
kurd
𝐂𝐀𝐈 𝐂𝐫𝐞𝐰 𝐌𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫
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There’s seriously no such thing as a real friend anymore. Everyone just pretends to be cool with you but the second you’re not around they’re talking behind your back, making fun of you, or twisting your words. And what's even worse? They'll embarrass you in front of others, especially girls, just to look cool. Like how insecure do you have to be to throw your own friend under the bus just to get some laughs or clout?
I used to think I had real friends. People I could trust. People I could be myself around. I opened up, I told them personal things, stuff I barely told anyone, and they just used it against me. Next thing I know, my business is being passed around like a joke and I'm hearing my own secrets from people I never even spoke to. That shit sucks.
The worst part? The moment they found out I was doing well, like financially or just in life in general, they changed instantly. Their whole vibe flipped. All of a sudden they were interested, acting fake supportive, being way too nice, asking what I’m up to, trying to stay close. Not because they cared. But because they wanted something. Money. Favors. Some sort of benefit from being around me. They didn’t want to see me win unless they were getting a piece of it too.
So yeah, I cut everyone off. I’m done. I don’t want friends. I don’t want to trust people anymore. Every time I did, it backfired. People either betrayed me, used me, or tried to tear me down. I’ve been through enough fake smiles, shady conversations, and toxic energy to know that being alone is honestly safer.
What all of this did to me mentally is something I don’t think people even understand. These so called friends completely messed with my head. They ruined my trust in people. They made me paranoid to the point where I overthink every interaction. I constantly feel like I’m being watched or talked about. I can’t relax around anyone anymore. My stress levels are through the roof because I’m always expecting the worst. And it all came from people I used to call friends.
I’m 19 and I’ve already decided that I’d rather walk through life solo than ever let someone that close to me again. Real friends don’t exist. Not in my world. And I’ve made peace with that.
I used to think I had real friends. People I could trust. People I could be myself around. I opened up, I told them personal things, stuff I barely told anyone, and they just used it against me. Next thing I know, my business is being passed around like a joke and I'm hearing my own secrets from people I never even spoke to. That shit sucks.
The worst part? The moment they found out I was doing well, like financially or just in life in general, they changed instantly. Their whole vibe flipped. All of a sudden they were interested, acting fake supportive, being way too nice, asking what I’m up to, trying to stay close. Not because they cared. But because they wanted something. Money. Favors. Some sort of benefit from being around me. They didn’t want to see me win unless they were getting a piece of it too.
So yeah, I cut everyone off. I’m done. I don’t want friends. I don’t want to trust people anymore. Every time I did, it backfired. People either betrayed me, used me, or tried to tear me down. I’ve been through enough fake smiles, shady conversations, and toxic energy to know that being alone is honestly safer.
What all of this did to me mentally is something I don’t think people even understand. These so called friends completely messed with my head. They ruined my trust in people. They made me paranoid to the point where I overthink every interaction. I constantly feel like I’m being watched or talked about. I can’t relax around anyone anymore. My stress levels are through the roof because I’m always expecting the worst. And it all came from people I used to call friends.
I’m 19 and I’ve already decided that I’d rather walk through life solo than ever let someone that close to me again. Real friends don’t exist. Not in my world. And I’ve made peace with that.