MoggerGaston
Nobody mogs like Gaston
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Will be going in next week for introductions.
In the end it will be: 3-4 days per week for up to 2 years. 4-5 hours a day. (I will live at home like normal, etc.)
Consisting of 2 days of group sessions, 1-2 days of individual therapy.
1)Therapy will be focussed on discovering why my emotional reactions and thinking patterns are the way they are, meaning going back to childhood experiences of abuse, trauma, rejection, bullying, etc.
2) Processing this trauma in a healthy way.
3) And then again, going back to who I was as a child and to try to figure out who I really am, without the trauma affecting/stopping that development this time.
How would I actually feel and think, without trauma having broken that personal development? What are my desires, what are things I like? Etc.
4) Integrating this new child-like emotional being you now discovered, into your normal life. Making the necessary changes in your life, environment, etc. to accommodate the new you. So you can further develop emotionally over time, instead of falling back into old habits/patterns.
Idk I simply don't think I have another choice. It's one hell of a commitment, to be at a mental institution for up to 4 days a week for 2 years.
It gives me a lot of anxiety because it makes it harder to pretend like I am NT? Like how would I even get a girlfriend/fwb while being institutionalized?
I would have to hide the fact I go to a ward, and will have to pretend like I have a job with somewhat irregular hours to my future girlfriend/fwb, something like that.
idk, all kinda fucked. Also won't be able to have a normal job + little to no hope in finishing my physics degree either with this time schedule for the next 2 years. + my part time job I have to do in the weekends which keeps me alive.
Of course my life would be better if I was better-looking, richer, had more friends, was fucking more girls, etc.
But think realistically. Not 'bro u need to become chad slayer millionaire or its over and just rope - vibe'
Say I don't go to the ward, instead I somehow re-focus on self-improvement. And I achieve the following (absolute best case scenario and unrealistic imo):
I become slightly better looking, reasonably well-off financially, have a couple close IRL friends, have a somewhat satisfactory LTR or fucking a new girl every once in a while
I would still be unhappy for sure
PTSD doesn't suddenly disappear.
is what it is.
TALES FROM THE WARD INCOMING
In the end it will be: 3-4 days per week for up to 2 years. 4-5 hours a day. (I will live at home like normal, etc.)
Consisting of 2 days of group sessions, 1-2 days of individual therapy.
1)Therapy will be focussed on discovering why my emotional reactions and thinking patterns are the way they are, meaning going back to childhood experiences of abuse, trauma, rejection, bullying, etc.
2) Processing this trauma in a healthy way.
3) And then again, going back to who I was as a child and to try to figure out who I really am, without the trauma affecting/stopping that development this time.
How would I actually feel and think, without trauma having broken that personal development? What are my desires, what are things I like? Etc.
4) Integrating this new child-like emotional being you now discovered, into your normal life. Making the necessary changes in your life, environment, etc. to accommodate the new you. So you can further develop emotionally over time, instead of falling back into old habits/patterns.
Idk I simply don't think I have another choice. It's one hell of a commitment, to be at a mental institution for up to 4 days a week for 2 years.
It gives me a lot of anxiety because it makes it harder to pretend like I am NT? Like how would I even get a girlfriend/fwb while being institutionalized?
I would have to hide the fact I go to a ward, and will have to pretend like I have a job with somewhat irregular hours to my future girlfriend/fwb, something like that.
idk, all kinda fucked. Also won't be able to have a normal job + little to no hope in finishing my physics degree either with this time schedule for the next 2 years. + my part time job I have to do in the weekends which keeps me alive.
Of course my life would be better if I was better-looking, richer, had more friends, was fucking more girls, etc.
But think realistically. Not 'bro u need to become chad slayer millionaire or its over and just rope - vibe'
Say I don't go to the ward, instead I somehow re-focus on self-improvement. And I achieve the following (absolute best case scenario and unrealistic imo):
I become slightly better looking, reasonably well-off financially, have a couple close IRL friends, have a somewhat satisfactory LTR or fucking a new girl every once in a while
I would still be unhappy for sure
PTSD doesn't suddenly disappear.
is what it is.
TALES FROM THE WARD INCOMING
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