zalcus
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I had met this girl when I was 14, she messaged me on tiktok. When she first messaged me, it was a time where a lot of people would message me and then ghost me. I had a feeling this girl would be different. (IF I KNEW WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF I REPLIED TO THIS DEMON, I NEVER WOULD HAVE).
We add eachother on snap to start sending photos to eachother. During that time, she starts being more affectionate. I tell myself that she is just an affectionate girl, but no one can resist something like this. She starts drawing pictures of us cuddling, and sends me videos of her kissing the camera.
I tell her I like her, she says the same thing, but doesnt understand what that means. She says she doesnt know if she likes me romantically or not, since she is autistic and shit. (at the time she was very schizo due to being on meds)
I had a crush on yuri from ddlc when I was younger and these two were basically the same, long hair, build, mannerisms, everything.
I give her a quiz, ask her things like if she would kiss me, if she would kiss other people, things attributed to romantic love.
she "passes" the quiz and we decide to start talking romantically.
We agree to be monogamous but to not say we are dating because online dating is cringe.
we date for a few months, but then she starts ghosting me for days on end, saying things like "she cant" and stuff like that. She tells me that she will never be able to love properly, and that she is leaving me because the only thing she will ever do is hurt me. I convince her to stay.
A few weeks later, she tries to kill herself. I remember her telling me her sisters name, so I search through her roblox friends list, and text her sister on there. (this is how I meet her sister IMPORTANT)
Up until now, the girl is asexual, or atleast claims to be. she says that she masturbates a lot, but masturbates with nothing in mind. Everything about this woman was attractive to me, she was super weird.
But then, (and this is where it all starts to go downhill) she sends me a manga panel of people having sex, and she says "us". Now in the moment, I was happy that she was opening up to me, she was a puzzle I wanted to figure out, but now its just proof that all foids are shallow and superficial beings.
We end up sharing nudes
her sister still doesnt know we are talking like this yet. (she told me not to tell her sister we were dating)
I end up doing it. I tell her sister we are sort of talking romantically. the only response I get is "oh god."
the whole time, when she told me she was sleeping, she would call other guys, get money from them. She brought boys over, things like that. the whole time, I didnt even know her real name, or her real age.
If you think this is bad, this is only 6 months in. there is still more than a year left of this bs.
I obviously blow up in her face, and the seemingly reserved girl, the girl who doesnt show emotions, cries due to my outburst. it wasnt that i was glad that she felt sorry, i was glad that I could finally mean something to her. she said something along the lines of "what use is there in telling you when I cry"
I cut things off, and then she gets a new boyfriend. I am blonde, so she would call me things like a pretty princess or other things involving me being "aryan".
and then she starts dating a jew, who was blonde at birth, and calls him the same things. During my time of grief, I vent to her sister, who ends up hating me because of me saying disgusting shit about her sister apparently. (the timeline gets fuzzy here because we stopped talking normally and it was also when school started.) we talked consistently from march - august. we talk here and there, and i never once got over her. I agonized daily. but somehow, someway, we start talking again. not as lovers, or as friends. this is when my animosity starts to build up. its very hard to explain what I felt during this time, or what I feel now. These feelings existed a year or so ago, and its sort of fragmented. But all I know is that I hated her.
Somehow she ends up flirting with me again (while having a boyfriend) and clears up a lot of the things her sister said about her. she introduces the idea of us starting over, and her coming over to see me. she says maybe she could go to college near me or something. But this was another one of her lies. Turns out, she got engaged to her boyfriend, and isnt planning on going to college. So obviously I dip from this situation
fast forward a few months, I have a dream about her, and later in the day I enter a discord server because I was bored. I see this person with a pfp that seems to suit that evil girl from a while ago. (and a username aswell) I ask them if the first letter of their name is "_" and they say yes. Then i ask if they live "_" and they say yes. She obviously knows its me. and we begin talking again. This encounter with her is what got me over her. It set me on my journey to forget about her.
Now, she has a new boyfriend, who she is engaged to, and is getting married in april. A lot is said, and a lot is let go. I say goodbye to her, and thats that.
UNTIL she texts me on christmas. she calls me, and after speaking for a while I hang up. she tells me she is going to text me every year on christmas. By christmas next year, I suspect she will be married and have kids.
This woman is the most traumatic thing to ever happen to me. this is only bits and pieces of a larger story. I have so many stories about this girl, most of them bad, all of them having a dark twist if they're good. I tried to make this short and simple. This girl will never stop haunting me. its true that im proud how far ive come, im proud that I dont need her anymore. But she still torments me. Sometimes I still feel like that naive 14 year old boy, who felt like he found a home. my hatred for her has seeped into everything that represents her, and all women.
That being said, Im trying to let go of all my hate. I want to become a stronger, kinder, gentler, and dependable person. She has left me behind, and im still stuck trying to pry off the marty'rd versions of her off me. She has never let me win, never let me affect her. but that isnt my goal anymore, I hope I can become someone im proud of, someone who could make my younger self feel safe.
