Napoleon de Geso
I swipe right on 0,12% of females in Tinder
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As unconventionally attractive chronologically twice older man who in dating sites searching only girls 18-22yo, I not getting many matches, what is depressing, but every of those matches is joyful event. But last year, when started to use new photocamera, and with new photos, after unsuccesfull half of matchless month in Tinder spent in Europe and Latin America, set location to China, where always getting matches, and got one soon, nasty thing happened, triggering OCD intrusive thoughts and feelings, themed about emotional/symbolical contamination. By it, various things I started to feel about being contaminated, and one of them is getting matches in dating sites. So now as result feeling not only depressed when not getting matches, but also uncomfortable when sometimes do get, and it makes me even more anxious to talk with those new matches, while already having social anxiety. And to that match I got in happening of triggering event, I still didn't messaged, while she so cute and looks potentially one of best matches I ever got. Because her happening as match also acted as sort of counter-attack against triggering event, she symbolically became purificator from contamination, and if I loose her after us failing to fit each other's requirements - thats not only sad - that makes triggering event even more symbolically polluting and me drowning deeper in filth this evil world is pouring on me