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Today, I decided to take a walk around my area. I love walking, it's one of my favorite things to do. I don't really prefer night walking, but when I walk at night, I put my earbuds in and listen to music while walking. It calms my nerves.
I was walking in this suburban neighborhood, listening to "medicine" by Bring Me The Horizon. I was chilled out, not expecting to be brutally blackpilled in public. Yet, I should have known something was going to happen the moment I went outside. While I was waking up the curved sidewalk, I realized a black car was going by. I normally take one earbud out each time a car goes by, as I get worried it could be someone that is hostile that will jump out. I take one earbud out and all of the sudden, I hear three female voices yell my name, and then one followed it up with some other words, but I did not hear those, because the other two girls were yelling over them. They were reaching out the window, one was making hand movements at me, but I don't know what they were doing. I can only guess they were pointing, as she was reaching out of the car window.
Immediately following this, I knew exactly what had transpired, and why. You see, I am not very well liked in this area. I am fairly famous in this area, due to mistakes I've made in the past. Yes, I'm not proud of those mistakes, but they are far in the past. I was bullied for years, from kindergarten to seventh grade, and within those years, I became an asshole. In seventh grade, I liked a girl, and within that, I made a non-NT mistake and thought that cracking jokes about her height was funny and charming (sorry manlets I support you now), and after months of that, I ended up getting in major trouble. Every person knew who I was and what I did, and it got to the point where I got slapped on the bus by another kid because of it. I had to leave school afterwards and transfer to online school. I apologized to this girl so much, and she accepted every time. But the people in this town have not moved on, and it's NOT because of my mistakes; it's because of my subhumanity. I was bullied for years before this for being ugly. When these kids see me walk in public, they will alert others via texting, and they will come to harass me. This happened in March (group of guys went by and said "you ugly", because their friends seen me walk by after school), and in June, when two guys who knew me back then once again made fun of my looks, by saying my face looked like his ass.
The brutal reality is that I am 100% confident I will be on Snapchat now, with the video of me being yelled at by these girls, including the part they probably got on camera of me immediately getting upset about it. I've spent years trying to overcome my mistakes, but people still endlessly harass me because of them. This happened in 2019 too. I was recorded in public with my parents. I don't mind being recorded in public, as it's their first amendment right to do so, but it does suck to know it is because I am STILL being chastised. And to know it's because of MY LOOKS is the most brutal blackpill for me.
"Everybody's out to get me"
I was walking in this suburban neighborhood, listening to "medicine" by Bring Me The Horizon. I was chilled out, not expecting to be brutally blackpilled in public. Yet, I should have known something was going to happen the moment I went outside. While I was waking up the curved sidewalk, I realized a black car was going by. I normally take one earbud out each time a car goes by, as I get worried it could be someone that is hostile that will jump out. I take one earbud out and all of the sudden, I hear three female voices yell my name, and then one followed it up with some other words, but I did not hear those, because the other two girls were yelling over them. They were reaching out the window, one was making hand movements at me, but I don't know what they were doing. I can only guess they were pointing, as she was reaching out of the car window.
Immediately following this, I knew exactly what had transpired, and why. You see, I am not very well liked in this area. I am fairly famous in this area, due to mistakes I've made in the past. Yes, I'm not proud of those mistakes, but they are far in the past. I was bullied for years, from kindergarten to seventh grade, and within those years, I became an asshole. In seventh grade, I liked a girl, and within that, I made a non-NT mistake and thought that cracking jokes about her height was funny and charming (sorry manlets I support you now), and after months of that, I ended up getting in major trouble. Every person knew who I was and what I did, and it got to the point where I got slapped on the bus by another kid because of it. I had to leave school afterwards and transfer to online school. I apologized to this girl so much, and she accepted every time. But the people in this town have not moved on, and it's NOT because of my mistakes; it's because of my subhumanity. I was bullied for years before this for being ugly. When these kids see me walk in public, they will alert others via texting, and they will come to harass me. This happened in March (group of guys went by and said "you ugly", because their friends seen me walk by after school), and in June, when two guys who knew me back then once again made fun of my looks, by saying my face looked like his ass.
The brutal reality is that I am 100% confident I will be on Snapchat now, with the video of me being yelled at by these girls, including the part they probably got on camera of me immediately getting upset about it. I've spent years trying to overcome my mistakes, but people still endlessly harass me because of them. This happened in 2019 too. I was recorded in public with my parents. I don't mind being recorded in public, as it's their first amendment right to do so, but it does suck to know it is because I am STILL being chastised. And to know it's because of MY LOOKS is the most brutal blackpill for me.
"Everybody's out to get me"