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Before starting let me clear i am not here to gain your to gain sympathy . just documneting and a gimplse of how brutal life is.
hey yall posting this thread after a long time so as you know how i broke up in the last thread .
This is the part 2 of it and how things are going
https://looksmax.org/threads/betryal-and-i-feel-like-dying.1274313/ (read it before starting this)
So, a few days after that incident, we sort of got back together but ig she treated me like just a guy. But then, out of nowhere, she ghosted me on IG. Two days ago, her best friend sent me a video of her dancing with a guy (his face wasn’t visible). I assumed it was her and confronted her about it. She gave me a name—" >>> "—which made me furious. In the heat of the moment, I called her a "whore." That, of course, led to her getting mad, and everything fell apart again.
Later, I found out that the video was fake. But just a week after that, she actually was dancing with a guy—same name as before. This time, it was for a school function, and it involved him holding her exposed waist. That hit me hard. I spiraled into depression, anxiety, and just disappeared from the org.
Even after all this, we still talked. She kept hurting me, and I kept begging—yeah, a true cuck moment, but I was helpless. Maybe there was a better way, but at the time, I couldn’t see it.
And to top it off, she kept blaming me for everything. She said we ended because I called her a whore, but I know that was just an excuse—she was already planning to dump me. She just made sure to have a reason that made it look like my fault.
Just a small portion of it haha, lmao—there’s much more brutal stuff she said, way harsher words, but I don’t even wanna show all that.i cried worte paragraphs begged wanted to know why she kept ignoring and laughing and it was just few days after breakup btw
And yeah when i crying trying to express her how much pain i am in she even started sharing kinks about her liking older men and how i was never good enough—probably just to trigger me more. Not just that, but you know how I mentioned she only has a few years left to live? Well, that got reduced to three (she has CVD). I honestly don’t even give a shit anymore, but it kinda feels like she’s using it for attention maybe.
Anyway, just a few days after realizing all this, she suddenly started giving me attention and talking to me again—yeah, nasty stuff. That was like a week ago. But here’s the thing: on the last day, she straight-up asked me to be her boyfriend again. No idea why. And like a low-test faggot, after all this humiliation, I still said yes.
And then after this, we kinda had a good chat. But afterwards, she sent me some pics of a guy and whatever—other people too. It’s always either her or her bestie they keep bringing up how other guys keep hitting on her (ONLINE).
But yeah, she always acts like she doesn’t give a shit or anything. IMO, I’m very sure she doesn’t feel anything for them. But still, why? Honestly, why?? She used to be so possessive for me back then.
back then i used do with multiple girls she cried overr this but then I decided to be loyal cus i felt like i really loved her jfl at me. And now, here I am.
I asked her, "Why don’t you just block him?"
She said
" casual" "talk to em when bored"
yh thats what she coming up with she wont block him cus she wants attenion when she is "bored" lmao and btw i swear she wasnt like this before idk how it ended up here
yah there are lots of ss of our convo which can make you disgust on bad are foids actually or you can say how misearable i am to her altho once she claimed me as her love and she still claims to btw lmao. but i am too lazy to add all those
Thats all i have pretty much ruined myself over this dk how long all i this will keep going. lmao on top of it she asked me to be her bf just 3 hrs before it after he sent of how guys flirting on her and she is responding back when she is "bored" and cant block them. oh yah did i mention she did ask me to meet her as she will be shifting to london cus of her fathers work anways sounds like she wanna have me while trying out stuff jfl.
some of you might blame me , but i dont wanted to put myself into this either i mean once she used to have my pics posted in her insta stroies and my name in her walls but now i fucking dont know what to do either my mental helath was already fucked up on top of this....
hey yall posting this thread after a long time so as you know how i broke up in the last thread .
This is the part 2 of it and how things are going
https://looksmax.org/threads/betryal-and-i-feel-like-dying.1274313/ (read it before starting this)
So, a few days after that incident, we sort of got back together but ig she treated me like just a guy. But then, out of nowhere, she ghosted me on IG. Two days ago, her best friend sent me a video of her dancing with a guy (his face wasn’t visible). I assumed it was her and confronted her about it. She gave me a name—" >>> "—which made me furious. In the heat of the moment, I called her a "whore." That, of course, led to her getting mad, and everything fell apart again.
Later, I found out that the video was fake. But just a week after that, she actually was dancing with a guy—same name as before. This time, it was for a school function, and it involved him holding her exposed waist. That hit me hard. I spiraled into depression, anxiety, and just disappeared from the org.
Even after all this, we still talked. She kept hurting me, and I kept begging—yeah, a true cuck moment, but I was helpless. Maybe there was a better way, but at the time, I couldn’t see it.
And to top it off, she kept blaming me for everything. She said we ended because I called her a whore, but I know that was just an excuse—she was already planning to dump me. She just made sure to have a reason that made it look like my fault.
Just a small portion of it haha, lmao—there’s much more brutal stuff she said, way harsher words, but I don’t even wanna show all that.i cried worte paragraphs begged wanted to know why she kept ignoring and laughing and it was just few days after breakup btw
And yeah when i crying trying to express her how much pain i am in she even started sharing kinks about her liking older men and how i was never good enough—probably just to trigger me more. Not just that, but you know how I mentioned she only has a few years left to live? Well, that got reduced to three (she has CVD). I honestly don’t even give a shit anymore, but it kinda feels like she’s using it for attention maybe.
Anyway, just a few days after realizing all this, she suddenly started giving me attention and talking to me again—yeah, nasty stuff. That was like a week ago. But here’s the thing: on the last day, she straight-up asked me to be her boyfriend again. No idea why. And like a low-test faggot, after all this humiliation, I still said yes.
And then after this, we kinda had a good chat. But afterwards, she sent me some pics of a guy and whatever—other people too. It’s always either her or her bestie they keep bringing up how other guys keep hitting on her (ONLINE).
But yeah, she always acts like she doesn’t give a shit or anything. IMO, I’m very sure she doesn’t feel anything for them. But still, why? Honestly, why?? She used to be so possessive for me back then.
back then i used do with multiple girls she cried overr this but then I decided to be loyal cus i felt like i really loved her jfl at me. And now, here I am.
I asked her, "Why don’t you just block him?"
She said
" casual" "talk to em when bored"
yah there are lots of ss of our convo which can make you disgust on bad are foids actually or you can say how misearable i am to her altho once she claimed me as her love and she still claims to btw lmao. but i am too lazy to add all those
Thats all i have pretty much ruined myself over this dk how long all i this will keep going. lmao on top of it she asked me to be her bf just 3 hrs before it after he sent of how guys flirting on her and she is responding back when she is "bored" and cant block them. oh yah did i mention she did ask me to meet her as she will be shifting to london cus of her fathers work anways sounds like she wanna have me while trying out stuff jfl.
some of you might blame me , but i dont wanted to put myself into this either i mean once she used to have my pics posted in her insta stroies and my name in her walls but now i fucking dont know what to do either my mental helath was already fucked up on top of this....
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