My life and the downward spiral

[DwayneWhite55]

Since I have been questioned that I'm a 39 year old bum and should have a degree I will tell you what happened. And how brutal life can be. I've only learned by making the mistakes but once you are fucked it's about impossible to get out of it.

Story-

So before I met my x wife at 20-21 ,I felt young and had time on my side. I had my grandfather who didn't charge me rent. I was a server and decided to save up for braces. I got them and my next goals was to do college. But I was love starved and got with the first girl who clinged on to me. I tried to be with her bouncing from dysfunctional family house to dysfunctional family house till I was about 24 and we had our daughter.

Now when she was pregnant I knew I had little time to get my shit together. I would get student loans but blew them on gambling addiction trying to get more money. Then she cheated,and had a black man's baby. It got really bad,but I was doing small college still. My x stoled my car and I quit college. My grandfather died and my x wife took the baby and moved to her parents.

I was stuck with my dead beat mom who just wanted to take money from me for her alcohol and drug addiction with her husband. I was working a shit job making minimum wage. My x that said she'd never get me for child support,got me for child support. I lost my shitty job for being 2 minutes late. And they took my license away and they expired at the same time.

That left me with no car living with my shitty mother. My sister and her kids move in with my mom and turns to heroin. They tell me to apply for ssi benefits for mental reasons so I could get out of their house and on my own. I was "too old" to be with them they said.

My mother loses the house because of drug addiction and moves in with her husband's brother. I had nowhere to go. I had to go to a homeless shelter. Where they didn't help me. Even with case managers and programs.

They was about to kick me out of the shelter and my case manager at the last minute says oh we can put you into a mental group home I should of got you in there sooner. After 4 months in a shelter.

At the group home jobs would not hire me,I tried getting back into the near by college and I got denied because I owed school loans. They said I had to pay a year's worth to even be considered again. So I went through these job programs even going to job fairs with my case manager. Still would not get hired anywhere but this horrible couple of places where I quit,I just couldn't do that type of work.

Group home managers wife dies says they are shutting down their group home. Also when I arrived at the group home that's when I found out about reddit and incels btw. So they said I have to go to another group home.

Went to this new group home and I started applying at their regular jobs around that area right away. I found a gas station job. Where it was straight ghetto at night. Loads of blacks at night yelling at me ,gathering around the gas station like it's a club. Demanding their snacks,drinks,cigars and whatever else. I saved a good amount of money,but had the itch again to go to a casino and try to get easy money and double it. I end up losing it all.

I still continued to work,but it caught up to me and the group home manager wanted to know how much I had saved I said nothing I gambled it away. She wanted to kick me out and the system was saying I won't be eligible to another group home. So my mom had got ssi at this time and inherited a trailer. So she says come live with her.

I find a job near her place within a month. At a drive thru convenient store. I eventually save up 2000 dollars for a car , even being outside in the bitter cold and looked at as ugly at my job. I did even gamble away my 800 I got for the covid stimmy once again trying to get more money. Finally though I get a car from a private owner. Cars are very expensive here.

I got into it with a co worker so went to another gas station down the road. Where I've been working ever since,the tips are not as good and I pay 86 dollars a week for child support. Finally got my license back after 10 years ,but my cars radiator blew with nobody to fix it.

It's been a real struggle trying to save money now,when you smoke cigarettes pay for food and have to buy what your mother wants just to live with her basically making minimum wage with child support taken out.

Now I have people on here saying I'm a bum and it's my fault and get up and change my life like some normie who's had it easy all their life. When I first moved back here my sister who has used a military guy for his money told "look at you get your life together!!" Then spit on me and pushed me,I slapped her. She called the police on me too but I told them she's coming with me to jail then and they dismissed the charges.

 

[MostGLSlayer]

Brutal I wouldve roped

 

[DwayneWhite55]

Brutal I wouldve roped

I was close to it in the first group home

 

[DivineBeing]

You literally made all mistakes possible.