I hope you guys found this 2+ year long cuck tale enjoyable to read lol. fuck women. I dont know why I keep letting them hurt me.
We add eachother on snap to start sending photos to eachother. During that time, she starts being more affectionate. I tell myself that she is just an affectionate girl, but no one can resist something like this. She starts drawing pictures of us cuddling, and sends me videos of her kissing the camera.
I tell her I like her, she says the same thing, but doesnt understand what that means. She says she doesnt know if she likes me romantically or not, since she is autistic and shit. (at the time she was very schizo due to being on meds)
I had a crush on yuri from ddlc when I was younger and these two were basically the same, long hair, build, mannerisms, everything.
I give her a quiz, ask her things like if she would kiss me, if she would kiss other people, things attributed to romantic love.
she "passes" the quiz and we decide to start talking romantically.
We agree to be monogamous but to not say we are dating because online dating is cringe.
we date for a few months, but then she starts ghosting me for days on end, saying things like "she cant" and stuff like that. She tells me that she will never be able to love properly, and that she is leaving me because the only thing she will ever do is hurt me. I convince her to stay.
A few weeks later, she tries to kill herself. I remember her telling me her sisters name, so I search through her roblox friends list, and text her sister on there. (this is how I meet her sister IMPORTANT)
Up until now, the girl is asexual, or atleast claims to be. she says that she masturbates a lot, but masturbates with nothing in mind. Everything about this woman was attractive to me, she was super weird.
But then, (and this is where it all starts to go downhill) she sends me a manga panel of people having sex, and she says "us". Now in the moment, I was happy that she was opening up to me, she was a puzzle I wanted to figure out, but now its just proof that all foids are shallow and superficial beings.
We end up sharing nudes
her sister still doesnt know we are talking like this yet. (she told me not to tell her sister we were dating)
I end up doing it. I tell her sister we are sort of talking romantically. the only response I get is "oh god."
the whole time, when she told me she was sleeping, she would call other guys, get money from them. She brought boys over, things like that. the whole time, I didnt even know her real name, or her real age.
If you think this is bad, this is only 6 months in. there is still more than a year left of this bs.
I obviously blow up in her face, and the seemingly reserved girl, the girl who doesnt show emotions, cries due to my outburst. it wasnt that i was glad that she felt sorry, i was glad that I could finally mean something to her. she said something along the lines of "what use is there in telling you when I cry"
I cut things off, and then she gets a new boyfriend. I am blonde, so she would call me things like a pretty princess or other things involving me being "aryan".
and then she starts dating a jew, who was blonde at birth, and calls him the same things. During my time of grief, I vent to her sister, who ends up hating me because of me saying disgusting shit about her sister apparently. (the timeline gets fuzzy here because we stopped talking normally and it was also when school started.) we talked consistently from march - august. we talk here and there, and i never once got over her. I agonized daily. but somehow, someway, we start talking again. not as lovers, or as friends. this is when my animosity starts to build up. its very hard to explain what I felt during this time, or what I feel now. These feelings existed a year or so ago, and its sort of fragmented. But all I know is that I hated her.
Somehow she ends up flirting with me again (while having a boyfriend) and clears up a lot of the things her sister said about her. she introduces the idea of us starting over, and her coming over to see me. she says maybe she could go to college near me or something. But this was another one of her lies. Turns out, she got engaged to her boyfriend, and isnt planning on going to college. So obviously I dip from this situation
fast forward a few months, I have a dream about her, and later in the day I enter a discord server because I was bored. I see this person with a pfp that seems to suit that evil girl from a while ago. (and a username aswell) I ask them if the first letter of their name is "_" and they say yes. Then i ask if they live "_" and they say yes. She obviously knows its me. and we begin talking again. This encounter with her is what got me over her. It set me on my journey to forget about her.
Now, she has a new boyfriend, who she is engaged to, and is getting married in april. A lot is said, and a lot is let go. I say goodbye to her, and thats that.
UNTIL she texts me on christmas. she calls me, and after speaking for a while I hang up. she tells me she is going to text me every year on christmas. By christmas next year, I suspect she will be married and have kids.
This woman is the most traumatic thing to ever happen to me. this is only bits and pieces of a larger story. I have so many stories about this girl, most of them bad, all of them having a dark twist if they're good. I tried to make this short and simple. This girl will never stop haunting me. its true that im proud how far ive come, im proud that I dont need her anymore. But she still torments me. Sometimes I still feel like that naive 14 year old boy, who felt like he found a home. my hatred for her has seeped into everything that represents her, and all women.
That being said, Im trying to let go of all my hate. I want to become a stronger, kinder, gentler, and dependable person. She has left me behind, and im still stuck trying to pry off the marty'rd versions of her off me. She has never let me win, never let me affect her. but that isnt my goal anymore, I hope I can become someone im proud of, someone who could make my younger self feel safe.
I hope you guys found this 2+ year long cuck tale enjoyable to read lol. fuck women. I dont know why I keep letting them hurt me.
