NateJacobs
Christ is my teacher
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7-year-old porn addict, Quick Backstory
To make a really long story short, I am a porn addict and was accidently exposed to porn at around 7 years old. I was given my mom's cheap LG to keep me occupied. Being curious about Google's voice search, I literally said gibberish to see what would pop up, and what came up was a site called Scoreland.I became a porn addict and eventually started masturbating at 12 years old.
ENDLESS PIT
Last winter I was in a relationship with a strong HTB green-eyed brunette (natural blonde, though) with a fat fucking ass and beautiful things. I cared for her a lot; she was actually my onetis I wrote about when I first joined the forum. After like 2 days of talking, my dick stopped working. I could not get hard from my imagination, and I could not really get hard from porn. I freaked out and wanted to stop just for a couple days so I did not destroy my dick. But suddenly, I forgot about porn. I did not have the urger to watch it, and ironically, over that month and a half of being with her, I was so horny that all I cared about was fucking her and getting head from her.
I never really cared for fingering and was kind of weirded out by pussy, but with her, I did not care. Fingering her and making out with her felt nearly as good as fucking her. I was bricked up 24/7, yet I did not think about porn.
EXTERNAL CONNECTION
I have a void that only a relationship can fill. Be that with a woman or with porn. I developed this need for connection through multiple things, but porn made it 10x worse. Since I was in kindergarten, I have been obsessed with getting a girlfriend, which turned into getting love, then a wife, then a wife and family who would always love me and be completely loyal to me forever. But apparently, its possible to fill this with a relationship with myself. But I hate myself.
I hate the way i look
Walk
Talk
Act
Am
But that's who I am, and I don't even know who I am. I go by names that are not my own in places where nobody knows who I am but knows me more about me than anyone in the world besides myself. I pretend to be whatever character I see in a movie or TV: Nate, Joe Goldberg, Belfort, Bickle, Steve Harrignton, Archie Andrews, George (Grand Army) Tyler Durden,Patrick Bateman,Even Thad Castle JUST LOL. I am a damn chameleon, and the only time I show my true colors is when in the places where everyone is colorblind.
NateJacobs
7-year-old porn addict, Quick Backstory
To make a really long story short, I am a porn addict and was accidently exposed to porn at around 7 years old. I was given my mom's cheap LG to keep me occupied. Being curious about Google's voice search, I literally said gibberish to see what would pop up, and what came up was a site called Scoreland.I became a porn addict and eventually started masturbating at 12 years old.
ENDLESS PIT
Last winter I was in a relationship with a strong HTB green-eyed brunette (natural blonde, though) with a fat fucking ass and beautiful things. I cared for her a lot; she was actually my onetis I wrote about when I first joined the forum. After like 2 days of talking, my dick stopped working. I could not get hard from my imagination, and I could not really get hard from porn. I freaked out and wanted to stop just for a couple days so I did not destroy my dick. But suddenly, I forgot about porn. I did not have the urger to watch it, and ironically, over that month and a half of being with her, I was so horny that all I cared about was fucking her and getting head from her.
I never really cared for fingering and was kind of weirded out by pussy, but with her, I did not care. Fingering her and making out with her felt nearly as good as fucking her. I was bricked up 24/7, yet I did not think about porn.
EXTERNAL CONNECTION
I have a void that only a relationship can fill. Be that with a woman or with porn. I developed this need for connection through multiple things, but porn made it 10x worse. Since I was in kindergarten, I have been obsessed with getting a girlfriend, which turned into getting love, then a wife, then a wife and family who would always love me and be completely loyal to me forever. But apparently, its possible to fill this with a relationship with myself. But I hate myself.
I hate the way i look
Walk
Talk
Act
Am
But that's who I am, and I don't even know who I am. I go by names that are not my own in places where nobody knows who I am but knows me more about me than anyone in the world besides myself. I pretend to be whatever character I see in a movie or TV: Nate, Joe Goldberg, Belfort, Bickle, Steve Harrignton, Archie Andrews, George (Grand Army) Tyler Durden,Patrick Bateman,Even Thad Castle JUST LOL. I am a damn chameleon, and the only time I show my true colors is when in the places where everyone is colorblind.
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