Again my face is looking narrow when it looked good few weeks ago

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I just wake up one day and see myself as narrow faced subhuman. Some time ago I remember I was happy with how I looked, I had wide good eyes and good bones but now it disappeared.

It's like I have two faces that are changing constantly. I dont understand m, I am taking escitalopram 15mg that is supposed to help me balance the mood but my appearance swings are so big. One day I think I look good and other day I see myself as PSL3 because my midface looks less defined and skull looks narrow.

Yesterday I went to stylist for my barrettmaxxed fringe cut (see avi) and in their mirror I looked like PSL2 monster.

Fuck this
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i always relate to your threads of this kind man. i wish i could be satisfied with my looks permanently
 
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i always relate to your threads of this kind man. i wish i could be satisfied with my looks permanently
You have same thing happening to you? This is fucked. When I feel good it usually lasts for maybe few days then I go back to ugly
 
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You have same thing happening to you? This is fucked. When I feel good it usually lasts for maybe few days then I go back to ugly
yeah man. sometimes i feel really GL, almost euphoria tier. when this happens while im out, i usually try to get IOIs and feel like im some sort of gigachad walking around. but other times i feel like the ugliest subhuman, being angry at my shit pathetic genetics, to the point of actually getting violent and hitting/destroying stuff out of frustration

in reality, i know that in both scenarios (when i feel gl/when i feel ugly) people dont actually care. but i'd still never leave the house without styled hair and good clothes
i take both to the extremes, when i feel GL i act overconfident and cocky thinking i own the world, and when i feel ugly i try to hide from people, and i feel worthless and non-human

no amount of online/IRL validation can change this, unfortunately this is a permanent state of mind, which can probably be traced back to some childhood events
 
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yeah man. sometimes i feel really GL, almost euphoria tier. when this happens while im out, i usually try to get IOIs and feel like im some sort of gigachad walking around. but other times i feel like the ugliest subhuman, being angry at my shit pathetic genetics, to the point of actually getting violent and hitting/destroying stuff out of frustration

in reality, i know that in both scenarios (when i feel gl/when i feel ugly) people dont actually care. but i'd still never leave the house without styled hair and good clothes
i take both to the extremes, when i feel GL i act overconfident and cocky thinking i own the world, and when i feel ugly i try to hide from people, and i feel worthless and non-human

no amount of online/IRL validation can change this, unfortunately this is a permanent state of mind, which can probably be traced back to some childhood events
So I'm not alone. I just wish I could see myself as I really look like. It's never ending story, I am getting dopamine rushes from new game but still my mood is swinging from good to bad no matter what I do I will always go back to the pit.
 
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I just wake up one day and see myself as narrow faced subhuman. Some time ago I remember I was happy with how I looked, I had wide good eyes and good bones but now it disappeared.

It's like I have two faces that are changing constantly. I dont understand m, I am taking escitalopram 15mg that is supposed to help me balance the mood but my appearance swings are so big. One day I think I look good and other day I see myself as PSL3 because my midface looks less defined and skull looks narrow.

Yesterday I went to stylist for my barrettmaxxed fringe cut (see avi) and in their mirror I looked like PSL2 monster.

Fuck this
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yeah man. sometimes i feel really GL, almost euphoria tier. when this happens while im out, i usually try to get IOIs and feel like im some sort of gigachad walking around. but other times i feel like the ugliest subhuman, being angry at my shit pathetic genetics, to the point of actually getting violent and hitting/destroying stuff out of frustration

in reality, i know that in both scenarios (when i feel gl/when i feel ugly) people dont actually care. but i'd still never leave the house without styled hair and good clothes
i take both to the extremes, when i feel GL i act overconfident and cocky thinking i own the world, and when i feel ugly i try to hide from people, and i feel worthless and non-human

no amount of online/IRL validation can change this, unfortunately this is a permanent state of mind, which can probably be traced back to some childhood events

It's the same with me. I feel like I look different depending on the mirror I look in, the time of day etc. It's not as bad as it used to be but now I have a period of like 4 days where I feel like I mog all the MMs posted on this site, I feel amazing for those few days and then for 4 days after that I feel like the ugliest subhuman to ever exist. Like I can't leave my house in case someone sees me and I keep my head down if I do have to be outside of my house. At these times I have absolutely no motivation and I just feel like destroying everything until it's over.

I have made posts on various forums asking people if they experience the same thing but no one described what i'm experiencing as perfectly as you.

Do you have any idea what this is? Some sort of bipolar disorder? Do we need to take jew meds? This shit is really driving me insane. I feel like i'm 2 different people.
 
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Do you have any idea what this is? Some sort of bipolar disorder? Do we need to take jew meds? This shit is really driving me insane. I feel like i'm 2 different people.
Best I got with research is that its serotonin jumping from low to high. A lot of correlations with depression.
Low serotonin = your mood is fucked, that's why you feel like subhuman.