R u retarded?

 

[MostGLSlayer]

Seem like you couldve had a different life if you didnt meet your ex wife

 

[Vermilioncore]

It’s over for you.

But for me it’s not over. Because it never even began.

 

[Reckless Turtle]

This is what happens when you breed.

 

[DwayneWhite55]

Seem like you couldve had a different life if you didnt meet your ex wife

I no doubt would of lol them were the years I should of career maxed while I had my grandfather alive.

 

[DwayneWhite55]

You literally made all mistakes possible.

R u retarded?

Well the first mistake was wanting a relationship and love so bad,it came from all them teenager years not being wanted ,called ugly, and outcasted in my teens. When I got a girlfriend I felt happy and young. It all went to shit.

As for gambling addiction it was a symptom of not having enough money for anything I really needed or wanted. I had won a couple times and thought I could do it again. I really think it's evil spirits or something that makes you want to gamble. I've been getting them again. Even though after you lose all your money you are so pissed and hurt you swear up and down you're never gambling again. But the itch comes back in about a year when you still just don't have enough money for what you want and need.

 

[Deleted member 14138]

Since I have been questioned that I'm a 39 year old bum and should have a degree I will tell you what happened. And how brutal life can be. I've only learned by making the mistakes but once you are fucked it's about impossible to get out of it.

Story-

So before I met my x wife at 20-21 ,I felt young and had time on my side. I had my grandfather who didn't charge me rent. I was a server and decided to save up for braces. I got them and my next goals was to do college. But I was love starved and got with the first girl who clinged on to me. I tried to be with her bouncing from dysfunctional family house to dysfunctional family house till I was about 24 and we had our daughter.

Now when she was pregnant I knew I had little time to get my shit together. I would get student loans but blew them on gambling addiction trying to get more money. Then she cheated,and had a black man's baby. It got really bad,but I was doing small college still. My x stoled my car and I quit college. My grandfather died and my x wife took the baby and moved to her parents.

I was stuck with my dead beat mom who just wanted to take money from me for her alcohol and drug addiction with her husband. I was working a shit job making minimum wage. My x that said she'd never get me for child support,got me for child support. I lost my shitty job for being 2 minutes late. And they took my license away and they expired at the same time.

That left me with no car living with my shitty mother. My sister and her kids move in with my mom and turns to heroin. They tell me to apply for ssi benefits for mental reasons so I could get out of their house and on my own. I was "too old" to be with them they said.

My mother loses the house because of drug addiction and moves in with her husband's brother. I had nowhere to go. I had to go to a homeless shelter. Where they didn't help me. Even with case managers and programs.

They was about to kick me out of the shelter and my case manager at the last minute says oh we can put you into a mental group home I should of got you in there sooner. After 4 months in a shelter.

At the group home jobs would not hire me,I tried getting back into the near by college and I got denied because I owed school loans. They said I had to pay a year's worth to even be considered again. So I went through these job programs even going to job fairs with my case manager. Still would not get hired anywhere but this horrible couple of places where I quit,I just couldn't do that type of work.

Group home managers wife dies says they are shutting down their group home. Also when I arrived at the group home that's when I found out about reddit and incels btw. So they said I have to go to another group home.

Went to this new group home and I started applying at their regular jobs around that area right away. I found a gas station job. Where it was straight ghetto at night. Loads of blacks at night yelling at me ,gathering around the gas station like it's a club. Demanding their snacks,drinks,cigars and whatever else. I saved a good amount of money,but had the itch again to go to a casino and try to get easy money and double it. I end up losing it all.

I still continued to work,but it caught up to me and the group home manager wanted to know how much I had saved I said nothing I gambled it away. She wanted to kick me out and the system was saying I won't be eligible to another group home. So my mom had got ssi at this time and inherited a trailer. So she says come live with her.

