SHARK
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Today I took a girl from school out to lunch. I had a good time, she laughed a lot, and overall I thought it went well. The problem is I don't think she likes me romantically. Let me know if there's any way to tell. From what I felt, I felt no romantic vibes at all.
The main thing that's bothering me though is after I drop her off. I have nothing in my life. I had a great time spent with someone, but now I drive alone in my car again. Go home and LDAR again. I have no other friends. No other hobbies. Nothing. My life is empty.
I can't fraud anything. This girl will eventually find out how much of a lonely, friendless, loser I am. As mgtow and redpill teaches, a woman only loves what you can give to her. She can't just love you for you. And if that's true, then I am unlovable. I have no social value to bring to a girl, no monetary value to bring a girl, nothing. And I'm ugly. I am worthless.
This girl will go on to text her friends tonight. Go to her sports practice with friends tonight. Hang out with a group of friends this weekend. Imagine a split screen as she does all these things on the right side of the screen, and I'm on the left side lying in my room lonely and crying.
I mean nothing to nobody. During the car drive home I realized that there's nothing that will fill the void of missing teenage love. If this girl likes me, she will eventually leave me. It's over. Everything I wanted in life, I got none of it. There's nothing I look forward to anymore. I don't care about a career, money, fame, nothing.
I remember when I was a young kid, and I thought to myself that life ends at 19. There's nothing good anymore. Today my younger self was proven right. My life is pointless. There's nothing worth living for now.
I can't even take looksmaxxing seriously. Even if I became Brad Pitt and started getting girl's attention, it wouldn't matter.
As for this girl, I see her every day, which is why it's so risky to make a move. But I can't go out without trying.
I will go for the kiss next time we hang out. If she accepts, maybe I will be filled with a new energy, euphoric, passion for life.
If she rejects me, I will run away from this place.
"Forever, and ever, the scars will remain."
The main thing that's bothering me though is after I drop her off. I have nothing in my life. I had a great time spent with someone, but now I drive alone in my car again. Go home and LDAR again. I have no other friends. No other hobbies. Nothing. My life is empty.
I can't fraud anything. This girl will eventually find out how much of a lonely, friendless, loser I am. As mgtow and redpill teaches, a woman only loves what you can give to her. She can't just love you for you. And if that's true, then I am unlovable. I have no social value to bring to a girl, no monetary value to bring a girl, nothing. And I'm ugly. I am worthless.
This girl will go on to text her friends tonight. Go to her sports practice with friends tonight. Hang out with a group of friends this weekend. Imagine a split screen as she does all these things on the right side of the screen, and I'm on the left side lying in my room lonely and crying.
I mean nothing to nobody. During the car drive home I realized that there's nothing that will fill the void of missing teenage love. If this girl likes me, she will eventually leave me. It's over. Everything I wanted in life, I got none of it. There's nothing I look forward to anymore. I don't care about a career, money, fame, nothing.
I remember when I was a young kid, and I thought to myself that life ends at 19. There's nothing good anymore. Today my younger self was proven right. My life is pointless. There's nothing worth living for now.
I can't even take looksmaxxing seriously. Even if I became Brad Pitt and started getting girl's attention, it wouldn't matter.
As for this girl, I see her every day, which is why it's so risky to make a move. But I can't go out without trying.
I will go for the kiss next time we hang out. If she accepts, maybe I will be filled with a new energy, euphoric, passion for life.
If she rejects me, I will run away from this place.
"Forever, and ever, the scars will remain."
