Shemale Addiction

[Vergil.is]

May contain triggers
Read at your own risks
I started watching porn when I was 6 years old and escalated to some pretty weird stuff since then.
In my early porn days I watched some solo and lesbian stuff then came a foot fetish and hairy girl fetish, and later on came beastiality and shemale porn
Last year I lasted 75 days no PMO then I MO'd once, then another time, then I went and looked for pictures of girls feet to jack off to
saying to myself that its not actually porn and I ended up coming back to my old habbits.
After awhile I didn't even give a shit anyway, I was (still am) a virgin and I'm not able to get a girlfriend anyway so why not jack off?
Theres something wrong in my head and I don't know how to fix it, I isolate myself I try to avoid people even though I want to connect with a girl so much
I'm sad, depressed and sexually frustrated, I feel like shit all the time and jacking off is the only time I feel good.
I'm so fucked I'm having trouble having an O even to shemale porn thats why its time to stop this
This is going to be hard but I need to change
I'm not even attracted to girls anymore
I'd rather suck a tranny dick and I'm not even gay
I'm digusted by myself and ashamed
I don't feel like a man
Its been 3 days since last PMO...
I'm gunna try to keep this journal updated so I can write instead of thinking about porn
If anyone read this, thanks for reading

 

[Vergil.is]

Since like 2 days ago my attraction to women is slowly coming back and I'm noticing them now
A girl came to eat at my job and I couldn't stop looking at her and she was always turning her head to look at me...

She was pretty cute but was only 15 so I couldn't really be with her.. anyway I would probably not have had the balls to ask her out
so maybe its a good thing she was underaged..

I tried to keep working but I just couldn't stop looking at her and thinking about her
I wasn't even really turned on but I just knew I wanted her
I felt good and bad at the same time it was weird

Today I woke up feeling pretty shitty but went to buy some bread and I feel better now




Last time I rebooted, the first week after no PMO felt pretty good but after it turned into 2 months of shitty withdrawals and I think today and tomorrow is the calm before the storm...

One thing I learned from my last reboot is that theres no half measures when it comes to quitting porn...
If you think you can allow yourself to watch only one genre of porn without escalating back to the stuff you used to watched there 99.9% chances you will fail and fall back into your old habbits, at least that what happened to me

I think I will allow myself to jack off at one point in my reboot (like after 60 to 90 days) but can't allow myself to have an image in front of me not matter what even if its a Sears magazine.

I hope I will be able to get a girlfriend soon after or during the reboot or I'm afraid I'll fall back into my addiction..

 

[Vergil.is]

I had a dream where I watched porn and thought I relapsed..
I didn't even enjoy it cause my dick is dead and has been dead for awhile except for the occasional morning wood
I think I've been on a flatline since before I stopped watching porn
I can't remember the last time I've actually been horny
I saw an attractive naked girl on a TV show last night for like 30 seconds and only got a semi about 20 seconds in
Actually I think the flatline is good cause it makes it easy for me not to watch porn

 

[LightSkinNoob]

Once you have sex with a girl you’ll move on from shemale porn and go back to normal, if not you’re gay.

 

[Dr. Bludy]

Dnr + kys you degenerate

 

[ascension]

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[Vergil.is]

Once you have sex with a girl you’ll move on from shemale porn and go back to normal, if not you’re gay.

unfortunately admins aren't acceptable of having addiction apparently and delete my log thread somehow when jimson posts his dick they let it stay, this is gay shit not shemale addiction @Gargantuan @her @aleksandr

 

[Deleted member 22099]

Make us proud son

 

[Vergil.is]

Had a headache due to Venlafaxine withdrawals in the morning
I scratched my car against my brother's girlfriend's car and left big marks
Someone at work burned me pretty bad with a hot spatula for no reason
But damn it was a good day

There's a new girl at work she's cute
It was so hard to work I just kept thinking about her and still am right now
I always wanted to have her near me and kept talking to her
I just wanna kiss her, hold her tight and eat her pussy


I'm not thinking about shemales anymore and when I do I think its a little weird and I'm not turned on
I just want a connection with a girl even if its not sexual

