
Beanermaxxer
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Serious question. I don’t think I love anyone. Not my parents, not friends, not anyone I’ve dated. I don’t feel strong emotional attachments to people, and when they’re gone, I don’t really miss them. I don’t cry, I don’t feel sad, I just move on like it’s nothing.
People IRL are constantly acting like love and connection are these huge emotional forces meanwhile I’m just like “
” I can understand what people feel intellectually, like, oh they’re sad because their dog died. But I don’t feel it with them. I don’t get that emotional mirroring thingy.
I don’t feel remorse either. Even when I know I did something “wrong.” Like, I’ll be fully aware that what I did hurt someone, or broke some social rule, and still feel absolutely nothing inside. No guilt. No internal punishment. Just maybe annoyance that it caused inconvenience.
But I’m not violent, I’m not trying to manipulate people, I don’t enjoy causing harm. I’m not a sadist or something.
People IRL are constantly acting like love and connection are these huge emotional forces meanwhile I’m just like “
I don’t feel remorse either. Even when I know I did something “wrong.” Like, I’ll be fully aware that what I did hurt someone, or broke some social rule, and still feel absolutely nothing inside. No guilt. No internal punishment. Just maybe annoyance that it caused inconvenience.
But I’m not violent, I’m not trying to manipulate people, I don’t enjoy causing harm. I’m not a sadist or something.