I find a job near her place within a month. At a drive thru convenient store. I eventually save up 2000 dollars for a car , even being outside in the bitter cold and looked at as ugly at my job. I did even gamble away my 800 I got for the covid stimmy once again trying to get more money. Finally though I get a car from a private owner. Cars are very expensive here.

I got into it with a co worker so went to another gas station down the road. Where I've been working ever since,the tips are not as good and I pay 86 dollars a week for child support. Finally got my license back after 10 years ,but my cars radiator blew with nobody to fix it.

It's been a real struggle trying to save money now,when you smoke cigarettes pay for food and have to buy what your mother wants just to live with her basically making minimum wage with child support taken out.

Now I have people on here saying I'm a bum and it's my fault and get up and change my life like some normie who's had it easy all their life. When I first moved back here my sister who has used a military guy for his money told "look at you get your life together!!" Then spit on me and pushed me,I slapped her. She called the police on me too but I told them she's coming with me to jail then and they dismissed the charges.

Men in America are the most oppressed group of people. I have some stories too. Not like yours but I've had some bull shit to manage.

 

[Entschuldigung]

At least you live in first world
Chinese factory worker haven't seen the sunlight in 3 years and never touched a woman and still happy when he eats his dumplings

 

[DwayneWhite55]

At least you live in first world
Chinese factory worker haven't seen the sunlight in 3 years and never touched a woman and still happy when he eats his dumplings

How you know?

 

[DwayneWhite55]

Men in America are the most oppressed group of people. I have some stories too. Not like yours but I've had some bull shit to manage.

Yeah it used to be not bad in the 70s and 80s,a guy could afford a house and family just working at a factory. Now it's totally fucked.

 

[Deleted member 14138]

Yeah it used to be not bad in the 70s and 80s,a guy could afford a house and family just working at a factory. Now it's totally fucked.

Now you are actually better off not putting effort into work. You should at least do something with your life, but the kind of work ethic that this country used to praise is seen as more of a weakness these days, like you are "desperate". I used to offer to do extra work at my job, but I just kept getting screwed over doing that, so now I just do the bare minimum when it comes to work. Then I focus more of my life towards other things.

 

[DivineBeing]

Wow this is heart breaking, and crazy how things in life can change in a whim.

I will pray for you right now, and seek a relationship with Jesus.

maybe try scrapping together some $ to move to Thailand? Atleast there you can get some pussy to calm your nerves. Or better yet, cambodia since it’s a bit cheaper with easier visas.

this man should be a reminder to all of us to cherish what we have, and realize that things can change quickly, so always prepare for the worse.

God Bless you, Dwayne. I hope you see your child.

went from rotting with literal instagram models to being a shut-in subhuman

happened in a whim

but tbh ill get them back in 2 years so its ok

but life is brutal boyo

 

[Cali Yuga]

what you have to understand is that down is actually up though

 

[DivineBeing]

I’ve never had life events that have been this bad so these posts scare me. Hopefully I’ve prepared well enough for when something eventually happens on this scale.

they creep in gradually though the best way to avoid it is to be aware whats happening around you

for me i was in denial and didnt recognise reality so thats that

it was a good lesson for me though

at 22 im so way ahead of everyone now because i can calculate my situation almost bias-free and thus make better decisions

this stuf never just happens as an explosion there usually a clear buildup

getting LL and all this lookism stuff wouldnt have happened had i not crashed

and if im even more gl i can replicate rotting with insta models

 

[DwayneWhite55]

I’ve never had life events that have been this bad so these posts scare me. Hopefully I’ve prepared well enough for when something eventually happens on this scale.

That's part of the reason I share my stories, hopefully some guy out there can see what happened to me and not make my mistakes.