My dick/libido is doing pretty well
Also not related but I just trimmed my beard that I haven't touched in over 7 months and I'm looking less homeless

 

[ihatereddit]

Nigga u gay

 

[Primalsplit]

Had a headache due to Venlafaxine withdrawals in the morning
I scratched my car against my brother's girlfriend's car and left big marks
Someone at work burned me pretty bad with a hot spatula for no reason
But damn it was a good day

There's a new girl at work she's cute
It was so hard to work I just kept thinking about her and still am right now
I always wanted to have her near me and kept talking to her
I just wanna kiss her, hold her tight and eat her pussy


I'm not thinking about shemales anymore and when I do I think its a little weird and I'm not turned on
I just want a connection with a girl even if its not sexual

My dick/libido is doing pretty well
Also not related but I just trimmed my beard that I haven't touched in over 7 months and I'm looking less homeless

Keep at going bro. Don't listen to these troglodytes here. I enjoy reading someone's progress. It's way better than TV.

 

[güss]

damn nigga shemales can’t be that addicting

 

[Vergil.is]

damn nigga shemales can’t be that addicting

I wish

Day 6:

I have no libido and Venlafaxine withdrawals are making me a lil fucked up but I'm good
I'm eating soup right now and its sooo good
Its been 60+ hours since I've eaten anything
I loss my appetite completely so I decided to do a water fast and I think it did some good

Man I remember why I don't smoke weed or drink beer now it fucks me up
From now on there's gunna be no weed, no alcohol and no porn for me

I'm still feeling shitty about what happened with the girl at work..
She doesnt want to work with me anymore Lol
I don't wanna see her anymore too
I can't stop thinking about what happened and feeling bad I gotta forget about it

At least we didn't fuck cause she could use that to send me to fucking prison
Damn thinking about not going to prison makes me happy I fucked up with her

I need to give less control to my dick, I'm thinking with the wrong head

Other than that the reboot and life in general is doing pretty good
I have hope for the future and I'm probably moving to Alberta if I get the job there
Should be pretty cool

 

[RichardSpencel]

damn nigga shemales can’t be that addicting

 

[Vergil.is]

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name? I'm more into darker and more obese shemales but damn i wont refuse a jb shemale if theres one showing her feet to me for free

 

[gymmaxedhorse]

name? I'm more into darker and more obese shemales but damn i wont refuse a jb shemale if theres one showing her feet to me for free

JFL dark and obese?

 

[Azr616]

name? I'm more into darker and more obese shemales but damn i wont refuse a jb shemale if theres one showing her feet to me for free

Bro wtf

 

[Torero]

name? I'm more into darker and more obese shemales but damn i wont refuse a jb shemale if theres one showing her feet to me for free

bro this was suposed to be a no tranny thread maybe u are gay

 

[RichardSpencel]

name? I'm more into darker and more obese shemales but damn i wont refuse a jb shemale if theres one showing her feet to me for free

Arielle Maxine

 

[Deleted member 16501]

what happened with the girl at work?

 

[n0rthface]

Arielle Maxine

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Fapello.com

 

[Vergil.is]

what happened with the girl at work?

I asked her out and she laughed at me
won't talk with me now

bro this was suposed to be a no tranny thread maybe u are gay

this girl is a shemale, she looks just like a cute jb, she just have a dick which makes it more challenging, cause dick is a sign of high testosterone, yeah so i like feminity but with a drip of challenge in her having a dick, however i realize its an addiction thats why im on nofap to heal it, I crave normal women too

JFL dark and obese?

Bro wtf

let me explain, I live in a fully white country, when I traveled on holidays it was to other european countries too, so I only seen white and med women my whole life, I only seen a black chick a couple times in my entire life which make them like a sacred treasure to me, also here where i live most people are healthy, so I see fat girls, but its not that rare unless they're old, this is why a fat black shemale is like a sacred treasure i want to obtain eventually although that is purely sexual i wouldnt even consider them a human being so as my addiction goes away (hopefully) my desire to obtain black fat shemale may disappear

 

[Deleted member 22627]

Since like 2 days ago my attraction to women is slowly coming back and I'm noticing them now
A girl came to eat at my job and I couldn't stop looking at her and she was always turning her head to look at me...

