Kristin
I'm death—Straight up.
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The website was taken down but it's still up on the wayback machine. Unfortunately the images didn't get saved but a lot of his ranting did.
This is just to show what inceldom can do to someone. He obviously thought he had ascended with his student and it sounds like he thought he could have ascended if society didn't fuck things up. He was bitter about it all.
The oldcel was a physics teacher and got fired from his job. I'm not sure if he fucked the girl or not but they were sending messages and so on. Anyway, he eventually lost his career. The girl eventually went to college and started a new college life. Sure enough her pussy lips were wrapped around Chads 8 inch dick relatively quickly. The oldcel was in TURMOIL over this and decided to end his life. On his website he had ripped up all his degrees and accolades
The title of his website was "The pessimist was right all along"
I wish his website wasn't taken down. On it, he had some "Trigger" links and they were all pictures of the girl and Chad and some of the official letters he got from the school firing him.
Here are some quotes from the website. He reached the ER stage but didn't go ER.
This is just to show what inceldom can do to someone. He obviously thought he had ascended with his student and it sounds like he thought he could have ascended if society didn't fuck things up. He was bitter about it all.
The oldcel was a physics teacher and got fired from his job. I'm not sure if he fucked the girl or not but they were sending messages and so on. Anyway, he eventually lost his career. The girl eventually went to college and started a new college life. Sure enough her pussy lips were wrapped around Chads 8 inch dick relatively quickly. The oldcel was in TURMOIL over this and decided to end his life. On his website he had ripped up all his degrees and accolades
The title of his website was "The pessimist was right all along"
I wish his website wasn't taken down. On it, he had some "Trigger" links and they were all pictures of the girl and Chad and some of the official letters he got from the school firing him.
Here are some quotes from the website. He reached the ER stage but didn't go ER.
The pessimist was right all along.
I hate this world.
I wish I'd never been born.
.
Trigger 1 - June 11, 2012
.
.
Someone gets to live happily-ever-after in a fairytale dream.
I get to drown in an ocean of Despair.
The pessimist was right all along.
.
Trigger 2 - December 3, 2012
..
.
High school, college, all the work I've done.
It was all for nothing.
..
.
I DID IT ALL FOR NOTHING.
Trigger 3 - December 16, 2012
..
.
I cannot be with the one I love, I cannot do the work I love.
There is no hope, the dream is lost.
I'm trapped in this Hideous world,
where the twin demons of Loneliness and Despair torment,
where the Longing desiccates,
where tears fall without end.
.
Trigger 4 - January 2, 2013
.
I free myself from this Hideous world.
Loneliness and Despair will torment no longer.
The Longing will evaporate with my dying breath.
Tears will fall no more.
...
.
Trigger 5 - May 20, 2013
.
.
I hate this world.
I wish I'd never been born.
I wish I'd never been afflicted with this CURSE OF LIFE.
..
.
Trigger 6 - September 14, 2013
..
.
All I've ever wanted, the only thing I've ever truly wanted,
was to share my life with a loving partner, my Eve.
Marry, buy a house, start a family, live the dream.
It's all I've ever wanted.
Such a simple thing.
Such a simple dream.
Trigger 7 - September 14, 2013
..
..
.I finally found her. I found my Eve.
I fall in love. She falls in love.
And the Hideous world makes it impossible.
And the Hideous world destroys me.
Happiness, purpose, meaning, value: all stripped away. All gone.
Because I fell in love.
.
Trigger 8 - September 15, 2013
Trigger 9 - September 20, 2013
.
.
I quit the world.
.
.I've completely had it.
.
There is no reason for me to persist in this Hideous world,
where my only dream CANNOT and WILL NOT EVER come true.
.
There is no reason for me to exist in this Hideous world,
where I have no hope, no future, nothing.NOTHING AT ALL.
..
I am ending this nightmare.
I am ending the pain.
.....
I am ENDING.
.
I do want to make one thing perfectly clear before I end:
.
I NEVER. CONTACTED. SOMEONE.
.
Not that the truth matters in this Hideous world.
.
I always knew this would happen one day.
I always knew it would end like this.
.
I always knew.
.
July 29, 2003 -- "In the end, I will most likely die by my own hand."
.
December 16, 2007 -- "I am doomed to die alone."
..
.
November 12, 2011 -- "I will die alone, never having known love."
.
.
Christopher Reese Swanson
.
Afflicted with the curse of life on December 30, 1971
Freed from the curse on September 20, 2013
Dec.
.
.
