Are you really living or just following ?

[R@m@]

Do you feel like youre really living or just following a script?

 

[MoggerGaston]

 

[R@m@]

 

[MoggerGaston]

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same pills as me

 

[cube]

another philosophical banger from rambo, how does he do it

 

[R@m@]

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same pills as me

Thats the light blue one I also have those

 

[cobicado901]

corny ass nigga, go get some stacies on bumble lil bro

 

[cobicado901]

Do you feel like youre really living or just following a script?

eu sou apenas um sigma solitário da Amadora, um dia irei matar todos os niggas da tapada que nem vai ser bom

 

[MoggerGaston]

Thats the light blue one I also have those

I never got the lightblue punishers tested but they just seem like the most average pills. slightly weaker than the pokemon pills.

pokemon-pills were my favourite, tested at 170mg/pill at a lab, but the seller dissapeared, couldn't find them anymore

 

[R@m@]

eu sou apenas um sigma solitário da Amadora, um dia irei matar todos os niggas da tapada que nem vai ser bom

Já morei na amadora jfl

 

[MoggerGaston]

corny ass nigga, go get some stacies on bumble lil bro

its too hard for me mentally. I face too many insecurities n shit tbh.
it can be done, but the mental-effort is insane.

this raver-chick is the last girl I dated over a year ago. We made out but mentally it was just too hard on me to get further than that with her.
Not worth it.

 

[cobicado901]

its too hard for me mentally. I face too many insecurities n shit tbh.
it can be done, but the mental-effort is insane.

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this raver-chick is the last girl I dated over a year ago. We made out but mentally it was just too hard on me to get further than that with her.
Not worth it.

me too but if we do nothing, we will never overcome these difficulties.

also, 80% of this forum will never touch a girl like that

 

[R@m@]

I never got the lightblue punishers tested but they just seem like the most average pills. slightly weaker than the pokemon pills.

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pokemon-pills were my favourite, tested at 170mg/pill at a lab, but the seller dissapeared, couldn't find them anymore

Just droped half a pill

 

[R@m@]

Just droped half a pill

Going to the woods walking its starting to make effect

 

[MoggerGaston]

me too but if we do nothing, we will never overcome these difficulties.

yes, but I am not sure what we can even do. What I have done before has failed, obviously.
Doing the same thing over and over again, hoping for different results, is madness.

also, 80% of this forum will never touch a girl like that

yeah she was hot and a bit autistic/weird in a good way(extroverted weird and open to my weirdness), so it was easier to vibe than with normal women, honestly.
But I was unable to enjoy any of it. The whole date and everything leading up to it and after it was mostly anxiety.

Which left me to conclude that it's better not to date, to stop talking/dating women, since it causes so much mental torment for me.

I contacted her weeks after the date while high on MDMA to talk through what we thought about the date and the MDMA really helped me open up and also understand her position during/after the date. After having a good emotional open conversation, we agreed to meetup again for a second-date but I got infected with scabies and was unable to date for months. She reached out to me later, but I still had scabies. Then contact ended.

I could still message her and try to meet-up again but idk if worth honestly.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Going to the woods walking its starting to make effect

u gonna listen to music?

 

[cobicado901]

que pills são essas @R@m@

 

[MoggerGaston]

Just droped half a pill

mirin'

enjoy it man

 

[R@m@]

u gonna listen to music?

Nah just stay in the woods

 

[R@m@]

que pills são essas @R@m@

Ectasy punisher

 

[fukmylyf]

blue punishers still going around huh?

 

[cobicado901]

yes, but I am not sure what we can even do. What I have done before has failed, obviously.
Doing the same thing over and over again, hoping for different results, is madness.

yeah she was hot and a bit autistic/weird in a good way(extroverted weird and open to my weirdness), so it was easier to vibe than with normal women, honestly.
But I was unable to enjoy any of it. The whole date and everything leading up to it and after it was mostly anxiety.

Which left me to conclude that it's better not to date, to stop talking/dating women, since it causes so much mental torment for me.

I contacted her weeks after the date while high on MDMA to talk through what we thought about the date and the MDMA really helped me open up and also understand her position during/after the date. After having a good emotional open conversation, we agreed to meetup again for a second-date but I got infected with scabies and was unable to date for months. She reached out to me later, but I still had scabies. Then contact ended.

I could still message her and try to meet-up again but idk if worth honestly.

