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I’ve been drunkenly venting and rambling my way out of depression for most of the last hour so gonna sum shit up here and tag mad niggas to see what y’all think. Gonna try to be concise but it’s probably gonna be long, read it or don’t, suck my medium white cock.
TLDR AT THE END
You all know about the sleep issues I’ve been struggling with since middle school that have stopped me from being productive at much of anything for years. You know I had a few surgeries earlier this year that weren’t the quick fix I’d hoped they’d be. But here’s some news, and I really really really fucking hope I don’t jinx myself by posting this:
For the last 4 nights I’ve been dreaming vividly and waking up every 1-3 hours(1-2 sleep cycles). First night I slept for 3 hours twice, dreamt vivid both times, then had a 1.5 hour nap with dreams during the day. Next night i slept ~12 hours, literally waking up from vivid dreams after every sleep cycle. Like 6-8 times in one night. Next night was somewhere in between, and last night was more like the first, two blocks with dreams, but I had morning wood this time.
Praying I don’t jinx it, but this is the most progress towards recovery I’ve ever had. Since middle school id wake up early from dreams/with wood aka from a full sleep cycle like twice a year. Since surgeries(last few months) it’d happen like twice a month. Now it’s happened 10+ times in 4 nights. If I continue like this and my brain figures out how to chain the sleep cycles together instead of waking up then suddenly I’m healed and I can start catching up on last sleep and going through the day with more energy/alertness, and getting more energetic and awake and rested by the day.
Anyway, hope I didn’t jinx the fuck out of myself. But yeah for years my plan was to get into tech, work remote, bounce to EE or something and live lavish with my usd and fuck hot girls. And get bimax to 6 psl chad at some point. But now I’m thinking fuck that.
Ive got plenty of time to travel around and be a money maxxed lonely sigma chad and fuck prime girls in cheap countries. But I’m only young once. I think I’m gonna get my tech skills to where I can make good money freelancing part time instead of working a normal job and then go back to college. Enroll at like 23 frauding a youthful prettyboy look with my John B hair and a clean shave, and rush a frat. Like a big frat. Like pick the school entirely based on how good of a frat/party school it is. Keep in mind I’ve got 100k in my college fund that my parents refuse to use on anything else so I’d be rent free debt free for a few years.
Instead of spending the next few years as a non nt social anxiety lonely remote work slayer like @Amnesia I could spend my days bullshitting classes/making $50/hr on dev work. Then spending every night hanging with the boys, chilling with a girl, or partying my ass off. Making true friendships for the first time in years. Having an active social life where I meet and get to know lots of prime hot girls and don’t have to desperately force shit like I do rn with tinder. Making tons of memories, and having stories to tell. Belonging to something. Having status. Being known, liked, appreciated, desired. Fuuuuck.
When I graduate with my bullshit degree at like 26-27(I’m a sophomore rn technically) I’ll have tons of friends to stay in touch with, old flings to reconnect with, status, memories, stories, a much more nt and socially skilled brain, confidence
, and a good deal of money and tech skills to go full time with. That’s ideal as fuck.
I’ve lost years of my youth, but that doesn’t mean I should give up on it. It’ll be weird, I may be judged, I might fraud my age on dating apps, I might struggle to fit in with the young TikTok generation frat boys who are 5 years younger than me. But if it works it’s so worth it. Gotta make the most of the youth I’ve got left bc I’ll only have it once. Then when I leave to travel the world making bank and enjoying the beautiful girls, I’ll know I didn’t miss out on shit back home. Not like being 27 instead of 24 will impact my ability to slay in Colombia or Ukraine(thank you finasteride
).
Ok that’s enough. That’s my new plan. What do you guys think? Is that the right move to accept the awkwardness of being older for the sake of the irreplaceable social experiences and environment provided by a fat party school? Any feedback or a rep or a bump or a dnr is appreciated bc I just spent so much fucking time typing thx
TLDR: sleep is getting better(hopefully). I want to postpone my plans to do remote tech work traveling and instead make the most of my dwindling youth by going back to college to party my ass off in a frat for a few years while bullshitting classes and doing part time tech work. Then graduate and go about my plans of traveling to countries where my us tech salary makes me rich and jbw makes me a chad as a much more experienced, outgoing, nt, confident man than if I went straight into the sigma manwhore life as soon as I got healthy.
@Biggdink @looksmaxxer234 @CupOfCoffee @stewiegriffin @Chadeep @MyAssStinksLikeShit @wanttobeattractive @lutte @ArvidGustavsson @MoeZart @Nobagger @one job away @Carolus @Xangsane @tyronelite @LooksOverAll @ifyouwannabemylover @TsarTsar444 @PYT @koalendo @AlwaysHaveQuestions @ShowerMaxxing @germanlooks @Gargantuan @BigBiceps @kjsbdfiusdf @Titbot @ShitLife @FastBananaCEO @Zakamg @RealLooksmaxxer @MarkCorrigan @sytyl @Acnno @LastHopeForNorman thoughts?
