envi.matei
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Every single year is an worse one. Especially for depression, you think abt roping constantly and the longer you live the more you want to do it but your brain try to find you excuses so u dont actually do it. Every new year you might say you will change but 80% of the time you will fail. I feel life gets worse and worse.
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Tbh, i was about to write "i really hope my 2026 is better... blah blah" but i realised i'm planning on killing myself on my bday or the days that follow it, maximum 5 days. I had an bad mood while writting this but once i realised what im planning and took a moment to pause i feel calmer and more in peace.
Also here is my list of years and things that happened:
2023-something really bad happened that i regret with my entire heart and was thinking of roping because of it
2024-almost no social life(maybe because of 2023) and then it happened the CS2 update so I couldn't play my favorite game(i just gotten a new pc before it, and i picked parts that would get me around 170fps, but because of bad optimization i couldn't the entire year)
2025-wasted money on my new escooter that broke, repaired it, accesories, etc..(originally 800€, because of that big repair fee now is 1.2k€, fuck it), bp got more serious and i fell deeper in the rabbit hole and my first and prob only try out for an relationship failed
Also here is my list of years and things that happened:
2023-something really bad happened that i regret with my entire heart and was thinking of roping because of it
2024-almost no social life(maybe because of 2023) and then it happened the CS2 update so I couldn't play my favorite game(i just gotten a new pc before it, and i picked parts that would get me around 170fps, but because of bad optimization i couldn't the entire year)
2025-wasted money on my new escooter that broke, repaired it, accesories, etc..(originally 800€, because of that big repair fee now is 1.2k€, fuck it), bp got more serious and i fell deeper in the rabbit hole and my first and prob only try out for an relationship failed
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an worse → wrong article
a worse

who tf even cares abt grammer when u can still understand what the other guy wanted to say with ease
