DoctorLooksmax
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I was thinking about this on the train home from workcelling today. It’s crazy how this happened so suddenly it was nearly overnight , atleast that’s how I seem to remember it. In primary school I was one of the more popular kids, people liked me, I was funny, I was quick witted even back then compared to other kids and fun and exciting to be around. Then year 7-9 of secondary school I was again quite popular, guys found me really funny, didn’t talk to girls much tbh but socialising is mainly restricted to your own gender st that ae. I’d always be having sleepovers with my mates where we’d soend all day playing sports ins the park and all night playin video games and watching funny shit on YouTube. Then all of a sudden I hit around age 14 and almost overnight (or atleast that seems how it seemed to me). People just stopped liking me. No one invited me to things anymore, I was ostracized by social circles that I was previously adored by. People started partying and I was never once invited despite being fairly cool/funny prior to these years. I went from outgoing funny kid who messed around in class to quiet shy and reclusive. Back then I assumed I had done something wrong to people to make them not like me and I spent ages trying to make amends with people I might have annoyed because I desperately wanted to be popular and feel loved again like I did before but recently it dawned on me that about 90% of the reason this happened was because I was small and non dimorphic as well as not very good looking and had a late puberty so as a result of these things people viewed me as a loser and didn’t want to be associated with me as they thought it would harm their own social status