A bad day

[Kazura_]

Obviously, my life sucks. I suck. Most days are miserable enough that I have developed a resting frown face, but today was particularly bad.

On my shift, stacking shelves, I saw some local thugs stealing stuff, and they called me over and said they knew me, asked for my name, and said they know where I live so if they get caught, they'll 'come for me ' They also asked what 'block ' I'm from? I still can't tell if they were actual thugs or just larping , but I live with my mum, and this is the only place that would hire me so I ain't trying to get slimed over some stolen food.

I finished my chud minimum wage job at midnight, so I ended up staying up till 3am, mostly because of the helicopters. I get some sleep, then wake up to a glass of cold water to the face at my mum yelling at me for sleeping in, telling me to get a real job ( 40hrs/week ) and move out of the house before I'm 25 ( currently 24 ).

Check phone, see ' girl 17 shot in xx at 1am ' ( my area ) , look at the image and realise it's my road, realise it matches with the helicopter timing. My area has a high crime rate, and I hate it because I always have to keep my head down and avoid eye contact, which makes me feel like more of a loser, but too many times I've went out and been shouted at for 'what you looking at ? ' watched some guy get beat up because he looked at some dealer with a pitbull last week,had a 3 second fantasy of jumping in to save him then scurried away like the rat I am.

Anyway. Most days, I have nothing to do but hop on OW or a moba or Twitch and I only have 1 person I speak to irl, some girl with the same job as me I sell my anime figures to so we were supposed to meet up in town to exchange, so I decided to book in an eye test at Specsavers and a blood donation, met up with the girl but because I'm ND I didn't really say anything the whole time, also they didn't have the money so said they will pay me another time, they also told me I look shorter than last time and said they couldn't stay for long because her bf would be in town and he would beat me up if he saw me ?? ( never met this guy , don't even know what he looks like so for her to tell me that he hates me enough to want to beat me kind of makes it obvious what she tells him about me behind my back ... ' yeah this weird loser wants to meet me to sell his anime figures to me '... ) when she's the one who asked to meet to save on postage and selling fees.

Idk, it's probably all in my head. She seemed nice enough in person but all we did is she went to two anime stores saying 'i want this ' for every figure and saying how hot all the anime characters are there and how she would have sex with them, which made me feel like some weird cuck following them around the store, they're 19 as well which is way younger so idk I feel sus being in public with them, they said they would bring their mum for safety then didn't as well. , but I tend to assume the worst in people so idk . Then I had the blood donation appointment, but they told me I can't donate because I'm dehydrated and haven't eaten enough, lied about eating food a few hours ago and they said it probably wasn't enough ... I'm so filthy I can't even donate my blood for free, had the eye test and found out my eyesight is worse, couldn't afford any glasses and I only wanted to go there for contacts anyway.... had a brutal 1Hr walk back home as it starts pouring down. now it's like 5pm and the day feels wasted, but all I can think about is the girl on my street and how as bad as my day may be, I don't even have it that bad.

 

[sashaaa]

Obviously, my life sucks. I suck. Most days are miserable enough that I have developed a resting frown face, but today was particularly bad.

On my shift, stacking shelves, I saw some local thugs stealing stuff, and they called me over and said they knew me, asked for my name, and said they know where I live so if they get caught, they'll 'come for me ' They also asked what 'block ' I'm from? I still can't tell if they were actual thugs or just larping , but I live with my mum, and this is the only place that would hire me so I ain't trying to get slimed over some stolen food.

I finished my chud minimum wage job at midnight, so I ended up staying up till 3am, mostly because of the helicopters. I get some sleep, then wake up to a glass of cold water to the face at my mum yelling at me for sleeping in, telling me to get a real job ( 40hrs/week ) and move out of the house before I'm 25 ( currently 24 ).

Check phone, see ' girl 17 shot in xx at 1am ' ( my area ) , look at the image and realise it's my road, realise it matches with the helicopter timing. My area has a high crime rate, and I hate it because I always have to keep my head down and avoid eye contact, which makes me feel like more of a loser, but too many times I've went out and been shouted at for 'what you looking at ? ' watched some guy get beat up because he looked at some dealer with a pitbull last week,had a 3 second fantasy of jumping in to save him then scurried away like the rat I am.

Anyway. Most days, I have nothing to do but hop on OW or a moba or Twitch and I only have 1 person I speak to irl, some girl with the same job as me I sell my anime figures to so we were supposed to meet up in town to exchange, so I decided to book in an eye test at Specsavers and a blood donation, met up with the girl but because I'm ND I didn't really say anything the whole time, also they didn't have the money so said they will pay me another time, they also told me I look shorter than last time and said they couldn't stay for long because her bf would be in town and he would beat me up if he saw me ?? ( never met this guy , don't even know what he looks like so for her to tell me that he hates me enough to want to beat me kind of makes it obvious what she tells him about me behind my back ... ' yeah this weird loser wants to meet me to sell his anime figures to me '... ) when she's the one who asked to meet to save on postage and selling fees.

Idk, it's probably all in my head. She seemed nice enough in person but all we did is she went to two anime stores saying 'i want this ' for every figure and saying how hot all the anime characters are there and how she would have sex with them, which made me feel like some weird cuck following them around the store, they're 19 as well which is way younger so idk I feel sus being in public with them, they said they would bring their mum for safety then didn't as well. , but I tend to assume the worst in people so idk . Then I had the blood donation appointment, but they told me I can't donate because I'm dehydrated and haven't eaten enough, lied about eating food a few hours ago and they said it probably wasn't enough ... I'm so filthy I can't even donate my blood for free, had the eye test and found out my eyesight is worse, couldn't afford any glasses and I only wanted to go there for contacts anyway.... had a brutal 1Hr walk back home as it starts pouring down. now it's like 5pm and the day feels wasted, but all I can think about is the girl on my street and how as bad as my day may be, I don't even have it that bad.

Damn man hope it gets better