About suicide.

[Deleted member 10699]

My last post here (https://looksmax.org/threads/how-can-i-become-htn-without-surgeries.278991/) and how the anwser correlates to the feedback I've receiving from the world (girls calling me ugly behind my back, people laughing at me, bullying, etc.), have give some more reasons to do something that I've been thinking about since I was 15. I've never enjoyed life, and, since I'm autistic, socialising have been really hard for me. I feel like I should have stayed more time in therapy (https://looksmax.org/threads/for-those-who-say-that-therapy-is-cope.273022/). I want to be happy, but I don't want to be alone and I'm scared of new people, since I don't want to be bullied by them.

I want to finish it all, so I don't fall and become what I don't want to become. My hate needs to stop now before I kill someone. I think that I will be happy once I dissappear. I'll have to wait until my parents die, because they'll die if I die. But I don't wanna continue this life. I'm sorry. I'm crying again, like I did today, when people bullied me here. I can't breath. Sorry.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

I want to stop caring about my looks, about getting validation, etc. I can't. I'm worse than before, and I'm not improving.

 

[Deleted member 9699]

whats wrong bro
why u feeling like this exactly

 

[Hightwolf]

whitepill.org

Dit domein kan te koop zijn!

whitepill.org

take the whitepill buddy boyo.

 

[Deleted member 9699]

I want to stop caring about my looks, about getting validation, etc. I can't. I'm worse than before, and I'm not improving.

unfortunately this is one of those things you can't really forget about once you know it
i say stop frequenting these forums and do something else in your life
detox

 

[Deleted member 9699]

whitepill.org

Dit domein kan te koop zijn!

whitepill.org

take the whitepill buddy boyo.

this is actually rlly nice thanks bro

 

[Deleted member 10699]

unfortunately this is one of those things you can't really forget about once you know it
i say stop frequenting these forums and do something else in your life
detox

I get that negative feedback in real life, too. I want to cut the head of the snake before I lose my mind and kill someone. I'm getting more anxious and frustrated everyday.

 

[Hightwolf]

this is actually rlly nice thanks bro

np and yeah it really is it's written by Sergeant lmfao.
I made a post about it before, it really helped me kinda deal with the blackpill.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

whats wrong bro
why u feeling like this exactly

Because I've been getting called ugly since I was 13. Because people've been laughing at me for being autistic since ever. I can't make any real friendship because I don't know how to hold conversations.

 

[Deleted member 9699]

I get that negative feedback in real life, too. I want to cut the head of the snake before I lose my mind and kill someone. I'm getting more anxious and frustrated everyday.

sounds like you got some anger in you
did you give sports/music/drama a try?

go outside and go for a walk tomorrow morning or in the afternoon and just give yourself time and let the sun soak in

 

[Deleted member 9699]

Because I've been getting called ugly since I was 13. Because people've been laughing at me for being autistic since ever. I can't make any real friendship because I don't know how to hold conversations.

why dont you try reading books then? novels helped me learn to socialize
maybe even TV shows

 

[Deleted member 10699]

sounds like you got some anger in you
did you give sports/music/drama a try?

go outside and go for a walk tomorrow morning or in the afternoon and just give yourself time and let the sun soak in

I do excercise and read but the hate gets stronger everyday. I feel like this world is surreal.

 

[Deleted member 110]

If I would sui car+grill method would be my preference.

Ive sui before but couldnt pull through - now I have to live as a 25 KV.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

why dont you try reading books then? novels helped me learn to socialize
maybe even TV shows

I do that. I'm currently reading Lolita.

 

[Hightwolf]

One concept that I think could really benefit you is.
You can't control what other people will tell you, they can insult you or make fun of you.
But you can control how you react and how you feel to it.

Sure it will still hurt, but eventually and hopefully you will start thinking "okay they insulted me, but it does not matter. This does not change anything, and I can continue on with my day and not think about this".

 

[Deleted member 9699]

I do excercise and read but the hate gets stronger everyday. I feel like this world is surreal.

have you never had the urge to kill yourself then suddenly a couple months later you're out having fun and enjoying yourself? im sure you have

how old are you?

 

[Deleted member 10172]

My last post here (https://looksmax.org/threads/how-can-i-become-htn-without-surgeries.278991/) and how the anwser correlates to the feedback I've receiving from the world (girls calling me ugly behind my back, people laughing at me, bullying, etc.), have give some more reasons to do something that I've been thinking about since I was 15. I've never enjoyed life, and, since I'm autistic, socialising have been really hard for me. I feel like I should have stayed more time in therapy (https://looksmax.org/threads/for-those-who-say-that-therapy-is-cope.273022/). I want to be happy, but I don't want to be alone and I'm scared of new people, since I don't want to be bullied by them.