 

[DwayneWhite55]

they creep in gradually though the best way to avoid it is to be aware whats happening around you

for me i was in denial and didnt recognise reality so thats that

it was a good lesson for me though

at 22 im so way ahead of everyone now because i can calculate my situation almost bias-free and thus make better decisions

this stuf never just happens as an explosion there usually a clear buildup

getting LL and all this lookism stuff wouldnt have happened had i not crashed

and if im even more gl i can replicate rotting with insta models

Yeah it's a build up

 

[Deleted member 16456]

Damn daddy sorry i made fun of you i was only joking

 

[DwayneWhite55]

they creep in gradually though the best way to avoid it is to be aware whats happening around you

for me i was in denial and didnt recognise reality so thats that

it was a good lesson for me though

at 22 im so way ahead of everyone now because i can calculate my situation almost bias-free and thus make better decisions

this stuf never just happens as an explosion there usually a clear buildup

getting LL and all this lookism stuff wouldnt have happened had i not crashed

and if im even more gl i can replicate rotting with insta models

I would say my biggest mistake was not knowing how serious getting in a relationship is. Because of feminist cucked society that favors the woman.

You absolutely cannot have a kid/kids or get married if you do not have a good income and career. Because society doesn't give a fuck and will still ass rape you for child support. Send you to jail ,take your license. All it is is another government scam.

 

[DivineBeing]

I would say my biggest mistake was not knowing how serious getting in a relationship is. Because of feminist cucked society that favors the woman.

You absolutely cannot have a kid/kids or get married if you do not have a good income and career. Because society doesn't give a fuck and will still ass rape you for child support. Send you to jail ,take your license. All it is is another government scam.

ngl i thought loosing your teeth was your worst mistake

getting someone preggo isnt as bad

id rather keep my jaw and pay child support than lose it and pay none

 

[DwayneWhite55]

ngl i thought loosing your teeth was your worst mistake

getting someone preggo isnt as bad

id rather keep my jaw and pay child support than lose it and pay none

Yes that was a bad mistake on my looks part. But I still had my teeth at 27-28 years old with a few minor cavities. Didn't have the money for a dentist.

Was looking to replace my x wife with someone else and tried hard too online dating and I went to meet a good share of girls but it never really worked. They either didn't want me,I didn't want them or lived kind of too far with no place of my own.

So my biggest mistake was not using the years I had my grandfather to do something productive. Instead I was trying to be with my x and got her pregnant. And that led to child support fucking my life up when they took my license. It still effects me today because I have to pay 86 a week for a child I never get to see and hates me. The money probably never sees my daughter and my x can do what she wants with it.

 

[ROTTING]

they creep in gradually though the best way to avoid it is to be aware whats happening around you

for me i was in denial and didnt recognise reality so thats that

it was a good lesson for me though

at 22 im so way ahead of everyone now because i can calculate my situation almost bias-free and thus make better decisions

this stuf never just happens as an explosion there usually a clear buildup

getting LL and all this lookism stuff wouldnt have happened had i not crashed

and if im even more gl i can replicate rotting with insta models

I’m curious what happened to you tbh. You’re at least a pretty boy Chadlite facially and here you are autisticly rotting on this aspie forum

 

[FinallyAscended]

Since I have been questioned that I'm a 39 year old bum and should have a degree I will tell you what happened. And how brutal life can be. I've only learned by making the mistakes but once you are fucked it's about impossible to get out of it.

Story-

So before I met my x wife at 20-21 ,I felt young and had time on my side. I had my grandfather who didn't charge me rent. I was a server and decided to save up for braces. I got them and my next goals was to do college. But I was love starved and got with the first girl who clinged on to me. I tried to be with her bouncing from dysfunctional family house to dysfunctional family house till I was about 24 and we had our daughter.

Now when she was pregnant I knew I had little time to get my shit together. I would get student loans but blew them on gambling addiction trying to get more money. Then she cheated,and had a black man's baby. It got really bad,but I was doing small college still. My x stoled my car and I quit college. My grandfather died and my x wife took the baby and moved to her parents.

I was stuck with my dead beat mom who just wanted to take money from me for her alcohol and drug addiction with her husband. I was working a shit job making minimum wage. My x that said she'd never get me for child support,got me for child support. I lost my shitty job for being 2 minutes late. And they took my license away and they expired at the same time.

