
Deleted member 4991
Apricot
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I feel inadequate as a man. The trappings of life I acquire from movies I watch that always have a happy ending. My real life experience lives vicariously through other people's presence on social media. I am very analytical when I gage my surroundings and as an objectively unattractive male I have to work twice as hard to get the same result as someone else. There have been moments in my life where I just think about ending it all and maybe there is another life where I get the things I want and am with the people I am attracted to.
It probably sounds creepy but there are times Im sitting on the bus and see a pretty girl take a seat next to me and thats when I tell myself that, that is as far as things will go. I just cherish the moments I can be next to someone I can only dream of being with in real life. Sometimes I feel like the only one going through this problem but I know that there are many others like me that are going through the same thing. These days I spend my time studying and immersing myself in academia as a way to cope with my inability to partake in the carnal pleasures of life. I just want others to know what I'm going through so they don't feel like the only ones that are suffering.
It's honestly better to not know what you're missing out on.
It probably sounds creepy but there are times Im sitting on the bus and see a pretty girl take a seat next to me and thats when I tell myself that, that is as far as things will go. I just cherish the moments I can be next to someone I can only dream of being with in real life. Sometimes I feel like the only one going through this problem but I know that there are many others like me that are going through the same thing. These days I spend my time studying and immersing myself in academia as a way to cope with my inability to partake in the carnal pleasures of life. I just want others to know what I'm going through so they don't feel like the only ones that are suffering.
It's honestly better to not know what you're missing out on.
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