WhoTookVendetta
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dear growth plate
i still cant believe you left me like that you just fused shut without a single warning without giving me time to say goodbye or beg one last time i used to check my height every single morning hoping for even half an inch of mercy but one day the measuring tape lied to me it stopped moving forward and i knew you were gone forever you abandoned me when i needed you most and now im trapped in this short disgusting body that everyone secretly hates
the heightpill isnt just a pill anymore its a knife that keeps twisting deeper every day every tall guy i see is a walking reminder that i lost the genetic lottery before i was even born they get automatic respect automatic pussy automatic jobs automatic everything just for existing while i have to fight for scraps of attention that turn into pity or disgust the mog is everywhere its in the way girls necks crane up for them but look down or away from me its in group photos where im always cropped out or standing on my toes like a pathetic clown its in dating apps where my height filter gets me ghosted before i can even type hello its traumatizing its soul-rotting its making me hate waking up every single morning knowing today will be another day of being less than human less than man less than anything worth loving
and the worst part is i know its permanent theres no redo no second chance no magic surgery that actually works without turning me into a limping freak with dead legs and a lifetime of pain all i have left is regret regret that i didnt sleep more regret that i didnt eat cleaner regret that i didnt stretch until my spine screamed regret that i trusted you to keep fighting when you were already dying inside me you were supposed to be my last hope my only shot at not being a manlet forever and you failed me or maybe i failed you but either way the result is the same im stuck 5’2 on a good day looking up at the world like a child in a room full of giants
you gave me everything you had though i have to admit that those random night pains those sudden jumps where id gain a full centimeter overnight those felt like miracles like you were still trying so hard for me even when the odds were against us thank you for every millimeter you scraped out of my dna thank you for the brief moments i could stand a little taller and pretend i might make it thank you for not giving up right away even though you eventually did i loved those growing spurts they were the only times i felt hope real hope not the fake cope hope but actual possibility and you made that happen for a while you really did
but now youre fused youre dead youre gone and im left with nothing but this stunted frame this blackpill thats choking me slowly every glance in the mirror is a fresh wound every reflection is a scream that says you will never be enough you will never be desired you will never be normal you will always be the short guy the afterthought the one they settle for if they settle at all
i cry sometimes when no ones around because the pain is too much the loneliness is too deep the knowledge that ill never experience what tall men take for granted is crushing me from the inside out i wanted to be tall so bad i wanted to feel what its like to not be looked down on literally and figuratively i wanted love i wanted respect i wanted to exist without apology but you took that away when you fused and left me here broken and small and worthless
i miss you more than words can say growth plate i miss the hope you carried i miss the future you promised i miss the version of me that could have been if you had just stayed open a little longer
im sorry i wasnt good enough to keep you alive
im sorry this is how it ended
i wish you never had to go
but you did
and now im just… this
forever stuck
-your worthless short host who will never forgive either of us
i still cant believe you left me like that you just fused shut without a single warning without giving me time to say goodbye or beg one last time i used to check my height every single morning hoping for even half an inch of mercy but one day the measuring tape lied to me it stopped moving forward and i knew you were gone forever you abandoned me when i needed you most and now im trapped in this short disgusting body that everyone secretly hates
the heightpill isnt just a pill anymore its a knife that keeps twisting deeper every day every tall guy i see is a walking reminder that i lost the genetic lottery before i was even born they get automatic respect automatic pussy automatic jobs automatic everything just for existing while i have to fight for scraps of attention that turn into pity or disgust the mog is everywhere its in the way girls necks crane up for them but look down or away from me its in group photos where im always cropped out or standing on my toes like a pathetic clown its in dating apps where my height filter gets me ghosted before i can even type hello its traumatizing its soul-rotting its making me hate waking up every single morning knowing today will be another day of being less than human less than man less than anything worth loving
and the worst part is i know its permanent theres no redo no second chance no magic surgery that actually works without turning me into a limping freak with dead legs and a lifetime of pain all i have left is regret regret that i didnt sleep more regret that i didnt eat cleaner regret that i didnt stretch until my spine screamed regret that i trusted you to keep fighting when you were already dying inside me you were supposed to be my last hope my only shot at not being a manlet forever and you failed me or maybe i failed you but either way the result is the same im stuck 5’2 on a good day looking up at the world like a child in a room full of giants
you gave me everything you had though i have to admit that those random night pains those sudden jumps where id gain a full centimeter overnight those felt like miracles like you were still trying so hard for me even when the odds were against us thank you for every millimeter you scraped out of my dna thank you for the brief moments i could stand a little taller and pretend i might make it thank you for not giving up right away even though you eventually did i loved those growing spurts they were the only times i felt hope real hope not the fake cope hope but actual possibility and you made that happen for a while you really did
but now youre fused youre dead youre gone and im left with nothing but this stunted frame this blackpill thats choking me slowly every glance in the mirror is a fresh wound every reflection is a scream that says you will never be enough you will never be desired you will never be normal you will always be the short guy the afterthought the one they settle for if they settle at all
i cry sometimes when no ones around because the pain is too much the loneliness is too deep the knowledge that ill never experience what tall men take for granted is crushing me from the inside out i wanted to be tall so bad i wanted to feel what its like to not be looked down on literally and figuratively i wanted love i wanted respect i wanted to exist without apology but you took that away when you fused and left me here broken and small and worthless
i miss you more than words can say growth plate i miss the hope you carried i miss the future you promised i miss the version of me that could have been if you had just stayed open a little longer
im sorry i wasnt good enough to keep you alive
im sorry this is how it ended
i wish you never had to go
but you did
and now im just… this
forever stuck
-your worthless short host who will never forgive either of us