That left me with no car living with my shitty mother. My sister and her kids move in with my mom and turns to heroin. They tell me to apply for ssi benefits for mental reasons so I could get out of their house and on my own. I was "too old" to be with them they said.

My mother loses the house because of drug addiction and moves in with her husband's brother. I had nowhere to go. I had to go to a homeless shelter. Where they didn't help me. Even with case managers and programs.

They was about to kick me out of the shelter and my case manager at the last minute says oh we can put you into a mental group home I should of got you in there sooner. After 4 months in a shelter.

At the group home jobs would not hire me,I tried getting back into the near by college and I got denied because I owed school loans. They said I had to pay a year's worth to even be considered again. So I went through these job programs even going to job fairs with my case manager. Still would not get hired anywhere but this horrible couple of places where I quit,I just couldn't do that type of work.

Group home managers wife dies says they are shutting down their group home. Also when I arrived at the group home that's when I found out about reddit and incels btw. So they said I have to go to another group home.

Went to this new group home and I started applying at their regular jobs around that area right away. I found a gas station job. Where it was straight ghetto at night. Loads of blacks at night yelling at me ,gathering around the gas station like it's a club. Demanding their snacks,drinks,cigars and whatever else. I saved a good amount of money,but had the itch again to go to a casino and try to get easy money and double it. I end up losing it all.

I still continued to work,but it caught up to me and the group home manager wanted to know how much I had saved I said nothing I gambled it away. She wanted to kick me out and the system was saying I won't be eligible to another group home. So my mom had got ssi at this time and inherited a trailer. So she says come live with her.

I find a job near her place within a month. At a drive thru convenient store. I eventually save up 2000 dollars for a car , even being outside in the bitter cold and looked at as ugly at my job. I did even gamble away my 800 I got for the covid stimmy once again trying to get more money. Finally though I get a car from a private owner. Cars are very expensive here.

I got into it with a co worker so went to another gas station down the road. Where I've been working ever since,the tips are not as good and I pay 86 dollars a week for child support. Finally got my license back after 10 years ,but my cars radiator blew with nobody to fix it.

It's been a real struggle trying to save money now,when you smoke cigarettes pay for food and have to buy what your mother wants just to live with her basically making minimum wage with child support taken out.

Now I have people on here saying I'm a bum and it's my fault and get up and change my life like some normie who's had it easy all their life. When I first moved back here my sister who has used a military guy for his money told "look at you get your life together!!" Then spit on me and pushed me,I slapped her. She called the police on me too but I told them she's coming with me to jail then and they dismissed the charges.

That’s because your a racist bigot

 

[DwayneWhite55]

That’s because your a racist bigot

And black people ain't?

 

[FinallyAscended]

And black people ain't?

No you enslaved them you and your family should feel ashamed

 

[TITUS]

Sounds like low class people's problems. Surviving for you is often a matter of chance (beating the casino).

 

[PrisonBreakFan08]

Since I have been questioned that I'm a 39 year old bum and should have a degree I will tell you what happened. And how brutal life can be. I've only learned by making the mistakes but once you are fucked it's about impossible to get out of it.

Story-

So before I met my x wife at 20-21 ,I felt young and had time on my side. I had my grandfather who didn't charge me rent. I was a server and decided to save up for braces. I got them and my next goals was to do college. But I was love starved and got with the first girl who clinged on to me. I tried to be with her bouncing from dysfunctional family house to dysfunctional family house till I was about 24 and we had our daughter.

Now when she was pregnant I knew I had little time to get my shit together. I would get student loans but blew them on gambling addiction trying to get more money. Then she cheated,and had a black man's baby. It got really bad,but I was doing small college still. My x stoled my car and I quit college. My grandfather died and my x wife took the baby and moved to her parents.

