eating trash (pizza and pasta almost everyday) and haven't been putting much effort in anything. I was doing it for myself before I started talking to her yet now I feel like trash constantly. I don't get how uglier/shorter guys on campus get hotter girls than her. What the fuck. It makes me feel awful inside.
I dropped down to around 15% bodyfat before even speaking to her. I had my hair done, beard trimmed, I'm 6'1 but was wearing lifts to get to 6'3, did pushups in my room to look pumped etc During my last cut I didn't eat anything except protein shakes and multivitamins for 9 days while doing 3 hours of cardio daily to get there. I also used PED's and cutting agents. during the final month. Which has fucked my hair quite a bit; fortunately recovering well on Finasteride and Ketoconazole shampoo. But you can clearly see bald at the top patches if I don't use hair product and blow dry it. When i came off the mental effects were horrible even with pct. I felt so lonely and isolated all the time. I would break down crying because of how I felt. I think that she could sense that my T was low in the way I interacted with her after coming off and that repelled her from me. She does still reply to my messages (even though she takes her sweet time) and I feel like I could probably set something up this weekend but I have lost so much confidence in myself and feel disgusted with the way I look (26% "bf" now mostly water retention I think)
The funny thing is that despite being a complete mess I still get OwO eyes from some girls as I walk by but it no longer brings me any joy. The gym used to be calming for me but now It's getting harder to go even a couple of times a week.
The problem that I've been facing recently is that I can't progress anymore as I have nothing to look forward to. After 6 months of training daily, eating at a caloric deficit and looksmaxing my crush effectively rejected me.
Granted she was friendly enough to talk to me have coffee a few times but it progressed to nothing. She never showed me any affection. When i first approached her she was super friendly and invited me to sit with her. I think she was being polite by agreeing to meetup a few times. As I did compliment her a lot but she never complimented me other than telling me that I "look fine" when I begun criticizing myself (fishing for complements).
Unfortunately, I lost a lot of progress during the past 4 weeks as I've been drinking or doing drugs (weed) almost daily, eating trash (pizza and pasta almost everyday) and haven't been putting much effort in anything. I was doing it for myself before I started talking to her yet now I feel like trash constantly. I don't get how uglier/shorter guys on campus get hotter girls than her. What the fuck. It makes me feel awful inside.
I dropped down to around 15% bodyfat before even speaking to her. I had my hair done, beard trimmed, I'm 6'1 but was wearing lifts to get to 6'3, did pushups in my room to look pumped etc During my last cut I didn't eat anything except protein shakes and multivitamins for 9 days while doing 3 hours of cardio daily to get there. I also used PED's and cutting agents. during the final month. Which has fucked my hair quite a bit; fortunately recovering well on Finasteride and Ketoconazole shampoo. But you can clearly see bald at the top patches if I don't use hair product and blow dry it. When i came off the mental effects were horrible even with pct. I felt so lonely and isolated all the time. I would break down crying because of how I felt. I think that she could sense that my T was low in the way I interacted with her after coming off and that repelled her from me. She does still reply to my messages (even though she takes her sweet time) and I feel like I could probably set something up this weekend but I have lost so much confidence in myself and feel disgusted with the way I look (26% "bf" now mostly water retention I think)
The funny thing is that despite being a complete mess I still get OwO eyes from some girls as I walk by but it no longer brings me any joy. The gym used to be calming for me but now It's getting harder to go even a couple of times a week.
