Is my hatefulness nerfing me

[faustchan]

This sounds like kind of a stupid question but it's genuinely serious. My brother causes so much stress and hate in my life that I worry it's fucking up my cortisol levels by being around him and making me function worse.
I have two brothers, one of them I love dearly and the other one actually makes me sick to be around. He's loud, only asks stupid questions, refuses to take care of himself (22, wont go to college or move out, yells at my parents, all around chud) and the amount of hate I hold for him has made me physically sick on multiple occasions LMAO I cant eat around him. I'm aware that this is probably a moral failing on my part but like how do I get over this and be happier to improve my life. trying to be a better person but also I cant stand him, my parents are genuinely good people and he's rude as hell to them 24/7. Or does it even matter

 

[Vireon]

Yeah you do get a cortisol spike when you see him

How old are you and your other brother who'm u like?

 

[faustchan]

Yeah you do get a cortisol spike when you see him

How old are you and your other brother who'm u like?

hes 13 im 16

 

[Vireon]

hes 13 im 16

Oh brutal


I reco u get a job and start saving so u can instantly move out at 18 with your brother, and your brother when hes 16 also could get a job then and help around

 

[faustchan]

Yea I work at a warehouse near me its lifesaving thank u dude preciate it