She was pretty cute but was only 15 so I couldn't really be with her.. anyway I would probably not have had the balls to ask her out
so maybe its a good thing she was underaged..

I tried to keep working but I just couldn't stop looking at her and thinking about her
I wasn't even really turned on but I just knew I wanted her
I felt good and bad at the same time it was weird

Today I woke up feeling pretty shitty but went to buy some bread and I feel better now




Last time I rebooted, the first week after no PMO felt pretty good but after it turned into 2 months of shitty withdrawals and I think today and tomorrow is the calm before the storm...

One thing I learned from my last reboot is that theres no half measures when it comes to quitting porn...
If you think you can allow yourself to watch only one genre of porn without escalating back to the stuff you used to watched there 99.9% chances you will fail and fall back into your old habbits, at least that what happened to me

I think I will allow myself to jack off at one point in my reboot (like after 60 to 90 days) but can't allow myself to have an image in front of me not matter what even if its a Sears magazine.

I hope I will be able to get a girlfriend soon after or during the reboot or I'm afraid I'll fall back into my addiction..

Take the next natural step and feminize yourself for the ultimate coom. Become a woman.

 

[gymmaxedhorse]

I asked her out and she laughed at me
won't talk with me now

this girl is a shemale, she looks just like a cute jb, she just have a dick which makes it more challenging, cause dick is a sign of high testosterone, yeah so i like feminity but with a drip of challenge in her having a dick, however i realize its an addiction thats why im on nofap to heal it, I crave normal women too





let me explain, I live in a fully white country, when I traveled on holidays it was to other european countries too, so I only seen white and med women my whole life, I only seen a black chick a couple times in my entire life which make them like a sacred treasure to me, also here where i live most people are healthy, so I see fat girls, but its not that rare unless they're old, this is why a fat black shemale is like a sacred treasure i want to obtain eventually although that is purely sexual i wouldnt even consider them a human being so as my addiction goes away (hopefully) my desire to obtain black fat shemale may disappear

Plenty of fat black women in the US and you what fat black trannies they got that too. It’s a wonderland here

 

[Vergil.is]

Plenty of fat black women in the US and you what fat black trannies they got that too. It’s a wonderland here

tbh I don't like US that much, but france and germany are getting BLACKED so maybe in the near future I'll go for a trip to Paris again

 

[dreamcake1mo]

Your attracted to androgyny. Which is somewhat of a thing, as most highly media people are androgynous, if not all or most women in general.

The reason shemales look so close to the real thing is because your used to seeing it within normalacy.

but your consumption is definitely a sexual deviancy. Porn causes this 100%. Not just porn but lust. Like the guy said above, you need to change somewhat and replace the gap. Read the bible and follow the word of god.

I said something similar a long time ago about how when you see someone in real life you like, you sort of plant that seed of lust when you go back online, through your mind. The initiator is this. You think of the could haves, or imagine yourself in similar or optimal situations of lust etc. And through that practice the insatiable lust evolves and adapts into a stronger deviancy. I know thats how its for me.
Your attracted to women for sure, you just have that barrier to a healthy irl women access to replace that insatiability the mind creates with imagination.

this is that dilemma a lot of men go through.

 

[Vergil.is]

Read the bible and follow the word of god.

NO, I respect religious people, but every time I go to church i cant stop laughing and have to come out, the thought of abstract god being and the idea of heaven are so unbelivable to me people kneeling to this shit reminds me dark souls cutscene before slaying boss or some dark chruch themed demon slayer movie I just cant take religion serious sorry and Im from christian family, but your other points are on point

 

[güss]

name? I'm more into darker and more obese shemales but damn i wont refuse a jb shemale if theres one showing her feet to me for free

u like?

 

[Entschuldigung]

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u like?

OP after seeing it be like:

 

[Vergil.is]

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u like?

yhm

 

[Artbreeder Is Law]

From what I've seen it's average here.