I was stuck with my dead beat mom who just wanted to take money from me for her alcohol and drug addiction with her husband. I was working a shit job making minimum wage. My x that said she'd never get me for child support,got me for child support. I lost my shitty job for being 2 minutes late. And they took my license away and they expired at the same time.

That left me with no car living with my shitty mother. My sister and her kids move in with my mom and turns to heroin. They tell me to apply for ssi benefits for mental reasons so I could get out of their house and on my own. I was "too old" to be with them they said.

My mother loses the house because of drug addiction and moves in with her husband's brother. I had nowhere to go. I had to go to a homeless shelter. Where they didn't help me. Even with case managers and programs.

They was about to kick me out of the shelter and my case manager at the last minute says oh we can put you into a mental group home I should of got you in there sooner. After 4 months in a shelter.

At the group home jobs would not hire me,I tried getting back into the near by college and I got denied because I owed school loans. They said I had to pay a year's worth to even be considered again. So I went through these job programs even going to job fairs with my case manager. Still would not get hired anywhere but this horrible couple of places where I quit,I just couldn't do that type of work.

Group home managers wife dies says they are shutting down their group home. Also when I arrived at the group home that's when I found out about reddit and incels btw. So they said I have to go to another group home.

Went to this new group home and I started applying at their regular jobs around that area right away. I found a gas station job. Where it was straight ghetto at night. Loads of blacks at night yelling at me ,gathering around the gas station like it's a club. Demanding their snacks,drinks,cigars and whatever else. I saved a good amount of money,but had the itch again to go to a casino and try to get easy money and double it. I end up losing it all.

I still continued to work,but it caught up to me and the group home manager wanted to know how much I had saved I said nothing I gambled it away. She wanted to kick me out and the system was saying I won't be eligible to another group home. So my mom had got ssi at this time and inherited a trailer. So she says come live with her.

I find a job near her place within a month. At a drive thru convenient store. I eventually save up 2000 dollars for a car , even being outside in the bitter cold and looked at as ugly at my job. I did even gamble away my 800 I got for the covid stimmy once again trying to get more money. Finally though I get a car from a private owner. Cars are very expensive here.

I got into it with a co worker so went to another gas station down the road. Where I've been working ever since,the tips are not as good and I pay 86 dollars a week for child support. Finally got my license back after 10 years ,but my cars radiator blew with nobody to fix it.

It's been a real struggle trying to save money now,when you smoke cigarettes pay for food and have to buy what your mother wants just to live with her basically making minimum wage with child support taken out.

Now I have people on here saying I'm a bum and it's my fault and get up and change my life like some normie who's had it easy all their life. When I first moved back here my sister who has used a military guy for his money told "look at you get your life together!!" Then spit on me and pushed me,I slapped her. She called the police on me too but I told them she's coming with me to jail then and they dismissed the charges.

Man almost everyone here has a suicide fuel life story

 

[hebecel]

You literally made all mistakes possible

this. if ur poor dont have kids, dont smoke and dont gamble. at least not until you get ur shit together

 

[Deleted member 5786]

I’m curious what happened to you tbh. You’re at least a pretty boy Chadlite facially and here you are autisticly rotting on this aspie forum

He is ugly slavic-looking, far from chadlite. Many users mog him to death. No wonder he found this forum since he lives in murican countries.
Wouldn't struggle in russia though

 

[hypergamy]

Be careful with who you have sex with. Wear a condom, pull out and encourage birth control.

Also OP, gambling is a serious waste of time. Investing in safer, more humble things would be smarter.

 

[Baldingman1998]

Damn daddy sorry i made fun of you i was only joking

Same tbh.
Thank God I'm a sand nigger and not white. Family is number one here. That's extremely fucked up how everyone in his life abandoned him. Thank God I'm Ethnic. Thank God I'm a sand nigger. I'm gonna go eat some high carb foods and prayer to God for this blessing

 

[Baldingman1998]

No you enslaved them you and your family should feel ashamed

Fuck niggers