toolateforme
Again hoping that i don't wake up tomorrow..
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I'm a cis woman with a midface ratio of 0.88 and the only people I can find talking about having similar ratios is the /tttt/ trans girls who talk about how ugly it makes them, how it's the worst
"male" feature to have, how they'll never pass because of it. I found out my ratio on the website incel.tech two weeks ago and I've spiraled into the worst BDD episode of my life since. I've literally lost like 7 or so pounds because the anxiety and depression has destroyed my appetite. I knew I had a long midface and was definitely insecure about it, but I didn't think my situation was that dire. It hurts so badly seeing people on forums and the vindicta sub talk about how it's an "objectively" unattractive and unfeminine feature, how a woman can never be conventionally attractive with a ratio like mine, how it's a result of bad genes, mouth breathing, or even too much testosterone exposure in the womb. I feel so unbelievably cursed and unlucky. It's rare for a woman to have this so it feels like a deformity. It's literally all I can think about 100% of the time, from the second my eyes open to the moment I drift off to sleep. I used to be okay with my reflection and now I swear it's gotten so much worse before my eyes. I feel indescribable seething jealousy towards every woman with a compact midface, even if they overall are less attractive than me. Because there's literally nothing I can even do. Can't even hardmax my way out of this one. This is my face forever, and I don't identify with it. I actually even liked most of my other features, but now worry they're all eclipsed by my long midface. I want nothing more than to be desired and seen as cute and pretty, but now I feel like if I even posted a picture of myself anywhere, the first & only thing people would notice is my midface. I can’t stop comparing myself to every single woman I see irl & online. The worst part is that if someone else found me attractive, I don’t know if I could ever find *myself* attractive. I feel trapped. I just want this feeling gone.
"male" feature to have, how they'll never pass because of it. I found out my ratio on the website incel.tech two weeks ago and I've spiraled into the worst BDD episode of my life since. I've literally lost like 7 or so pounds because the anxiety and depression has destroyed my appetite. I knew I had a long midface and was definitely insecure about it, but I didn't think my situation was that dire. It hurts so badly seeing people on forums and the vindicta sub talk about how it's an "objectively" unattractive and unfeminine feature, how a woman can never be conventionally attractive with a ratio like mine, how it's a result of bad genes, mouth breathing, or even too much testosterone exposure in the womb. I feel so unbelievably cursed and unlucky. It's rare for a woman to have this so it feels like a deformity. It's literally all I can think about 100% of the time, from the second my eyes open to the moment I drift off to sleep. I used to be okay with my reflection and now I swear it's gotten so much worse before my eyes. I feel indescribable seething jealousy towards every woman with a compact midface, even if they overall are less attractive than me. Because there's literally nothing I can even do. Can't even hardmax my way out of this one. This is my face forever, and I don't identify with it. I actually even liked most of my other features, but now worry they're all eclipsed by my long midface. I want nothing more than to be desired and seen as cute and pretty, but now I feel like if I even posted a picture of myself anywhere, the first & only thing people would notice is my midface. I can’t stop comparing myself to every single woman I see irl & online. The worst part is that if someone else found me attractive, I don’t know if I could ever find *myself* attractive. I feel trapped. I just want this feeling gone.
