whenever i try to feel in me love for my parents i feelsad

[Youㅤ]

so i start feeling angry at them cuz then i don t feel sad. i rarely talk to them. havbent talked my mom in many weeks. only talked my dad once in months.

 

[Youㅤ]

i forget they exist when i remember its opposite of derealization it feels strange , so i distract myself by internet or daydreaming

 

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daydreaming is an addiction