BETRYAL,And i feel like dying

[saumya_19]

Writing this maybe out of sadness? About a year back, on January 11th, I met this girl. At first, I wasn’t sure what to think, but later I fell in love with her—or maybe it was her who seemed obsessed with me. I felt it every day. She had a rough past, with r*pe and abuses from her family it was her uncle and cousin brother , but despite all of that, she was pretty and really rich.

All year, she seemed deeply devoted to me. She would get approched by guys every literally everyday and she wouldnt even care to react abt that. She’d do things like post my pictures in her stories or write my name on her plate when she went out. It felt like she truly loved me. Her family, though, was terrible, and all the abuse she went through messed with her in ways that would sometimes show. She said she wouldn’t live past 21 because she have cvd, and there were times when she’d get violent with other guys. Even with all that, I didn’t care because, deep down, I believed she cared about me.

But things started falling apart a few days ago. She told me she doesn’t feel anything for me anymore. It felt different this time, like it’s permanent. In the past, she’d leave and come back, but now I don’t think she’s coming back at all. What makes it worse is the way it ended. She said some really harsh things about me and even about my parents, things I never thought I’d hear from her.she few days back try to fake a story about her liking someone older which i got to know a fake ass thing but later yah everything got resolved and she got back to me about 10 days back but just yesterday things got worse she again came up with all that and yah the guy was talking about was her fathers bestfriend lol (he is 29 lmao) altho i very sure tho she did it to fire me up and make me leave

It just sucks right now. All this time, I thought we were building something, but now it feels like everything’s just gone. last few days have been brutual for me i cant just accept it idk how do i even cope with it lol i lost everything money and all.
(TBH theres more to add here which is something insane to add but i dont want y'all to make joke on me)

 

[Thinking_CEL]

Is one of the symptoms of schizophrenia making rich girls cause I swear I saw 4 schizo ramblings today including this one where the girls happen to be rich

 

[Donquixote]

Awwww dude im so sorry but why do i explain you that i dnr a single fucking word

 

[gymcel64]

I'm sorry for you brother but honestly you should have seen the red flags, Sexual abuse and "going away and coming back". I know we all think it'll be different when it's us, it's you and you know you can do better and "fix her" and everything but the truth is that's not gonna happen, she won't change, you wonr fix her and you will suffer the consequences, as you just did. Lesson learned for you i, that's good. Peace!

 

[twojei]

S

Writing this maybe out of sadness? About a year back, on January 11th, I met this girl. At first, I wasn’t sure what to think, but later I fell in love with her—or maybe it was her who seemed obsessed with me. I felt it every day. She had a rough past, with r*pe and abuses from her family it was her uncle and cousin brother , but despite all of that, she was pretty and really rich.

All year, she seemed deeply devoted to me. She would get approched by guys every literally everyday and she wouldnt even care to react abt that. She’d do things like post my pictures in her stories or write my name on her plate when she went out. It felt like she truly loved me. Her family, though, was terrible, and all the abuse she went through messed with her in ways that would sometimes show. She said she wouldn’t live past 21 because she have cvd, and there were times when she’d get violent with other guys. Even with all that, I didn’t care because, deep down, I believed she cared about me.

But things started falling apart a few days ago. She told me she doesn’t feel anything for me anymore. It felt different this time, like it’s permanent. In the past, she’d leave and come back, but now I don’t think she’s coming back at all. What makes it worse is the way it ended. She said some really harsh things about me and even about my parents, things I never thought I’d hear from her.she few days back try to fake a story about her liking someone older which i got to know a fake ass thing but later yah everything got resolved and she got back to me about 10 days back but just yesterday things got worse she again came up with all that and yah the guy was talking about was her fathers bestfriend lol (he is 29 lmao) altho i very sure tho she did it to fire me up and make me leave
View attachment 3417906

It just sucks right now. All this time, I thought we were building something, but now it feels like everything’s just gone. last few days have been brutual for me i cant just accept it idk how do i even cope with it lol i lost everything money and all.
(TBH theres more to add here which is something insane to add but i dont want y'all to make joke on me)

Surrender yourself to pain

Wanna cry? Cry.

Wanna hate? Hate.

Wanna love? Love.

Wanna be depressed? Be depressed

Wanna sex her? Sex her in your mind

The less you repress, the better.

That's how broken hearts are put bac together with gold.

Never repress your emotions.