TLDR AT THE END
You all know about the sleep issues I’ve been struggling with since middle school that have stopped me from being productive at much of anything for years. You know I had a few surgeries earlier this year that weren’t the quick fix I’d hoped they’d be. But here’s some news, and I really really really fucking hope I don’t jinx myself by posting this:
For the last 4 nights I’ve been dreaming vividly and waking up every 1-3 hours(1-2 sleep cycles). First night I slept for 3 hours twice, dreamt vivid both times, then had a 1.5 hour nap with dreams during the day. Next night i slept ~12 hours, literally waking up from vivid dreams after every sleep cycle. Like 6-8 times in one night. Next night was somewhere in between, and last night was more like the first, two blocks with dreams, but I had morning wood this time.
Praying I don’t jinx it, but this is the most progress towards recovery I’ve ever had. Since middle school id wake up early from dreams/with wood aka from a full sleep cycle like twice a year. Since surgeries(last few months) it’d happen like twice a month. Now it’s happened 10+ times in 4 nights. If I continue like this and my brain figures out how to chain the sleep cycles together instead of waking up then suddenly I’m healed and I can start catching up on last sleep and going through the day with more energy/alertness, and getting more energetic and awake and rested by the day.
Anyway, hope I didn’t jinx the fuck out of myself. But yeah for years my plan was to get into tech, work remote, bounce to EE or something and live lavish with my usd and fuck hot girls. And get bimax to 6 psl chad at some point. But now I’m thinking fuck that.
Ive got plenty of time to travel around and be a money maxxed lonely sigma chad and fuck prime girls in cheap countries. But I’m only young once. I think I’m gonna get my tech skills to where I can make good money freelancing part time instead of working a normal job and then go back to college. Enroll at like 23 frauding a youthful prettyboy look with my John B hair and a clean shave, and rush a frat. Like a big frat. Like pick the school entirely based on how good of a frat/party school it is. Keep in mind I’ve got 100k in my college fund that my parents refuse to use on anything else so I’d be rent free debt free for a few years.
Instead of spending the next few years as a non nt social anxiety lonely remote work slayer like @Amnesia I could spend my days bullshitting classes/making $50/hr on dev work. Then spending every night hanging with the boys, chilling with a girl, or partying my ass off. Making true friendships for the first time in years. Having an active social life where I meet and get to know lots of prime hot girls and don’t have to desperately force shit like I do rn with tinder. Making tons of memories, and having stories to tell. Belonging to something. Having status. Being known, liked, appreciated, desired. Fuuuuck.
When I graduate with my bullshit degree at like 26-27(I’m a sophomore rn technically) I’ll have tons of friends to stay in touch with, old flings to reconnect with, status, memories, stories, a much more nt and socially skilled brain, confidence
, and a good deal of money and tech skills to go full time with. That’s ideal as fuck.I’ve lost years of my youth, but that doesn’t mean I should give up on it. It’ll be weird, I may be judged, I might fraud my age on dating apps, I might struggle to fit in with the young TikTok generation frat boys who are 5 years younger than me. But if it works it’s so worth it. Gotta make the most of the youth I’ve got left bc I’ll only have it once. Then when I leave to travel the world making bank and enjoying the beautiful girls, I’ll know I didn’t miss out on shit back home. Not like being 27 instead of 24 will impact my ability to slay in Colombia or Ukraine(thank you finasteride
).Ok that’s enough. That’s my new plan. What do you guys think? Is that the right move to accept the awkwardness of being older for the sake of the irreplaceable social experiences and environment provided by a fat party school? Any feedback or a rep or a bump or a dnr is appreciated bc I just spent so much fucking time typing thx
TLDR: sleep is getting better(hopefully). I want to postpone my plans to do remote tech work traveling and instead make the most of my dwindling youth by going back to college to party my ass off in a frat for a few years while bullshitting classes and doing part time tech work. Then graduate and go about my plans of traveling to countries where my us tech salary makes me rich and jbw makes me a chad as a much more experienced, outgoing, nt, confident man than if I went straight into the sigma manwhore life as soon as I got healthy.
@Biggdink @looksmaxxer234 @CupOfCoffee @stewiegriffin @Chadeep @MyAssStinksLikeShit @wanttobeattractive @lutte @ArvidGustavsson @MoeZart @Nobagger @one job away @Carolus @Xangsane @tyronelite @LooksOverAll @ifyouwannabemylover @TsarTsar444 @PYT @koalendo @AlwaysHaveQuestions @ShowerMaxxing @germanlooks @Gargantuan @BigBiceps @kjsbdfiusdf @Titbot @ShitLife @FastBananaCEO @Zakamg @RealLooksmaxxer @MarkCorrigan @sytyl @Acnno @LastHopeForNorman thoughts?