The difficulty is living in the present and entering flow. We are anxious because we are always thinking about failing, always seeing the future. You never live in the present moment. Therapy, meditation, dopamine detox can help. It's not a coping mechanism, your problem has a solution.

 

[cobicado901]

@MoggerGaston you are not an incel and you will never be.

 

[Avertion]

its too hard for me mentally. I face too many insecurities n shit tbh.
it can be done, but the mental-effort is insane.

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this raver-chick is the last girl I dated over a year ago. We made out but mentally it was just too hard on me to get further than that with her.
Not worth it.

I’m gonna ask you this in @cobicado901 language. Did you crack that jawn?

 

[MoggerGaston]

The difficulty is living in the present and entering flow. We are anxious because we are always thinking about failing, always seeing the future. You never live in the present moment. Therapy, meditation, dopamine detox can help. It's not a coping mechanism, your problem has a solution.

Already did all those things mate. I agree with you but the solution is not this easy

 

[cobicado901]

I’m gonna ask you this in @cobicado901 language. Did you crack that jawn?

este nigga não me deixa em paz @R@m@ vou atirá-lo da ponte 25 de abril.

 

[MoggerGaston]

@MoggerGaston you are not an incel and you will never be.

Yeah cuz i am truecel, not incel. Havent had sex in years.

I am hopeless

 

[MoggerGaston]

I’m gonna ask you this in @cobicado901 language. Did you crack that jawn?

Wut

 

[R@m@]

este nigga não me deixa em paz @R@m@ vou atirá-lo da ponte 25 de ababril.

Pendura-o pela pixota

 

[fukmylyf]

not exactly following a script, but it feels like i get the same outcome regardless of my actions

 

[cobicado901]

Yeah cuz i am truecel, not incel. Havent had sex in years.

I am hopeless

You can get matches, you can go to parties. You already had a girl. So looks don’t limit you,you are not handicapped or something.

Also, your problem has a solution. Not an easy one but it’s still there. You are not the first guy to get super nervous in front of girls.

You are a volcel I will not even argue this bro.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Nah just stay in the woods

im gonna use some mephedrone rn tbh, fuck this detox bullshit.

i just have no other coping mechanisms anymore. I just want to feel good, a little bit. instead of all the suffering.

 

[MoggerGaston]

You can get matches, you can go to parties. You already had a girl. So looks don’t limit you,you are not handicapped or something.

Yes but I have different, more difficult problems honestly.

Also, your problem has a solution. Not an easy one but it’s still there. You are not the first guy to get super nervous in front of girls.

What solution does it have? even dating a stacylite for months I am still unable to enjoy it as I feel like any moment she will find out I am a loser and ditch me, and that eventually always ends up happening.

You are a volcel I will not even argue this bro.

oke buddy.

I am more truecel than 90% of this forum who don't suffer from my mental diseases

 

[cobicado901]

Yes but I have different, more difficult problems honestly.

What solution does it have? even dating a stacylite for months I am still unable to enjoy it as I feel like any moment she will find out I am a loser and ditch me, and that eventually always ends up happening.


oke buddy.

I am more truecel than 90% of this forum who don't suffer from my mental diseases

you are using me to make a brutal coping mechanism to accept yourself as an incel and accept that it’s over, when it is totally not true. It is the easiest thing you can do

open bumble and get a girl for yourself tonight nigga.

 

[MoggerGaston]

you are using me to make a brutal coping mechanism to accept yourself as an incel and accept that it’s over, when it is totally not true. It is the easiest thing you can do

open bumble and get a girl for yourself tonight nigga.

thats not at all what I am doing lmao.

you just have this dumbass mindset where you believe that me fucking some random girl tonight who I mog brutally (only way to get easy-sex) is somehow going to give me satisfaction.

No.

 

[cobicado901]

you just have this dumbass mindset where you believe that me fucking some random girl tonight who I mog brutally (only way to get easy-sex) is somehow going to give me satisfaction.

so you a choice lmfao.
don’t be lazy and start training to be low inhib. not a truecel/incel, don’t reply to me nigga.

 

[MoggerGaston]

so you a choice lmfao.
don’t be lazy and start training to be low inhib. not a truecel/incel, don’t reply to me nigga.

you are seeing this issue with such a surface-level comprehension. I can only imagine you are quite a bit younger and less experienced than me.

indeed pointless to reply to you.

 

[Sub5kang]

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same pills as me

What is it

 

[MoggerGaston]

What is it

mdma my man

one of the better drugs.
non-addictive, less harmful and having positive psychological effects. MDMA is used in therapy for mental illnesses professionally.

