
iblamemyself!
Jesus is the only way
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she asked me what i was doing tomorrow and i told her straight up. said i had gym in the morning, meal prep, lymphatic drainage, and then i mentioned applying high-strength aminophylline cream stacked with DMSO. she hit me with “wait what the fuck is that?” so i broke it down. told her aminophylline’s a bronchodilator but when you apply it topically it acts as a localized fat burner, breaks down subcutaneous fat. and DMSO pushes it deep through the skin barrier so it actually gets absorbed. told her i’m using it to target facial puffiness, water retention, stubborn areas, trying to get that deathskin look. she said “isn’t that dangerous? imagine you get a skin disease or something. what are you even trying to achieve?” i showed her. sent her photos of orb looking starved and ethereal. zeta with the angular skull and no mass. bojack at 8% body fat looking like he hasn’t known peace in years. i said “this. i’m trying to erase softness. trying to look like suffering.” she blocked me five minutes later. no goodbye, no “you’re doing too much,” just silence. i told her the truth and that alone made me repulsive.