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If you are tired of starting over, stop giving up!
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1. Although I was born in Santa Catarina, Brazil, I lived in the United States of America for over a decade. Because of my Whiteness and decent English skills, I never felt out of place. We returned to Brazil for the sole purpose of visiting a few relatives, and decided to stay. Life as an immigrant family was quite hard. We live in São Paulo, São Sebastião now.
2. I have been plagued by involuntary celibacy since the age of 13, though I only discovered what it means to be an involuntary celibate at the age of 18. My interest in online forums grew as I became closer to the political fringes, a characteristic of social outcasts.
3. With respect to physical appearance, my biggest problem is the face—mild acne, bloating, weak chin, scars, oiliness, and dark spots. Height has never been a problem, here or in America. I am 6'1" with shoes on.
4. I am neurotypical. The closest thing to a diagnosis of neurodiversity I have ever gotten was an ADHD-positive test. However, my symptoms began to decrease as I aged and we now know that ADHD in children is blown out of proportion. Perhaps I was just too extroverted and open to experience. It may seem so by my posts, but I am not autistic.
5. I have read over 100 books in my 20 years of existence, the vast majority of which have been fiction. I plan on reading non-fiction. For as long as I can remember, reading books has always been a passion of mine. I read them in English because it is my favorite language and there are more options that way.
6. I have a facility with words from birth that enabled me to learn three languages—Portuguese, English, and Spanish. At the age of 14, I wrote short pornographic stories for an erotic website and chapters of a fiction book I was working on during my Wattpad days.
7. I became obsessed with intelligence at an early age and only came to my senses, admitting that I am not so intelligent as my inflated ego would lead me to believe, this year, when I finally accepted that I had been pretentious and insecure about my level of intelligence. I am a confessed midwit now.
8. My low neuroticism prevents me from holding strangers in contempt. You will never see me replying to an insult, because I have no urge to. I have a good profile to work in retail, and I did so for a few months before the managers fired me, probably due to my laziness.
9. I had a cringey White Nationalist phase. The knowledge I accumulated in this sphere is in no way negligible: Jews are almost entirely responsible for these wicked times, race is not a social construct; society is a racial construct, there are differences in intelligence and behavior between the races, some races have a higher sexual market value than others, and so on. "Cringey" in the sense that White Nationalists put women on a high horse. White Nationalism is mostly comprised of arrogant boomers and edgy zoomers. My brain almost aborted after dealing with the toxicity and cynicism that are so present in this sphere.
10. Women have treated me with decency for the most part. I belong to the range in which my looks are not so hideous as to repulse women, but not so appealing as to please them. I am eternally friendzoned. I grew to like it that way. Better to be accepted as a friend than to be feared and hated for my looks.
2. I have been plagued by involuntary celibacy since the age of 13, though I only discovered what it means to be an involuntary celibate at the age of 18. My interest in online forums grew as I became closer to the political fringes, a characteristic of social outcasts.
3. With respect to physical appearance, my biggest problem is the face—mild acne, bloating, weak chin, scars, oiliness, and dark spots. Height has never been a problem, here or in America. I am 6'1" with shoes on.
4. I am neurotypical. The closest thing to a diagnosis of neurodiversity I have ever gotten was an ADHD-positive test. However, my symptoms began to decrease as I aged and we now know that ADHD in children is blown out of proportion. Perhaps I was just too extroverted and open to experience. It may seem so by my posts, but I am not autistic.
5. I have read over 100 books in my 20 years of existence, the vast majority of which have been fiction. I plan on reading non-fiction. For as long as I can remember, reading books has always been a passion of mine. I read them in English because it is my favorite language and there are more options that way.
6. I have a facility with words from birth that enabled me to learn three languages—Portuguese, English, and Spanish. At the age of 14, I wrote short pornographic stories for an erotic website and chapters of a fiction book I was working on during my Wattpad days.
7. I became obsessed with intelligence at an early age and only came to my senses, admitting that I am not so intelligent as my inflated ego would lead me to believe, this year, when I finally accepted that I had been pretentious and insecure about my level of intelligence. I am a confessed midwit now.
8. My low neuroticism prevents me from holding strangers in contempt. You will never see me replying to an insult, because I have no urge to. I have a good profile to work in retail, and I did so for a few months before the managers fired me, probably due to my laziness.
9. I had a cringey White Nationalist phase. The knowledge I accumulated in this sphere is in no way negligible: Jews are almost entirely responsible for these wicked times, race is not a social construct; society is a racial construct, there are differences in intelligence and behavior between the races, some races have a higher sexual market value than others, and so on. "Cringey" in the sense that White Nationalists put women on a high horse. White Nationalism is mostly comprised of arrogant boomers and edgy zoomers. My brain almost aborted after dealing with the toxicity and cynicism that are so present in this sphere.
10. Women have treated me with decency for the most part. I belong to the range in which my looks are not so hideous as to repulse women, but not so appealing as to please them. I am eternally friendzoned. I grew to like it that way. Better to be accepted as a friend than to be feared and hated for my looks.
