Anyone else feels disgust towards whoever shows them affection?

[Lonenely sigma]

This has followed me throughout my entire life.


All people who I ever had an "obsession" over, be it women I liked, or men I wanted to be friends with, neglected me at first.


They never abused me, they just greeted me and went about their day like I didn't even exist.


But whenever those people showed me some sort of affection, or wanted to spend time with me, I felt an immense sense of disgust and repulsion towards them.


Anyone else feels the same way?

 

[Surfsup]

Nga u might be a female

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Nga u might be a female

Lol is this a feminine trait or what?

 

[Surfsup]

Lol is this a feminine trait or what?

Yeah it kinda is

 

[Bomber517]

You're probably non-nt

 

[faustianspirit]

yes.

i also tend to idealize those people i want to get to know and once i know them and realize they aren't what i thought i start to hate them.

 

[orangomango2003]

this is likely to be a combination of low self-worth and fear of emotional connection.

if you see yourself as low-worth your mind makes the assumption that others seeing you as high-worth is not sincerely and is just a way for them to get something from you. also you avoid connection because they may find out you're not as high-worth as they thought.

if you think about all the times you said nice things to others you may notice that you've said them to get something from them, and therefore think others are trying to do the same to you.

you don't want to make emotional connections because of the possible rejection and fear of being manipulated, and when you're vulnerable you give up control.

by not accepting the affection others have/show for you you're trying to stay in control and avoid them from taking advantage of you or hurting you.

 

[Lonenely sigma]

this is likely to be a combination of low self-worth and fear of emotional connection.

if you see yourself as low-worth your mind makes the assumption that others seeing you as high-worth is not sincerely and is just a way for them to get something from you. also you avoid connection because they may find out you're not as high-worth as they thought.

if you think about all the times you said nice things to others you may notice that you've said them to get something from them, and therefore think others are trying to do the same to you.

you don't want to make emotional connections because of the possible rejection and fear of being manipulated, and when you're vulnerable you give up control.

by not accepting the affection others have/show for you you're trying to stay in control and avoid them from taking advantage of you or hurting you.

I agree almost 100%, but I just don't understand the disgust part.


As far as I am aware, the disgust usually comes from the point of seeing yourself as superior, and "average" people as disgusting. Idk how that fits with the low self-image you described.


This goes in the other direction as well. This idealization I do about some women is actually mind-blowing. I never show them my feelings bc I don't want to feed their egos, but inside I see them almost as divine beings

 

[Clown Show]

Not the case with me.

I kinda used to crave attention from people who neglected me, but that's when I was an abused dog bullied kid.

As I matured, it chaged. Now when someone shows me genuinue real respect, I give respect back and I only hang out with people who I like and they like me back.

But if someone disrespects me in the slightest, I literally wish death upon that person and his/her entire family and the only thing preventing me from going ER on that mfer is jail.

 

[R@m@]

Youre probably a playable character aware of non playable characters

And the non player characters can sense youre a playable character and leave you alone

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Not the case with me.

I kinda used to crave attention from people who neglected me, but that's when I was an abused dog bullied kid.

As I matured, it chaged. Now when someone shows me genuinue real respect, I give respect back and I only hang out with people who I like and they like me back.

But if someone disrespects me in the slightest, I literally wish death upon that person and his/her entire family and the only thing preventing me from going ER on that mfer is jail.

Its weird bc sometimes I feel anger towards those people at the same time as idolizing them. Weird sense of repulsion and attraction at the same time.

 

[Clown Show]

Its weird bc sometimes I feel anger towards those people at the same time as idolizing them. Weird sense of repulsion and attraction at the same time.

Try to remove those thought patterns ASAP.

It's a fucked up mind state to be in.

 

[R@m@]

Or maybe youre an npc but you are aware of it

 

[Ruthless]

mogs me for getting affection

 

[Clown Show]

this is likely to be a combination of low self-worth and fear of emotional connection.

if you see yourself as low-worth your mind makes the assumption that others seeing you as high-worth is not sincerely and is just a way for them to get something from you. also you avoid connection because they may find out you're not as high-worth as they thought.

if you think about all the times you said nice things to others you may notice that you've said them to get something from them, and therefore think others are trying to do the same to you.

you don't want to make emotional connections because of the possible rejection and fear of being manipulated, and when you're vulnerable you give up control.

by not accepting the affection others have/show for you you're trying to stay in control and avoid them from taking advantage of you or hurting you.

Rare to see a high iq post on .org nowadays.

 

[Lonenely sigma]

mogs me for getting affection

Nah dw the best looking woman that has ever shown me affection was barely a MTB

 

[orangomango2003]

I agree almost 100%, but I just don't understand the disgust part.


As far as I am aware, the disgust usually comes from the point of seeing yourself as superior, and "average" people as disgusting. Idk how that fits with the low self-image you described.


This goes in the other direction as well. This idealization I do about some women is actually mind-blowing. I never show them my feelings bc I don't want to feed their egos, but inside I see them almost as divine beings

the disgust-feeling is part of your defense mechanism. it's not that they are disgusting. your brain makes you feel disgusted to protect you from what your brain perceives as danger. at first you want to win over someone to make yourself feel confident, but once they've done that by showing affection you're afraid of them finding out who you really are, so you protect yourself from that rejection.

 

[lurking truecel]

this is likely to be a combination of low self-worth and fear of emotional connection.

if you see yourself as low-worth your mind makes the assumption that others seeing you as high-worth is not sincerely and is just a way for them to get something from you. also you avoid connection because they may find out you're not as high-worth as they thought.

if you think about all the times you said nice things to others you may notice that you've said them to get something from them, and therefore think others are trying to do the same to you.

you don't want to make emotional connections because of the possible rejection and fear of being manipulated, and when you're vulnerable you give up control.

by not accepting the affection others have/show for you you're trying to stay in control and avoid them from taking advantage of you or hurting you.

Just say being ugly syndrome, because you know you will be left alone because your genes are dog in the fundamental sense