Rambling about suicide and sexual assault

[Deleted member 2403]

Rambling rant about nothing (tigger warning talks of suicide self harm and sexual assault)

I feel like garbage I’m sore and unmotivated and i want to feel better but i refuse to do anything to make that happen

All i want is a bullet in the head a nice 12 gauge to take care of the pain but I don’t have the motivation or strength to do it and I don’t have a gun i could use

When i was younger i was sexually assaulted and ever since I realized that a few days ago I’ve been suicidal

I’ve had a lot of self harm related thoughts in particular i want to beat my leg until it bleeds but I don’t have it in me to do that or any way to cover it up so I’m stuck with an urge I can’t fulfill

I want people to worry about me i want people to tell me they care and check up on me but I don’t want them to do that because then i feel like I’m wasting their time

I’m sorry for wasting your time with this post

 

[cumbutamoren]

brutel

 

[gamma]

Ok Grimba

 

[sorrowfulsad]

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[khvirgin]

"I want people to worry about me i want people to tell me they care and check up on me but I don’t want them to do that because then i feel like I’m wasting their time"
I felt that

 

[Deleted member 2403]

brutel

Self-harm free for a week, getting into shape and finally doing the things I love doing. I’m proud of myself, finally!

 

[SkinjobCatastrophe]

If you look like this please rape/sexually assault me

 

[BigJimsWornOutTires]

Rambling rant about nothing (tigger warning talks of suicide self harm and sexual assault)

I feel like garbage I’m sore and unmotivated and i want to feel better but i refuse to do anything to make that happen

All i want is a bullet in the head a nice 12 gauge to take care of the pain but I don’t have the motivation or strength to do it and I don’t have a gun i could use

When i was younger i was sexually assaulted and ever since I realized that a few days ago I’ve been suicidal

I’ve had a lot of self harm related thoughts in particular i want to beat my leg until it bleeds but I don’t have it in me to do that or any way to cover it up so I’m stuck with an urge I can’t fulfill

I want people to worry about me i want people to tell me they care and check up on me but I don’t want them to do that because then i feel like I’m wasting their time

I’m sorry for wasting your time with this post

Thanks for sharing. Having to live with the memories of being sexually assaulted....numerous occasions for some.....can be a challenge in trust situations. That's why I'm careful talking to groups of women. I try to avoid such. But if I don't, the past will question the present, "Will these women rape me if I talk to them?" Ugh. I much rather avoid that altogether.