I want to finish it all, so I don't fall and become what I don't want to become. My hate needs to stop now before I kill someone. I think that I will be happy once I dissappear. I'll have to wait until my parents die, because they'll die if I die. But I don't wanna continue this life. I'm sorry. I'm crying again, like I did today, when people bullied me here. I can't breath. Sorry.

Cope with videogames like me

 

[Deleted member 10185]

You look decent man.. The problem is your self hate which could have been result of by bullying since you were young... but never take those shit seriously because we all grow up mentally and physically. People have told me Im ugly when I was young but there are still people that find me attractive... I remember when my teacher told me my nose is big because I lie too much... now I come in this place and people still say my nose is shit.. But It does not affect me much.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

have you never had the urge to kill yourself then suddenly a couple months later you're out having fun and enjoying yourself? im sure you have

how old are you?

I've been thinking about suicide since I was 15. I'm 20.

 

[Deleted member 9699]

I've been thinking about suicide since I was 15. I'm 20.

Do you have any goals in life? Maybe a relationship? Drugs you wanna experiment with? Something?

Usually could help people feel motivated
Are you also sure your health is ok? No deficiencies or nothing?

 

[Deleted member 10699]

Do you have any goals in life? Maybe a relationship? Drugs you wanna experiment with? Something?

Usually could help people feel motivated
Are you also sure your health is ok? No deficiencies or nothing?

Not really. I'm studying, but I don't have any motivation. I like to compose music, might study that in the future.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

You look decent man.. The problem is your self hate which could have been result of by bullying since you were young... but never take those shit seriously because we all grow up mentally and physically. People have told me Im ugly when I was young but there are still people that find me attractive... I remember when my teacher told me my nose is big because I lie too much... now I come in this place and people still say my nose is shit.. But It does not affect me much.

I know that there are some people that find me attractive, but my confidence is 0. The last time a girl crushed on me, I thought that she and her friends were plotting against me and laughing at me.

 

[Deleted member 10185]

I know that there are some people that find me attractive, but my confidence is 0. The last time a girl crushed on me, I thought that she and her friends were plotting against me and laughing at me.

You are not alone man. This shit has happened for many people. Sometimes people accept it and move on and sometimes people get mentally fucked by it.. You need move on.. There are millions of people you can choose.. One fail.. Does not mean its over.

 

[Deleted member 4464]

I know that there are some people that find me attractive, but my confidence is 0. The last time a girl crushed on me, I thought that she and her friends were plotting against me and laughing at me.

I dont think you look so bad since a girl liked you

 

[Deleted member 10699]

I dont think you look so bad since a girl liked you

More than one, actually.
Last year, 4 girls and 2 guys crushed on me. But it doesn't mean shit because I hate myself.

 

[( ( ( d[-_-]b ) ) )]

 

[Deleted member 4464]

More than one, actually.
Last year, 4 girls and 2 guys crushed on me. But it doesn't mean shit because I hate myself.

brutal mental health pill, dont take ssris the chance of getting even worse arent small

 

[Deleted member 10699]

You are not alone man. This shit has happened for many people. Sometimes people accept it and move on and sometimes people get mentally fucked by it.. You need move on.. There are millions of people you can choose.. One fail.. Does not mean its over.

It always happens the same way. I'm too used to bullying than a smile is an attack to me. Two years ago, I saw an exclassmate while walking in the street. We didn't talking much. She smiled at me. I thought that she was laughing at me and I looked down.

 

[Warlord]

Fam your not even that ugly
Just gymmaxx and get a good haircut.
No one gonna chat shit about your face if you have 20 inch biceps

im in the same boat since I was young I've been called ugly, but now Ive lost weight and started giving af about my looks Ive garnered respect and admiration. Dont let life make you its bitch. Stop letting random faggots on a shitty internet forum bully you. You think your gonna be happy if you get upset from some fag mocking you?? You cant be happy till you learn to let go and not care about other people. Work on yourself. Its not over for you. Ive seen uglier people happy, why? because they don't care about other people. Its your life, Man up and fucking live bro.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

Fam your not even that ugly
Just gymmaxx and get a good haircut.
No one gonna chat shit about your face if you have 20 inch biceps

im in the same boat since I was young I've been called ugly, but now Ive lost weight and started giving af about my looks Ive garnered respect and admiration. Dont let life make you its bitch. Stop letting random faggots on a shitty internet forum bully you. You think your gonna be happy if you get upset from some fag mocking you?? You cant be happy till you learn to let go and not care about other people. Work on yourself. Its not over for you. Ive seen uglier people happy, why? because they don't care about other people. Its your life, Man up and fucking live bro.

