Addiction & Recovery

[drooting]

I started smoking 3 years ago when I started hanging out around people I shouldn't of and involving myself in illicit scenarios. I'm trying to stop taking 2-3mgs xanax because this is ruining my mental health, but at the same time I find comfort in it. I take 3-6 bars daily and if not then It's za, alcohol or other controlled substance alternatives. After finding out about trading & prop-firms I started studying and I spent my first $800 pay-out on a BOW and dxm, shortly after running out and getting my next pay-out, I'm still on the same shit. Literally feels like I cannot escape my lifestyle and bad energy is with me wherever I go. I get sober for a few days and end up with 0 sleep and drenched in sweat by AM. I tried getting sober 2 days ago but I just ended up robbing a liquor store. Don't know what to do anymore. I thought making money would make me focus on other things and make me feel fulfilled but instead it's just easier access to everything. I'm a good-looking dude who doesn't have a hard time with girls at all, i catch their attention but I just feel weirded out by them, because of this, I started making relations with others just to steal from them or use them as a dummy when something would go wrong for me. What should I do? A tiny part of me wants to grow as a person and feel more feelings for others, but at the same time I don't care at all. I feel like a edgy dweeb posting this but I'd appreciate genuine advice.

 

[BlueScree]

tell ur parents, mine helped when i was going thru a "hard time" to say the least, tho i am a minor so that might be a big factor in how well they help. Also would be careful saying stuff like that online. If u fail at whatever ur doing and end up needing a basic job, u could get in trouble.

last advice, go to rehab or therapy. basic answer but it works.

-recovered

 

[v8zen]

Xanax withdrawal is ass and can also cause seizures if you go cold turkey. If a treatment program is an option maybe try that otherwise id try my best to slowly taper down to a point where you can deal with quiting easier.

 

[drooting]

Do past diagnostics (mental health issues) have anything to do with it? I'm diagnosed w conduct disorder / oppositional defiance disorder / adhd / add. I was diagnosed at 4-6 years old and re-diagnosed again after being forced into psychiatric help by court not too long ago. It hurts to say but I think I'm throwing my life to shit simply because I was born to do so. Everything goes good for me but I fuck it up on my own.

 

[drooting]

Xanax withdrawal is ass and can also cause seizures if you go cold turkey. If a treatment program is an option maybe try that otherwise id try my best to slowly taper down to a point where you can deal with quiting easier.

fuckk, i can try. I tell myself i aint gonna take nothing then I take 1 xan then i take another then another

 

[v8zen]

fuckk, i can try. I tell myself i aint gonna take nothing then I take 1 xan then i take another then another

I never really got addicted to xans but yeah it is really hard to only take 1. Back when I took them I took like 1 bar didnt feel much so I popped another and then after that I forgot I even took them so I just kept taking more till I passed out.

 

[drooting]

I never really got addicted to xans but yeah it is really hard to only take 1. Back when I took them I took like 1 bar didnt feel much so I popped another and then after that I forgot I even took them so I just kept taking more till I passed

I'll just cold turkey everything starting tomorrow. thx for replies bhai

 

[v8zen]

I'll just cold turkey everything starting tomorrow. thx for replies bhai

Gl bro

 

[somewhatsuffering]

dont do cold turkey bro