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Iron
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I think i finally realized my thoughts and kind of put them in order, even if this isnt the entirety of it its definately a part. I started self improvement about 3 years ago and in the first 1 or 2 years i actually made significant progress, i had noticed massive improvements in my attractiveness and performance and even in my treatment by other people, i started getting asked out by girls and it seemed like everything i was doing was perfect.However,none of the girls that asked me out were my type and even if 1 or 2 were i didnt take advantage of it, i still wasnt able to make as many friends as i want and to actually progress socially and i think thats what completely derailed me. I guess all the resentment,anger,biterness,sorrow etc i have toward my idols or people i started with or the things that were my reason to start self improvement was misguided, in actuality its not like i hated them or i was sad because they had the things i wanted, its because they had them and i didnt. I still deal with this obviously and just because im able to come logically to a conclussion doesnt immediately fix my mind and spirit but i still think this is part of the truth. Its just that i saw progress, i felt that i had the power to change things, then i completely got knocked off from what i thought was the peak of the world for me.Now in this specific case, i guess the real problem i have about women and getting them and anything related is that i dont get them, its that i dont have it.I obviously still dont know how to get them or what i should even do to be able to get them, i dont know how to stop feeling like that toward the other things or people that ive been clinging to all this time and who were my reason for starting and to keep going on self improvement until they surpassed me and i felt like they left me behind. I just think i need to escape from this jail of getting no women and not even any interactions with them and it will massively improve my mental health and life with a very big jump, for now i guess i want to find a way to escape this and i think my situation will probably improve. although ive been trying to get out of it for years and still havent but there has to be a way right? i cant be like this forever right? it wont end with me still like this right?