
Chadpreetmaybe
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So starved for attention
I (28F) have been married to my husband (30) for 4 years. We just had our second baby in June. When I met him, I was coming out of an intense ‘hoe phase’ I had, and he was the life raft that pulled me out of that toxic cycle and I love him more than everything. We’ve never been super crazy about having tons of sex, but something just switched when we conceived our first child and sex just never happened again. We were sexless for nearly 2 years after that. I was the only person who could put our child to bed so it was months and months and MONTHS of thinking “okay, once this kid is in bed this is going to be the night!” Only to find him passed out in bed and no matter how much I nudged and begged, he wasn’t into it.
I finally put my foot down when our child was 15 months old and my husband and I had sex. And I ended up pregnant. So it started all over again. Since October of 2019, we’ve had sex twice. Fucking twice. And I’m so desperate. I try so damn hard. I tried to start foreplay a few times a couple weeks ago and I could have sworn he flinched. When we’re in bed he’s either on his phone all and if he does want to do something with me, its only to ask for a back massage or whatever (and it ends at that) We don’t fight but I’m very lonely.
Before I met him I used to be so sexually desirable. So fun. I was pretty and I got so much validation from men. We’d meet up and the first thing I’d hear was “Oh my god you are so beautiful” We would go for drinks and I’d be funny and the guys would be funny, we’d both find each other charming and while the ghosting and ONS aspect was emotionally hard, fuck, at least the attention was great.
All I do is fantasize now. I fantasize about the men I see around our apartment building. I fantasize about strangers in coffee shops. The sole reason I walk our dog in the evening is to ‘man watch’ and start fantasizing about them too (we live in a big city, so lots of young attractive men around) There was a guy taking out some recycling and jfc I almost went crazy just looking at him. He was so fucking hot. And I think about how amazing it would be to be stopped and pulled aside by one of those attractive guys and just fucking have at it. I’m so starved for attention and validation and it’s just depressing at this point.
I (28F) have been married to my husband (30) for 4 years. We just had our second baby in June. When I met him, I was coming out of an intense ‘hoe phase’ I had, and he was the life raft that pulled me out of that toxic cycle and I love him more than everything. We’ve never been super crazy about having tons of sex, but something just switched when we conceived our first child and sex just never happened again. We were sexless for nearly 2 years after that. I was the only person who could put our child to bed so it was months and months and MONTHS of thinking “okay, once this kid is in bed this is going to be the night!” Only to find him passed out in bed and no matter how much I nudged and begged, he wasn’t into it.
I finally put my foot down when our child was 15 months old and my husband and I had sex. And I ended up pregnant. So it started all over again. Since October of 2019, we’ve had sex twice. Fucking twice. And I’m so desperate. I try so damn hard. I tried to start foreplay a few times a couple weeks ago and I could have sworn he flinched. When we’re in bed he’s either on his phone all and if he does want to do something with me, its only to ask for a back massage or whatever (and it ends at that) We don’t fight but I’m very lonely.
Before I met him I used to be so sexually desirable. So fun. I was pretty and I got so much validation from men. We’d meet up and the first thing I’d hear was “Oh my god you are so beautiful” We would go for drinks and I’d be funny and the guys would be funny, we’d both find each other charming and while the ghosting and ONS aspect was emotionally hard, fuck, at least the attention was great.
All I do is fantasize now. I fantasize about the men I see around our apartment building. I fantasize about strangers in coffee shops. The sole reason I walk our dog in the evening is to ‘man watch’ and start fantasizing about them too (we live in a big city, so lots of young attractive men around) There was a guy taking out some recycling and jfc I almost went crazy just looking at him. He was so fucking hot. And I think about how amazing it would be to be stopped and pulled aside by one of those attractive guys and just fucking have at it. I’m so starved for attention and validation and it’s just depressing at this point.