 

[güss]

yhm

bruh you have a sickness

 

[Deleted member 5815]

NO, I respect religious people, but every time I go to church i cant stop laughing and have to come out, the thought of abstract god being and the idea of heaven are so unbelivable to me people kneeling to this shit reminds me dark souls cutscene before slaying boss or some dark chruch themed demon slayer movie I just cant take religion serious sorry and Im from christian family, but your other points are on point

Jesus Christ will heal everything accept him as your Saviour but also as your Lord or you will never be cured

 

[Entschuldigung]

NO, I respect religious people, but every time I go to church i cant stop laughing and have to come out, the thought of abstract god being and the idea of heaven are so unbelivable to me people kneeling to this shit reminds me dark souls cutscene before slaying boss or some dark chruch themed demon slayer movie I just cant take religion serious sorry and Im from christian family, but your other points are on point

The level of white cuckism in this post is so cringe

 

[Vergil.is]

The level of white cuckism in this post is so cringe

you're the one believing in fairy tales

 

[Entschuldigung]

you're the one believing in fairy tales

Go back to watch tranny porn your filthy perturbed soul

 

[Deleted member 8365]

NO, I respect religious people, but every time I go to church i cant stop laughing and have to come out, the thought of abstract god being and the idea of heaven are so unbelivable to me people kneeling to this shit reminds me dark souls cutscene before slaying boss or some dark chruch themed demon slayer movie I just cant take religion serious sorry and Im from christian family, but your other points are on point

Convert to Islam, Christianity is gay religion for low T frat white bous

 

[Deleted member 8365]

Jesus Christ will heal everything accept him as your Saviour but also as your Lord or you will never be cured

Stop the gay shit, Accept Allah as your only god

 

[Deleted member 19174]

You will fail in all your endavours. You will relapse and fall into a deep depression, a depression so deep that it consumes your entire life. Then you will rope. Over for your fried brain

 

[Deleted member 8365]

Go back to watch tranny porn your filthy perturbed soul

At least tranny porn nuke your faith lol, you are dumb


give me your address inshAllah, I will send you an gang of hung Brazilian tranny to show how to dance the Macarena


people like you are pathetic loser and parasite in our society

fuck

 

[Vergil.is]

Last night was so fucked up I asked the girl at work if she wanted to go smoke a joint after work and I did but then I asked
her if I could kiss her and she said yes but it was really awkward and she wasn't really enjoying it and me neither...
I even asked her if she wanted to fuck but idk what she answered but she told me she thought I was cute

I don't even smoke weed anymore cause it makes me wanna kill myself but I knew she smoked so I used that to try to fuck her (that was my coworker's idea that i regret now)

Also she's only 15 and I felt so fucking bad afterwards that I stayed high in my car and cried for 1 hour
I was so high yesterday that I was hungover all day today and wanted to kill myself still

I wasn't even horny and I asked her if she wanted to fuck... wtf is wrong with me

I told her everything about my porn addiction and the fact that I'm depressed and I've been suicidial and I take antidepressant and even texted her that I cried for 1 hour in my car after she left I'm so fucked up FUCK
She didn't respond and must feel awkward as fuck.

I'm gunna see her at work in a couple days I don't know what I should say about this whole thing but fuck me I feel so bad ashamed and fucked up I wanna kill myself everytime I think about this and I don't know if this is my mind fucking with me or I must really feel that way but fuck I'm gunna stop writing right now cause probably no one is going to read this shit till the end anyway.

 

[Deleted member 19157]

Last night was so fucked up I asked the girl at work if she wanted to go smoke a joint after work and I did but then I asked
her if I could kiss her and she said yes but it was really awkward and she wasn't really enjoying it and me neither...
I even asked her if she wanted to fuck but idk what she answered but she told me she thought I was cute

I don't even smoke weed anymore cause it makes me wanna kill myself but I knew she smoked so I used that to try to fuck her (that was my coworker's idea that i regret now)

Also she's only 15 and I felt so fucking bad afterwards that I stayed high in my car and cried for 1 hour
I was so high yesterday that I was hungover all day today and wanted to kill myself still

I wasn't even horny and I asked her if she wanted to fuck... wtf is wrong with me

I told her everything about my porn addiction and the fact that I'm depressed and I've been suicidial and I take antidepressant and even texted her that I cried for 1 hour in my car after she left I'm so fucked up FUCK
She didn't respond and must feel awkward as fuck.

