maliq05
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I just wanted to rant about how unfair life is to be a sub-5 male, although I live in southeast asia and don't experience the brunt of lookism like in the west it's still pretty brutal out here. I am 5'4" which is apparently normal male height in my country (at least for rural areas) but everywhere I go i'm constantly reminded of the fact that I am inferior in terms of physical development when I see men height mog me, even some teens look more mature than me which is kinda brutal. But that's not what I'm trying to get at here. I recently went to my hometown to celebrate eid (yes i'm muslim) but I keep constantly getting blackpills wherever I go. First off, my cousins on my dad's side frame/height mog me to death despite my dad being taller than their dad. Not only that, they seem to have better social lives than me. I never had that much of a close friend circle growing up, and now at 20 i'm still relatively young but i lack a close social circle/dating experience growing up because of my looks/confidence which has affected my choices growing up which may or may not lead me to where i currently am. I remember talking to my 6'1 MTN cousin on how to navigate relationships, and he told me about one of his friends he was around my height, but managed to get a girl after trying many times. He told me the cliche' "just be confident bro" advice and I doubt whether that guy really got genuine attraction or is just compensating in another way. He also told me about his prime gymcelling days a few years ago and he was pretty strong as well. He also talked to a lot of girls at the time and is currently seeing someone, I wonder what led to his success? Sure he probably has a great personality but no doubt his height was carrying him a lot as being 6 feet is super rare in my country as we're filled with midgets from our cooked diets. To make matters worse, my hometown is called "batu pahat" which is abbreviated as BP and a lot of places have it in their name so everywhere I go i see BP in my head. I'm just stuck in this lonely destructive rut where I'm surrounded by blackpill in my life which was always there, just that I never realized it initially. Whenever I see couples walk by, I'm reminded by the fact that there's nothing lovable about me besides my "personality" which is mostly overlooked because of my looks. My jaw is recessed from mouth breathing although it could have been genetics as well. I have been gymcelling for 2 years but results have not been speaking for themselves. I see my old classmates who have frail physiques but still get girls because they have a better face card. At least if I had close friends I could cope somehow, but here I am watching looksmaxxing/bp content everyday and ruining my mental health, and it's not like I could do anything to change my height because I discovered looksmaxxing too late at 18 when my growth plates fused when I was 16. Moving forward i'll have to cope with the gym and somehow in the future if i can at least hardmaxx to escape being sub-5 i'll do it but things aren't looking good at the moment. And I forgot to mention, even my sisters make fun of my appearance. One of them make fun of me often, could be because she's in her emo arc now but I remembered today while our dad was driving in the car she wasn't surprised that i didn't have a girlfriend despite being in uni because of my height (she didn't mention it but i'm sure she strongly hinted at it). Apologies if this rant seemed messy I just typed out whatever I had in mind.
just become a ladyboy 
