thetuliphatesme
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For all my life I've felt like a terrible human being i genuinely can't name a single person who actually likes me other than my family I just want to be loved for once then I realize its all about looks or being used. I haven't felt actual real happiness for as long as I remember and the only thing that brings me any type of emotion is having a crush, it's like her existence alone brings me some joy yet the fact that she probably hates me and that she will never like me back makes me fucking devastated. Nothing in my life is going my way and bp is only making it worse. I can't look into the mirror without being utterly disgusted by what I see. I'm a fat undisciplined fuck that can't lose weight for shit, and my face looks like a fucking horror attraction every single feature is fucked up with no exclusions, im certain about the fact that I'm the ugliest person among everyone I've ever known. I would probably kill myself if I had nothing to lose and if I wasn't a Muslim. My last resort is actually getting closer to allah.
A few people told me that they're always here for me if I need to vent or talk but I'd much rather leave them alone than seem like an attention seeker for wanting to feel validated at the slightest.
A few people told me that they're always here for me if I need to vent or talk but I'd much rather leave them alone than seem like an attention seeker for wanting to feel validated at the slightest.