However I am manically scared of mirrors since a year now, I cant look at my reflection in phone or TV screen. I noticed I can hold good mood longer when I only check myself in my bathroom mirror with darker lighting.
 
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what bro cant look as bad as me tbh
 
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It's the same with me. I feel like I look different depending on the mirror I look in, the time of day etc. It's not as bad as it used to be but now I have a period of like 4 days where I feel like I mog all the MMs posted on this site, I feel amazing for those few days and then for 4 days after that I feel like the ugliest subhuman to ever exist. Like I can't leave my house in case someone sees me and I keep my head down if I do have to be outside of my house. At these times I have absolutely no motivation and I just feel like destroying everything until it's over.

I have made posts on various forums asking people if they experience the same thing but no one described what i'm experiencing as perfectly as you.

Do you have any idea what this is? Some sort of bipolar disorder? Do we need to take jew meds? This shit is really driving me insane. I feel like i'm 2 different people.
Type BDD on the forum we have many posts.

@Over my moods most of the time depend on how I look not the other way around tbh
 
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Best I got with research is that its serotonin jumping from low to high. A lot of correlations with depression.
Low serotonin = your mood is fucked, that's why you feel like subhuman.

However I am manically scared of mirrors since a year now, I cant look at my reflection in phone or TV screen. I noticed I can hold good mood longer when I only check myself in my bathroom mirror with darker lighting.

Makes sense. Having rotted inside most of my prime years with no female affection and living with shitty abusive parnets while others were out making memories definitely wasn't good for my mental health.
Will jew meds help?
 
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It's the same with me. I feel like I look different depending on the mirror I look in, the time of day etc. It's not as bad as it used to be but now I have a period of like 4 days where I feel like I mog all the MMs posted on this site, I feel amazing for those few days and then for 4 days after that I feel like the ugliest subhuman to ever exist. Like I can't leave my house in case someone sees me and I keep my head down if I do have to be outside of my house. At these times I have absolutely no motivation and I just feel like destroying everything until it's over.

I have made posts on various forums asking people if they experience the same thing but no one described what i'm experiencing as perfectly as you.

Do you have any idea what this is? Some sort of bipolar disorder? Do we need to take jew meds? This shit is really driving me insane. I feel like i'm 2 different people.
i'd say its narcissistic personality disorder, hence why we feel so superior when we think we look good. we know the status and power of being good looking, so as narcissists that makes us feel good and motivated
but when we feel ugly, we know that others dont envy us and dont look up to us, thus we get depressed, because attention and validation is what keeps us going. despite the fact that billions of other subhumans are living happy lives, just existing without admiration and being superior, without ME being the main character is nowhere near enough for me to be satisfied with my life.
i've always had this thing, that whatever i do and present in front of others, needs to be way above average, otherwise i feel like i am a failure

also jew meds dont do shit brother. drink alcohol or smoke weed, the rest is stupid cope
 
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i'd say its narcissistic personality disorder, hence why we feel so superior when we think we look good. we know the status and power of being good looking, so as narcissists that makes us feel good and motivated
but when we feel ugly, we know that others dont envy us and dont look up to us, thus we get depressed, because attention and validation is what keeps us going. despite the fact that billions of other subhumans are living happy lives, just existing without admiration and being superior, without ME being the main character is nowhere near enough for me to be satisfied with my life.
i've always had this thing, that whatever i do and present in front of others, needs to be way above average, otherwise i feel like i am a failure

also jew meds dont do shit brother. drink alcohol or smoke weed, the rest is stupid cope

Shit, you're probably right. When I do feel good I purposely try to observe and inspect everyone I walk past. Just to see exactly how much better than them I am. I get energy from it. I also go on /r/rateme just to look at all the people I feel are below me.
Fuark, brutal realization.
 
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Makes sense. Having rotted inside most of my prime years with no female affection and living with shitty abusive parnets while others were out making memories definitely wasn't good for my mental health.
Will jew meds help?
Escitalopram did small changes for me. I was more stable mentally. Try it.
 
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Escitalopram did small changes for me. I was more stable mentally. Try it.

You need to have it prescribed, right?
I'm too high inhib to tell the doctor I want to go ER on women in Fortnite because they are whores.
 
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You need to have it prescribed, right?
I'm too high inhib to tell the doctor I want to go ER on women in Fortnite because they are whores.
Yes you need to go to psychiatrist for it
 
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Yes you need to go to psychiatrist for it

What age were you when you went? How did it go?
Did he just ask questions about you?
 
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What age were you when you went? How did it go?
Did he just ask questions about you?
Few months ago. No big personal questions just asked what's my problem and that's it.
 
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Few months ago. No big personal questions just asked what's my problem and that's it.
Did you say you had frequent mood swings?
 
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Did you say you had frequent mood swings?
Yes. I'm no longer going to any treatment. I expected too much from thes pills and got disappointed.
 
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