I'm gunna see her at work in a couple days I don't know what I should say about this whole thing but fuck me I feel so bad ashamed and fucked up I wanna kill myself everytime I think about this and I don't know if this is my mind fucking with me or I must really feel that way but fuck I'm gunna stop writing right now cause probably no one is going to read this shit till the end anyway.

ur a retard. dont pour your problems and soul out to women u dipshit

 

[Vergil.is]

ur a retard. dont pour your problems and soul out to women u dipshit

because? women are way more understanding than men thats for sure and youre a great example of that

 

[Deleted member 19157]

because? women are way more understanding than men thats for sure and youre a great example of that

no ur an idiot

she will just respect u 10x less. jfl at telling a woman youre romanitcally interested in that youre addicted to porn and that youre depressed and suicidal. ur a dipshit and its clear u lack major experience with women

 

[HTN_Mentalcel]

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Want to know what you wrote here. Guess ill never find out? Welp thats life.

 

[ascension]

Want to know what you wrote here. Guess ill never find out? Welp thats life.

I was just speechless at what I read, but wanted to bump it so everyone else got to read it and also get brain damage

 

[noodlelover]

May contain triggers
Read at your own risks
I started watching porn when I was 6 years old and escalated to some pretty weird stuff since then.
In my early porn days I watched some solo and lesbian stuff then came a foot fetish and hairy girl fetish, and later on came beastiality and shemale porn
Last year I lasted 75 days no PMO then I MO'd once, then another time, then I went and looked for pictures of girls feet to jack off to
saying to myself that its not actually porn and I ended up coming back to my old habbits.
After awhile I didn't even give a shit anyway, I was (still am) a virgin and I'm not able to get a girlfriend anyway so why not jack off?
Theres something wrong in my head and I don't know how to fix it, I isolate myself I try to avoid people even though I want to connect with a girl so much
I'm sad, depressed and sexually frustrated, I feel like shit all the time and jacking off is the only time I feel good.
I'm so fucked I'm having trouble having an O even to shemale porn thats why its time to stop this
This is going to be hard but I need to change
I'm not even attracted to girls anymore
I'd rather suck a tranny dick and I'm not even gay
I'm digusted by myself and ashamed
I don't feel like a man
Its been 3 days since last PMO...
I'm gunna try to keep this journal updated so I can write instead of thinking about porn
If anyone read this, thanks for reading

Dude, if you are legitimately attracted to trannies, more power to you. I'm not, but you do you.

Hot Trannies are much easier to date, than hot women. I mean like Stacy trannies are dating Obese subhuman men.

If you like trannies, no reason you can't ascend.

 

[HTN_Mentalcel]

I was just speechless at what I read, but wanted to bump it so everyone else got to read it and also get brain damage

More like you related to the post and deleted it due to embarsment.

 

[HTN_Mentalcel]

Dude, if you are legitimately attracted to trannies, more power to you. I'm not, but you do you.

Hot Trannies are much easier to date, than hot women. I mean like Stacy trannies are dating Obese subhuman men.

If you like trannies, no reason you can't ascend.

Just get aids, ask @Danish_Retard on more advice how to fuck trannies

 

[Vergil.is]

Dude, if you are legitimately attracted to trannies, more power to you. I'm not, but you do you.

Hot Trannies are much easier to date, than hot women. I mean like Stacy trannies are dating Obese subhuman men.

If you like trannies, no reason you can't ascend.

This was copied from a 30 page long nofap progress log thread on some nofap forum, but after 4 years I think that guy gave up and asked mods to delete it.

It's a shame, cause I am 100% sure it was very real considering that this guy was going at it for 4 years and everything he wrote was and felt very personal.

This thread was getting funnier and funnier with every page too, wish I could link that.

EDIT. forum is rebootnation