Am I an autistic retard and should I blast steroids because of it

[midmtn]

I'm 20, my brain is fried from crypto, doomscrolling and drugs; I don't feel joy when interacting with other people even if it is to talk about similiar interests. The only times I feel somewhat happy are when I make a succesful trade in crypto or take drugs (which btw I'm not a very avid drug user only have done a handful and don't do them very often (<once a week) with hardest being MDMA or ketamine). I do however get dopamine from talking to women and performing sexual acts with them as I have some pretty fucked fetishes that I love to act on and talking to women feels like hunting them in a way. I also LOVE going to the gym and progressing in every way, however, my genetics are pretty average and you can't tell I lift in the slightest with a shirt on. I listen to tiktok audios on loop when walking around campus and have a gf atm so I'm not pursuing women. So my question is, should I blast gear since I am dialed tf in with my diet and training and recovery and everything because maximizing my appeal to women is the only thing keeping me alive? (crypto and drugs are too, but crypto is for making money which just goes to maximizing my smv with gear and basic living necesities) BTW I am fairly educated on gear and would research more extensively if I pull the trigger and start, I would start with the minimum efficacious dose and slowly titrate up as I hit plateaus, and would do everything in my power to keep my health in check with AI's, blood thinners, etc. But if I ever had serious health complications that would force me to get off, I wouldn't, as without being jacked, I can't rly pull since I'm pretty nd and autistic and am average in every way phyiscally. also i think i'm nd because I'm not confident, as when I am around friends I can rizz women up without feeling any sort of embarassment, ad I think when I get jacked asffff and am wearing my lifts and have pregab and few others things running thru the system I will be able to be nt as fuck. idk let me know, this is more of a rant than a question ig but even if just one person semi relates to this, that would be peak.

 

[Ch1gga]

I'm illiterate.

 

[sixracks]

over.

 

[888mastermind]

Dnr

 

[dragomog]

I'm 20, my brain is fried from crypto, doomscrolling and drugs; I don't feel joy when interacting with other people even if it is to talk about similiar interests. The only times I feel somewhat happy are when I make a succesful trade in crypto or take drugs (which btw I'm not a very avid drug user only have done a handful and don't do them very often (<once a week) with hardest being MDMA or ketamine). I do however get dopamine from talking to women and performing sexual acts with them as I have some pretty fucked fetishes that I love to act on and talking to women feels like hunting them in a way. I also LOVE going to the gym and progressing in every way, however, my genetics are pretty average and you can't tell I lift in the slightest with a shirt on. I listen to tiktok audios on loop when walking around campus and have a gf atm so I'm not pursuing women. So my question is, should I blast gear since I am dialed tf in with my diet and training and recovery and everything because maximizing my appeal to women is the only thing keeping me alive? (crypto and drugs are too, but crypto is for making money which just goes to maximizing my smv with gear and basic living necesities) BTW I am fairly educated on gear and would research more extensively if I pull the trigger and start, I would start with the minimum efficacious dose and slowly titrate up as I hit plateaus, and would do everything in my power to keep my health in check with AI's, blood thinners, etc. But if I ever had serious health complications that would force me to get off, I wouldn't, as without being jacked, I can't rly pull since I'm pretty nd and autistic and am average in every way phyiscally. also i think i'm nd because I'm not confident, as when I am around friends I can rizz women up without feeling any sort of embarassment, ad I think when I get jacked asffff and am wearing my lifts and have pregab and few others things running thru the system I will be able to be nt as fuck. idk let me know, this is more of a rant than a question ig but even if just one person semi relates to this, that would be peak.

dnr but if your 20 u have no reason not to roid since u finished growing

 

[MartyMauser]

I'm 20, my brain is fried from crypto, doomscrolling and drugs; I don't feel joy when interacting with other people even if it is to talk about similiar interests. The only times I feel somewhat happy are when I make a succesful trade in crypto or take drugs (which btw I'm not a very avid drug user only have done a handful and don't do them very often (<once a week) with hardest being MDMA or ketamine). I do however get dopamine from talking to women and performing sexual acts with them as I have some pretty fucked fetishes that I love to act on and talking to women feels like hunting them in a way. I also LOVE going to the gym and progressing in every way, however, my genetics are pretty average and you can't tell I lift in the slightest with a shirt on. I listen to tiktok audios on loop when walking around campus and have a gf atm so I'm not pursuing women. So my question is, should I blast gear since I am dialed tf in with my diet and training and recovery and everything because maximizing my appeal to women is the only thing keeping me alive? (crypto and drugs are too, but crypto is for making money which just goes to maximizing my smv with gear and basic living necesities) BTW I am fairly educated on gear and would research more extensively if I pull the trigger and start, I would start with the minimum efficacious dose and slowly titrate up as I hit plateaus, and would do everything in my power to keep my health in check with AI's, blood thinners, etc. But if I ever had serious health complications that would force me to get off, I wouldn't, as without being jacked, I can't rly pull since I'm pretty nd and autistic and am average in every way phyiscally. also i think i'm nd because I'm not confident, as when I am around friends I can rizz women up without feeling any sort of embarassment, ad I think when I get jacked asffff and am wearing my lifts and have pregab and few others things running thru the system I will be able to be nt as fuck. idk let me know, this is more of a rant than a question ig but even if just one person semi relates to this, that would be peak.

you just seem like a typical kid tbh that has 0 attention span. read a book buddy, test will descend you if u dont do it right either and ur not autistic ur just ruined