In new social group and I fucked it all up again, as always

[ihearvoices]

I am uni student now, there is like a student-club and I was invited to the pub to maybe have a drink and chat, and most importantly to get to know the people, i will be attending classes with.

Instead of going w them, I bought myself beer and went home and drank it all alone.

What is wrong with me? It seems like I am enjoying rotting alone, in a sense i find comfort in drowning in despair.

But at the same time i hate myslef for not going.



Don't be like me please.

 

[PlayersGetPlayed]

You can still fix it

 

[Brus Wane]

Instead of going w them, I bought myself beer and went home and drank it all alone.

Ask yourself...why??

 

[ihearvoices]

Ask yourself...why??

Cuz i am isolated faggot

 

[ihearvoices]

You can still fix it

There will be more opportunities later on

 

[Brus Wane]

Cuz i am isolated faggot

I do this sometimes.

I try to do better.

I was brutally bullied and isolated as a kid and I'm 90% sure that's the cause of this.

Ngl it may not get better but I have to try to make a change.

I like to rot but then I hate myself when it's time to go to bed.

Fucked up shit mang.