Androgynous
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I am a mix of 3 different ethnicities, I'm SEA passing and I live in the Philippines. Both my parents are good-looking but I had literally every single environmental handicap there is, malnourished, neglected/abused, always ill, terrible habits, poor nutrition, poor sleep, and so on, which capped me.
Being mixed and not good-looking is beyond brutal! People here have a severe case of the cross-race effect, and centuries of colonization and media makes them believe that every foreigner is good-looking, so the standards for being good looking as a mixed person is already higher than it should be, and I barely look foreign. People also associate being mixed with being wealthy and attractive since any impoverished first worlder can afford to live a life of luxury in countries like mine, I did not and still do not have this luxury. I also happen to have features that no one else in my known bloodline has, like 3b-3c hair, which when paired with my parents and people that surround me, leads to a recipe of disaster.
I am a LTN with pretty hair and I'm 177 barefoot which means I'm Adam-lite in my country. I'm sure that a large portion of my issues stems from me being ND and socially regressed, but even excluding these factors, life being mixed, SEA passing, and not conventionally attractive still sucks.
BTW I love being mixed, I just so happen to be at the bottom of the environmental hierarchy.
Being mixed and not good-looking is beyond brutal! People here have a severe case of the cross-race effect, and centuries of colonization and media makes them believe that every foreigner is good-looking, so the standards for being good looking as a mixed person is already higher than it should be, and I barely look foreign. People also associate being mixed with being wealthy and attractive since any impoverished first worlder can afford to live a life of luxury in countries like mine, I did not and still do not have this luxury. I also happen to have features that no one else in my known bloodline has, like 3b-3c hair, which when paired with my parents and people that surround me, leads to a recipe of disaster.
I am a LTN with pretty hair and I'm 177 barefoot which means I'm Adam-lite in my country. I'm sure that a large portion of my issues stems from me being ND and socially regressed, but even excluding these factors, life being mixed, SEA passing, and not conventionally attractive still sucks.
BTW I love being mixed, I just so happen to be at the bottom of the environmental hierarchy.