Thanks for this anwser. I'll try to like myself.

 

[Warlord]

Thanks for this anwser. I'll try to like myself.

You mog 90% of people on this forum bro. I believe in you. You got this. Im here if you ever need to chat. My advice for you is to get into lifting or a combat sport. The endomorphins released will make you feel like the fucking man, Trust me nigga

 

[Deleted member 8853]

One concept that I think could really benefit you is.
You can't control what other people will tell you, they can insult you or make fun of you.
But you can control how you react and how you feel to it.

Sure it will still hurt, but eventually and hopefully you will start thinking "okay they insulted me, but it does not matter. This does not change anything, and I can continue on with my day and not think about this".

He actually can control whether people can bully him or not with this

 

[Deleted member 10699]

You mog 90% of people on this forum bro. I believe in you. You got this. Im here if you ever need to chat. My advice for you is to get into lifting or a combat sport. The endomorphins released will make you feel like the fucking man, Trust me nigga

I disagree. I'm ugly. But I'll feel better about myself.

 

[Warlord]

I disagree. I'm ugly. But I'll feel better about myself.

Your really not bro. Dont let internet homosexuals tell you shit. Just because you not 10/10 doesn't mean you're ugly. 6 people crushing on you shows a lot bro.

 

[PubertyMaxxer]

If I would sui car+grill method would be my preference.

Ive sui before but couldnt pull through - now I have to live as a 25 KV.

Wdym by car+grill ?

 

[PubertyMaxxer]

One concept that I think could really benefit you is.
You can't control what other people will tell you, they can insult you or make fun of you.
But you can control how you react and how you feel to it.

Sure it will still hurt, but eventually and hopefully you will start thinking "okay they insulted me, but it does not matter. This does not change anything, and I can continue on with my day and not think about this".

Doesn't work for me

I usually am full of rage for the whole day and night and can therefore can't focus on work or school

 

[Deleted member 10699]

Doesn't work for me

I usually am full of rage for the whole day and night and can therefore can't focus on work or school

I can't. I want my hate out.

 

[mogstar]

Jfl if you think this forum will help you. You are average you can’t stop being average without surgeries it is what it is.Btw u told me you were asexual or so, so why do you care? You need intensive therapy

 

[Deleted member 10699]

Jfl if you think this forum will help you. You are average you can’t stop being average without surgeries it is what it is.Btw u told me you were asexual or so, so why do you care? You need intensive therapy

Because I want to become the hottest version of myself by beardfraud= better jawline, 12% bodyfat (hotter face) and with a hotter body. With these things I'll be objetively above average.

 

[mogstar]

Because I want to become the hottest version of myself by beardfraud= better jawline, 12% bodyfat (hotter face) and with a hotter body. With these things I'll be objetively above average.

Do it and stop crying then

 

[Ritalincel]

 

[Patient A]

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Brutal avi pic pill

 

[Deleted member 10699]

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M of Mog. Ha.

 

[Deleted member 5304]

Honestly I'm thinking about suicide too, at this point I don't have any way to cope (fast food, games, anime) and everything seems so degenerate.

 

[Deleted member 2403]

I need to die in a month

 

[Deleted member 8461]

serious question have you tried drugs?

 

[Deleted member 10699]

serious question have you tried drugs?

No

 

[Deleted member 9072]

Do it and stop crying then

he won't jfl
he'll prolly keep rotting here instead of hitting the gym or softmaxxing
and then cry

this is most of the forum

 

[Deleted member 8461]

No

maybe try them. I have severe ADHD and the first time I took adderall, I felt human. It felt how life was supposed to feel like.

Honestly bro a person's 'happiness' is just the result of chemicals in their brain.

Take adderall to be productive and social
Drink or take benzos to comedown
Smoke weed to watch movies or play video games
Smoke cigarettes or vape nicotine 24/7 because it goes good with everything
Take a 2 day break every week with kratom only to reset tolerance for all the other shit

Then move up to other drugs when you feel like it.

You'll make a lot friends along the way. Most drug circles are made up of socially dysfunctional people, a lot of aspies too.

You said you were gonna die when your parents die anyways so you obviously don't care about living until your 90. This will make you more pleasant to be around and let you enjoy the time you have on earth.

 

[Deleted member 10699]

he won't jfl
he'll prolly keep rotting here instead of hitting the gym or softmaxxing
and then cry

this is most of the forum

No. I'm actually working out.