PSL DEMON
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I’m 62 now currently saving up for bbl and lip fillers
I used to laugh at men who feared getting old. I thought I’d age gracefully — gray hair, gentle heart, steady hands. But I didn’t. Not really.
It all started back when I was 45, divorced, lonely, scrolling through videos late at night. Men with perfect smiles and tight shirts were preaching “The Truth.” They said women only loved the strong, the dominant, the rich. They said men like me were weak — that if I learned their ways, I’d win.
I believed them.
I started talking different. Dressing louder. I learned the lingo — “high value,” “frame,” “alpha.” I stopped calling my daughter back because she said I sounded fake. I laughed it off, said she didn’t get it. I thought I was becoming something powerful. But all I became was mean.
I lost friends. I lost softness.
And when I finally met someone — a woman who saw through the act — she told me I looked like a man trapped in a costume.
That night, I looked in the mirror and didn’t recognize the person staring back. I’d traded kindness for a fantasy.
Then came the years of trying to chase youth.
When the “red pill” crowd faded from my life, I felt hollow — stripped of identity. I started chasing a new version of validation. Younger faces online, smooth skin, sculpted bodies. So I decided I’d fix mine.
BBL surgery. Lip fillers. Tighten the skin, lift the sag. Maybe if I looked younger, I’d feel younger. Maybe if I looked desirable again, I wouldn’t have to face what I lost.
I used to laugh at men who feared getting old. I thought I’d age gracefully — gray hair, gentle heart, steady hands. But I didn’t. Not really.
It all started back when I was 45, divorced, lonely, scrolling through videos late at night. Men with perfect smiles and tight shirts were preaching “The Truth.” They said women only loved the strong, the dominant, the rich. They said men like me were weak — that if I learned their ways, I’d win.
I believed them.
I started talking different. Dressing louder. I learned the lingo — “high value,” “frame,” “alpha.” I stopped calling my daughter back because she said I sounded fake. I laughed it off, said she didn’t get it. I thought I was becoming something powerful. But all I became was mean.
I lost friends. I lost softness.
And when I finally met someone — a woman who saw through the act — she told me I looked like a man trapped in a costume.
That night, I looked in the mirror and didn’t recognize the person staring back. I’d traded kindness for a fantasy.
Then came the years of trying to chase youth.
When the “red pill” crowd faded from my life, I felt hollow — stripped of identity. I started chasing a new version of validation. Younger faces online, smooth skin, sculpted bodies. So I decided I’d fix mine.
BBL surgery. Lip fillers. Tighten the skin, lift the sag. Maybe if I looked younger, I’d feel younger. Maybe if I looked desirable again, I wouldn’t have to face what I lost.
