ranierean
Virgil Texas of Chapo Trap House 🚬🚂🐇🦦🦭
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Lately my depressive episodes have been getting too much for me so I often get out of the home and walk endlessly, independent of time or weather. Sometimes I take a bike too and maybe my phone and the headphones to listen to Bladee.
I walk 10, 20 miles, I reach city limits…
I prefer doing this late at night, just hours before first wagies crawl outside because it’s the most interesting time for me.
The only source of light that you get are those fucking LED streetlights with insanely cold color temperatures and what’s funny is that they often seem mismatched and so you’ll get an alley with an uneven lighting, a wide mix of ambiance.
To torture myself even more I pull up my selfie camera to see just how much it makes me look subhuman--my jet black hair fades into the night so I look more and more like a norwood reaper victim.
My astigmatism adds to this because if I look for too long those flashes make me hallucinate and this zombie-like state gets even worse, but some of them are nice because I get to imagine better things.
There are one or two ugly men walking just like me but I try to avoid them, I wait a bit or hide somewhere so that they don’t think that I’m stalking them.
You see passing cars too, depending on how busy the street is, but it is usually an ugly plasticy SUV that ethnics seem to like. It's especially creepy if they go real slow as if they're on alert.
Everything is so ugly…
I walk 10, 20 miles, I reach city limits…
I prefer doing this late at night, just hours before first wagies crawl outside because it’s the most interesting time for me.
The only source of light that you get are those fucking LED streetlights with insanely cold color temperatures and what’s funny is that they often seem mismatched and so you’ll get an alley with an uneven lighting, a wide mix of ambiance.
To torture myself even more I pull up my selfie camera to see just how much it makes me look subhuman--my jet black hair fades into the night so I look more and more like a norwood reaper victim.
My astigmatism adds to this because if I look for too long those flashes make me hallucinate and this zombie-like state gets even worse, but some of them are nice because I get to imagine better things.
There are one or two ugly men walking just like me but I try to avoid them, I wait a bit or hide somewhere so that they don’t think that I’m stalking them.
You see passing cars too, depending on how busy the street is, but it is usually an ugly plasticy SUV that ethnics seem to like. It's especially creepy if they go real slow as if they're on alert.
Everything is so ugly…
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