 

[zerotohero]

I'm just existing.

 

[ivan.kuk]

mdma my man

one of the better drugs.
non-addictive, less harmful and having positive psychological effects. MDMA is used in therapy for mental illnesses professionally.

yea, but not as often as you do it.

 

[R@m@]

mdma my man

one of the better drugs.
non-addictive, less harmful and having positive psychological effects. MDMA is used in therapy for mental illnesses professionally.

Yup it shows you the work it needs to be done, its up to you to accept the challenges
and face the insecurities you have but also dont do big doses if youre going to fo therapy because you might have no "choice" when the challenges are put in front of you when you dont feel ready and you go insane, small doses step by step

 

[MoggerGaston]

Yup it shows you the work it needs to be done, its up to you to accept the challenges
and face the insecurities you have but also dont do big doses if youre going to fo therapy because you might have no "choice" when the challenges are put in front of you when you dont feel ready and you go insane, small doses step by step

on MDMA it's very easy to feel and think in the 'right' way. I realize my mental illnesses and the ways in which I self-sabotage. I realize what parts of my life are a 'coping mechanism', things that I do/use to escape certain aspects of my life.
I realize where my mentality is wrong and what I can improve. I can understand which aspects of my life I should change for the better.

But despite knowing all those things, having understanding of them, it's still very hard to actually change them over a longer-period of time.
While completely on your own, etc. with no outside help or social connection.

I feel like I am still missing something to really change my life since I already have the knowledge, just not the circumstances to do it. Or perhaps I am going too fast and not giving myself enough time to change, wanting too much too fast.

 

[R@m@]

on MDMA it's very easy to feel and think in the 'right' way. I realize my mental illnesses and the ways in which I self-sabotage. I realize what parts of my life are a 'coping mechanism', things that I do/use to escape certain aspects of my life.
I realize where my mentality is wrong and what I can improve. I can understand which aspects of my life I should change for the better.

But despite knowing all those things, having understand of them, it's still very hard to actually change them over a longer-period of time.
While completely on your own, etc.

I feel like I am still missing something to really change my life since I already have the knowledge, just not the circumstances to do it. Or perhaps I am going to fast and not giving myself enough time to change, wanting too much too fast.

Yup, psychedelics give you the knowledge but the choice of confronting your emotions and insecurities its up to you but dont rush it give it time and you will probably get there

Its always the same on acid or ectasy that feeling of oneness and everything is gonna be alright thats your higher self then it will show you what needs to be done to get there, even after so many trips I cant face a side of me, maybe in another life or whatever because I have the sensation we are spiritual beings or whatever you wanna call it

 

[MoggerGaston]

yea, but not as often as you do it.

not the healthiest thing I am doing in terms of how often I use, but it's not that bad.
It's kinda like my alcohol-use. It's also not that problematic what I am doing. (~12 bottles of wine per week)
But on the long-term, this is unsustainable and indeed will cause health problems. Same with my drug-use.
And I don't want to be stuck in this lifestyle on the long-term anyways, it's just something I need right now to cope with my situation.

It's something I need to work on: to get other ways to alleviate stress, anxiety, and deal with the struggles of life. Instead of just alcohol/drugs.
Right now I only really enjoy life on drugs/alcohol, so for now this will have to do while I find alternatives.

 

[ey88]

Do you feel like youre really living or just following a script?

Like I’m following a script

 

[MoggerGaston]

Yup, psychedelics give you the knowledge but the choice of confronting your emotions and insecurities its up to you but dont rush it give it time and you will probably get there

Its always the same on acid or ectasy that feeling of oneness and everything is gonna be alright thats your higher self then it will show you what needs to be done to get there, even after so many trips I cant face a side of me, maybe in another life or whatever because I have the sensation we are spiritual beings or whatever you wanna call it

Yes, similar thing here. I can confront certain problematic situations I face better after having done psychedelics/mdma, but to actually change your entire lifestyle, mindset is a bridge too far.

I think use of psychedelics, MDMA is just one of the factors needed to get the life you want, it's a tool to be used. But big change requires more elements than just drugs:
Another is social connection of some sort which you involve in your change and is supportive of you.
And the last and most important is you actually wanting to change your current life and having a realistic plan, way to do it, involving going out of your comfort zone a lot and accepting the pain that comes with that. This is a battle with your own ego and not as straight-forward as you may think, since it sounds so easy.