November 26, 2011 -- "How will it end? I'm so fearful of the answer to that question. I'm...beginning to cry just thinking about it, tears are running down my cheeks. How is this going to end? Am I doomed to lead a lonely life of tears, forced to play back our moments together, crying endlessly as I am now, stricken with such burning pain in my heart? I'm crying so hard that it's hard to write. I have to pause between sentences. She's going to Mercyhurst where she will be with Steven every day. I'm going to be left alone. She's going to leave me behind. Her life will be one of joy and happiness, while mine will be drenched in sorrow and despair. She would never love me anyways. I'm 22 years older than she is. I'm about as old as her mother. The tears keep pouring out. I hate this world. I hate it. I hate everything about it. That's all I have to look forward to: more pain, more tears, sobbing, crying. I wish I had never been born. I wish I would just drop over dead so the pain would end."
.
.
"If
things were different"
.
Jacquie's
Texts
How I feel
about god.
Mirrors
http://www.cswansonphysics.com
http://cswansonphysics.host-ed.me/
http://cswansonphysics.heliohost.org/
http://cswansonphysics.x10.mx/
I hate this world.
I wish I'd never been born.
.
Trigger 1 - June 11, 2012
.
.
Someone gets to live happily-ever-after in a fairytale dream.
I get to drown in an ocean of Despair.
The pessimist was right all along.
.
Trigger 2 - December 3, 2012
..
.
High school, college, all the work I've done.
It was all for nothing.
..
.
I DID IT ALL FOR NOTHING.
Trigger 3 - December 16, 2012
..
.
I cannot be with the one I love, I cannot do the work I love.
There is no hope, the dream is lost.
I'm trapped in this Hideous world,
where the twin demons of Loneliness and Despair torment,
where the Longing desiccates,
where tears fall without end.
.
Trigger 4 - January 2, 2013
.
I free myself from this Hideous world.
Loneliness and Despair will torment no longer.
The Longing will evaporate with my dying breath.
Tears will fall no more.
...
.
Trigger 5 - May 20, 2013
.
.
I hate this world.
I wish I'd never been born.
I wish I'd never been afflicted with this CURSE OF LIFE.
..
.
Trigger 6 - September 14, 2013
..
.
All I've ever wanted, the only thing I've ever truly wanted,
was to share my life with a loving partner, my Eve.
Marry, buy a house, start a family, live the dream.
It's all I've ever wanted.
Such a simple thing.
Such a simple dream.
Trigger 7 - September 14, 2013
..
..
.I finally found her. I found my Eve.
I fall in love. She falls in love.
And the Hideous world makes it impossible.
And the Hideous world destroys me.
Happiness, purpose, meaning, value: all stripped away. All gone.
Because I fell in love.
.
Trigger 8 - September 15, 2013
Trigger 9 - September 20, 2013
.
.
I quit the world.
.
.I've completely had it.
.
There is no reason for me to persist in this Hideous world,
where my only dream CANNOT and WILL NOT EVER come true.
.
There is no reason for me to exist in this Hideous world,
where I have no hope, no future, nothing.NOTHING AT ALL.
..
I am ending this nightmare.
I am ending the pain.
.....
I am ENDING.
.
I do want to make one thing perfectly clear before I end:
.
I NEVER. CONTACTED. SOMEONE.
.
Not that the truth matters in this Hideous world.
.
I always knew this would happen one day.
I always knew it would end like this.
.
I always knew.
.
July 29, 2003 -- "In the end, I will most likely die by my own hand."
.
December 16, 2007 -- "I am doomed to die alone."
..
.
November 12, 2011 -- "I will die alone, never having known love."
.
.
Christopher Reese Swanson
.
Afflicted with the curse of life on December 30, 1971
Freed from the curse on September 20, 2013
Dec.
.
.
November 26, 2011 -- "How will it end? I'm so fearful of the answer to that question. I'm...beginning to cry just thinking about it, tears are running down my cheeks. How is this going to end? Am I doomed to lead a lonely life of tears, forced to play back our moments together, crying endlessly as I am now, stricken with such burning pain in my heart? I'm crying so hard that it's hard to write. I have to pause between sentences. She's going to Mercyhurst where she will be with Steven every day. I'm going to be left alone. She's going to leave me behind. Her life will be one of joy and happiness, while mine will be drenched in sorrow and despair. She would never love me anyways. I'm 22 years older than she is. I'm about as old as her mother. The tears keep pouring out. I hate this world. I hate it. I hate everything about it. That's all I have to look forward to: more pain, more tears, sobbing, crying. I wish I had never been born. I wish I would just drop over dead so the pain would end."
.
.
"If
things were different"
.
Jacquie's
Texts
How I feel
about god.
Mirrors
http://www.cswansonphysics.com
http://cswansonphysics.host-ed.me/
http://cswansonphysics.heliohost.org/
http://cswansonphysics.x10.mx/
