
john2
Gyneolatry Fiend
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I honestly don't (and probably NEVER have) felt/feel the desire to have sex with a woman... although I'm a virgin and I don't know how good sex can be.
Until I stumbled upon this forum... I didn't know that having sex was the main goal of my life. I didn't know that people respect each other depending on how much they've slayed or not. The real reason I stumbled here was because of personal insecurity. I managed to get/interact/date with women before I joined here, ded srs.
Instead of desiring for sex (the real thing)... my cravings for masturbation are increasing day by day. I'm on nofap atm and the first thing anybody would think of about me is that "this nigga must have cravings to have sex, in his head 24/7"... but the truth is that I feel like masturbating instead.
Those sweet memories of fapping always flash in my head almost every hour each day. Those gorgeous and ROMANTIC experiences I had just alone with myself strike me so hard... I always lose motivation. It was so beautiful, I am ashamed of saying this... but those days of fapping were so special... it used to be just me and my dick spending time together on the bed.
Again, like I said before, I'm not getting hard always, but my willpower to abstain from fapping is decreasing each day. My maximum streak on nofap was around 48 days however (until a nocturnal emission happened). After reading about @Amnesia's threads about how fapping mogs sex, I feel like not pursuing any woman at all now. But if I don't attract a woman in my life... then I will have no future. I will be seen as the lone social outcast. And even you PSL-ers will bully me for wasting my youth and not finding a woman to breed with. I started looksmaxxing because I just wanted to feel good of myself, not to get foids. I already had a hand to please myself with. I reckon this definitely is not a normal attitude although I just feel totally comfortable being like this. Maybe cooming since a young age screwed me up like this way. Slaying foids on this forum is like peer pressure by other blackpillers imo. Ik that this is a really weird wall of text lol... but I'm 100% serious ITT. I need someone to relate with.
Until I stumbled upon this forum... I didn't know that having sex was the main goal of my life. I didn't know that people respect each other depending on how much they've slayed or not. The real reason I stumbled here was because of personal insecurity. I managed to get/interact/date with women before I joined here, ded srs.
Instead of desiring for sex (the real thing)... my cravings for masturbation are increasing day by day. I'm on nofap atm and the first thing anybody would think of about me is that "this nigga must have cravings to have sex, in his head 24/7"... but the truth is that I feel like masturbating instead.
Those sweet memories of fapping always flash in my head almost every hour each day. Those gorgeous and ROMANTIC experiences I had just alone with myself strike me so hard... I always lose motivation. It was so beautiful, I am ashamed of saying this... but those days of fapping were so special... it used to be just me and my dick spending time together on the bed.
Again, like I said before, I'm not getting hard always, but my willpower to abstain from fapping is decreasing each day. My maximum streak on nofap was around 48 days however (until a nocturnal emission happened). After reading about @Amnesia's threads about how fapping mogs sex, I feel like not pursuing any woman at all now. But if I don't attract a woman in my life... then I will have no future. I will be seen as the lone social outcast. And even you PSL-ers will bully me for wasting my youth and not finding a woman to breed with. I started looksmaxxing because I just wanted to feel good of myself, not to get foids. I already had a hand to please myself with. I reckon this definitely is not a normal attitude although I just feel totally comfortable being like this. Maybe cooming since a young age screwed me up like this way. Slaying foids on this forum is like peer pressure by other blackpillers imo. Ik that this is a really weird wall of text lol... but I'm 100% serious ITT. I need someone to relate with.