The sole reason I wont kill myself right now

[Uglybrazilian]

Its because Im scared of going to hell
Nigga for real even if I ascend I just cant live with my past

With everything I have been throught...there's no recovery

I'll live forever ashamed of the things I've done, with regret and traumas, I'll never forgive myself because this hell Im living right now is solely my fault

Only a time machine can heal my mind

I wonder why I took so many bad decisions, why I took the wrong path, why people tried to help me but I didn't care

Its truly over
And its all my fault

May God have mercy on my soul..if hes even there to do it

 

[Hozay]

dn rd brb

 

[wasted]

Its because Im scared of going to hell

No eternal paradise for your face.

 

[Deleted member 6789]

 

[Blackgymmax]

Lefort 4 or death

 

[Hozay]

Lefort 4 or death

I'm so fucking sorry bro

 

[Uglybrazilian]

Lefort 4 or death

I need a gobacktothepastplasty

 

[Blackgymmax]

I'm so fucking sorry bro

Lefort 5

 

[malignant]

Its because Im scared of going to hell
Nigga for real even if I ascend I just cant live with my past

With everything I have been throught...there's no recovery

I'll live forever ashamed of the things I've done, with regret and traumas, I'll never forgive myself because this hell Im living right now is solely my fault

Only a time machine can heal my mind

I wonder why I took so many bad decisions, why I took the wrong path, why people tried to help me but I didn't care

Its truly over
And its all my fault

May God have mercy on my soul..if hes even there to do it

is what it is man
acceptance and ascension>

 

[Uglybrazilian]

is what it is man
acceptance and ascension>

Its so hard to accept nigga, I just cant let it go, its a struggle every day, Im trying everything but nothing works

I keep fully commited to my looksmax protocol and ascension, but that wont change my past and everything that haunts me

 

[Deleted member 3583]

what did u do nigga ?

 

[malignant]

Its so hard to accept nigga, I just cant let it go, its a struggle every day, Im trying everything but nothing works

I keep fully commited to my looksmax protocol and ascension, but that wont change my past and everything that haunts me

just gotta try harder to be positive, as weird as that sounds
idk about ur situation or if its actually over, but just know if youre not happy youre losing

 

[Uglybrazilian]

what did u do nigga ?

I unironically isolated myself from people during my teenage years

My friends would call me to go out, drink, meet girls n shit but I refused everytime, only now I can see how delusional I was

Because now they are all normal guys with normal social skills and life while Im isolated and lonely because I CHOOSE this path

Yesterday I was talking to an old female friend and she told me that she could never understand why I was so shy when we were young, I simply couldnt answer her question

I dont know why I did this to myself

 

[Deleted member 1813]

Hell isnt real son

 

[Deleted member 3583]

I unironically isolated myself from people during my teenage years

My friends would call me to go out, drink, meet girls n shit but I refused everytime, only now I can see how delusional I was

Because now they are all normal guys with normal social skills and life while Im isolated and lonely because I CHOOSE this path

Yesterday I was talking to an old female friend and she told me that she could never understand why I was so shy when we were young, I simply couldnt answer her question

I dont know why I did this to myself

why u going to hell for that? jfl

 

[Uglybrazilian]

why u going to hell for that? jfl

Not for that but niggas be saying that if you kill yourself you go to hell so idk

 

[St. BlackOps2Cel]

How old are you? And are you attractive to women? Do you have a good job? What's preventing you from starting again?

 

[Beetlejuice]

It is over

 

[balding17yomanletcel]

Hell isnt real son

cucksmart

 

[Uglybrazilian]

How old are you? And are you attractive to women? Do you have a good job? What's preventing you from starting again?

Im 21
Idk if Im attractive to women, probably not but growing up there were girls attracted to me and I had 1 LTR last year
I dont have a good job, Im a computer science major and I work as a intern software developer
Nothing really prevents me from starting again, just my mind, Im on the verge of suicide cause I cant cope with my bad decisions of the past

 

[St. BlackOps2Cel]

Im 21
Idk if Im attractive to women, probably not but growing up there were girls attracted to me and I had 1 LTR last year
I dont have a good job, Im a computer science major and I work as a intern software developer
Nothing really prevents me from starting again, just my mind, Im on the verge of suicide cause I cant cope with my bad decisions of the past

The past is just an illusion in your head it doesn't exist be it good or bad. 21 is still a child. It's probably just your job, computer science stuff pushes people to drink a lot of caffeine and stay indoor, which causes depression