Jiaxi
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Hey every body before this all gets too serious, just want to let you know I love and care about you, because I know you’re here for a reason I am. So we can’t be too different, my time is yours, and my help is yours.
Intro:
1. I make a majority of decisions in order to improve my mental health that could be considered NT. I make an effort to ask people about themselves and about their day, even if they don't respond. I go out on weekends and pay for drinks or drugs with friends, if I dont it wont happen. I have a girlfriend who I make plans with, because if I don’t text first she’ll break up with me.
2. I used to have a best friend but he died and I think what has happened now is that through his death I have come to realize how fake everything is.
3. In finding these things fake, I have characterized my issues into sections:
My Girlfriend:
1. I do literally anything wrong and I'm immediately punished for it
. I know a lot of normies have co ed friend groups which mog, but I find it literally impossible to have friends that are girls without my girlfriend grilling me over it and trying to go through my phone.
2. It seems I am always on fucking thin ice as she harbors zero ability to forgive me and very acute and bitter sickness that follows here whenever we are together. I have the most control I’ve ever had and am surprised she even likes me considering my looks and personality are pretty shit. My best theory is that I am bitter and she gravitates towards the negativity.
3. She’s autistic so not very sympathetic and can be very cold, very smart but just not very nice to me sometimes. I don’t really care because I don't need validation but would like a hug or nice word sometime
My Friends
1. I don’t have any friends I consistently hangout without outside of school, I genuinely despise everyone and would be okay with them getting killed in the next day or two. I do treat people well but it just depends on how I'm feeling, if its a stranger I’m not going to be an asshole to them.
2. The people I do spend time with are a rag tag group of individuals that don't get along with each other. I want people to get along but have come to realize they all want to be around me for different superficial reasons, so if they are all in company they virtue signal and fight between each other.
3. I lost my best friend to a drowning and he was honestly the only person I really got along with.
My Parents
1. Good people but just dont really align with my lifestyle since im so lonely I need to see people. Being grounded makes it very difficult to see anyone and the strict parenting style makes it hard to see anyone if school isn’t on par.
2. My parents don't really get along with my girlfriend and especially my mom tends to play devils advocate on any girl I date, so I need to be getting physically abused for her to even bat an eye over my feelings.
3. Just overall don't have the level of imagination that I have about the future, very practical people.
Im finished, if you agree or relate feel free to respond or give me a rep.
TLDR: life is falling apart and am looking for online friends.
Intro:
1. I make a majority of decisions in order to improve my mental health that could be considered NT. I make an effort to ask people about themselves and about their day, even if they don't respond. I go out on weekends and pay for drinks or drugs with friends, if I dont it wont happen. I have a girlfriend who I make plans with, because if I don’t text first she’ll break up with me.
2. I used to have a best friend but he died and I think what has happened now is that through his death I have come to realize how fake everything is.
3. In finding these things fake, I have characterized my issues into sections:
My Girlfriend:
1. I do literally anything wrong and I'm immediately punished for it
. I know a lot of normies have co ed friend groups which mog, but I find it literally impossible to have friends that are girls without my girlfriend grilling me over it and trying to go through my phone. 2. It seems I am always on fucking thin ice as she harbors zero ability to forgive me and very acute and bitter sickness that follows here whenever we are together. I have the most control I’ve ever had and am surprised she even likes me considering my looks and personality are pretty shit. My best theory is that I am bitter and she gravitates towards the negativity.
3. She’s autistic so not very sympathetic and can be very cold, very smart but just not very nice to me sometimes. I don’t really care because I don't need validation but would like a hug or nice word sometime
My Friends
1. I don’t have any friends I consistently hangout without outside of school, I genuinely despise everyone and would be okay with them getting killed in the next day or two. I do treat people well but it just depends on how I'm feeling, if its a stranger I’m not going to be an asshole to them.
2. The people I do spend time with are a rag tag group of individuals that don't get along with each other. I want people to get along but have come to realize they all want to be around me for different superficial reasons, so if they are all in company they virtue signal and fight between each other.
3. I lost my best friend to a drowning and he was honestly the only person I really got along with.
My Parents
1. Good people but just dont really align with my lifestyle since im so lonely I need to see people. Being grounded makes it very difficult to see anyone and the strict parenting style makes it hard to see anyone if school isn’t on par.
2. My parents don't really get along with my girlfriend and especially my mom tends to play devils advocate on any girl I date, so I need to be getting physically abused for her to even bat an eye over my feelings.
3. Just overall don't have the level of imagination that I have about the future, very practical people.
Im finished, if you agree or relate feel free to respond or give me a rep.
TLDR: life is falling apart and am looking for online friends.