 

[twojei]

I'm sorry for you brother but honestly you should have seen the red flags, Sexual abuse and "going away and coming back". I know we all think it'll be different when it's us, it's you and you know you can do better and "fix her" and everything but the truth is that's not gonna happen, she won't change, you wonr fix her and you will suffer the consequences, as you just did. Lesson learned for you i, that's good. Peace!

Just enjoy The moment. They all go away.

 

[gymcel64]

Just enjoy The moment. They all go away.

I find it so hard, I'm just so goal oriented, but I know it's the right thing to do

 

[arfac]

Writing this maybe out of sadness? About a year back, on January 11th, I met this girl. At first, I wasn’t sure what to think, but later I fell in love with her—or maybe it was her who seemed obsessed with me. I felt it every day. She had a rough past, with r*pe and abuses from her family it was her uncle and cousin brother , but despite all of that, she was pretty and really rich.

All year, she seemed deeply devoted to me. She would get approched by guys every literally everyday and she wouldnt even care to react abt that. She’d do things like post my pictures in her stories or write my name on her plate when she went out. It felt like she truly loved me. Her family, though, was terrible, and all the abuse she went through messed with her in ways that would sometimes show. She said she wouldn’t live past 21 because she have cvd, and there were times when she’d get violent with other guys. Even with all that, I didn’t care because, deep down, I believed she cared about me.

But things started falling apart a few days ago. She told me she doesn’t feel anything for me anymore. It felt different this time, like it’s permanent. In the past, she’d leave and come back, but now I don’t think she’s coming back at all. What makes it worse is the way it ended. She said some really harsh things about me and even about my parents, things I never thought I’d hear from her.she few days back try to fake a story about her liking someone older which i got to know a fake ass thing but later yah everything got resolved and she got back to me about 10 days back but just yesterday things got worse she again came up with all that and yah the guy was talking about was her fathers bestfriend lol (he is 29 lmao) altho i very sure tho she did it to fire me up and make me leave
View attachment 3417906

It just sucks right now. All this time, I thought we were building something, but now it feels like everything’s just gone. last few days have been brutual for me i cant just accept it idk how do i even cope with it lol i lost everything money and all.
(TBH theres more to add here which is something insane to add but i dont want y'all to make joke on me)

is an online girl?

 

[saumya_19]

Is one of the symptoms of schizophrenia making rich girls cause I swear I saw 4 schizo ramblings today including this one where the girls happen to be rich

Awwww dude im so sorry but why do i explain you that i dnr a single fucking word

is an online girl?

well yh tbh she was about to fly across states to meet me few monnths back with her cousin sister i denied as i was nervous

 

[arfac]

well yh tbh she was about to fly across states to meet me few monnths back with her cousin sister i denied as i was nervous

ask her to see her, if she deny, it's over

 

[saumya_19]

I'm sorry for you brother but honestly you should have seen the red flags, Sexual abuse and "going away and coming back". I know we all think it'll be different when it's us, it's you and you know you can do better and "fix her" and everything but the truth is that's not gonna happen, she won't change, you wonr fix her and you will suffer the consequences, as you just did. Lesson learned for you i, that's good. Peace!

tbh theres nothing off red flags prolly it was me found myself driven by lust i would be talking shits with other women then get caught altho soon after that its when i feel great atttachment towards her and my love for her became stronger her friend used to say how she used to cry about all those stuff thats when i decided to change myself and do good and be better for her all went to vein at the end

 

[saumya_19]

ask her to see her, if she deny, it's over

obv she wont lol its over everyways even about 2 days back she was okey with it but last day our convo went brutual she said roguh and her words were so harsh i couldnt even imagine.she wouldprob shift to japan just after a year

 

[gymcel64]

tbh theres nothing off red flags prolly it was me found myself driven by last i would be talking shits with other women then get caught altho soon after that its when i feel great atttachment to her and my love for her became stronger her friend used to how she used to cry about all those stuff thats when i decided to change myself and do good and be better for her all went to vein at the end

went from dark triad to oofy doofy, tough life man. Tho it is hard to understand your writings, it seems your English is a little bit off.

 

[saumya_19]

went from dark triad to oofy doofy, tough life man. Tho it is hard to understand your writings, it seems your English is a little bit off.

nah yah more like i am shaking rn i am feeling so numb since last day dk how do i even cope with it lol. just about 20 days she posted my pics in her stories and last night she came up with "who wants to be with an ugly ass like you" lol

 

[arfac]

obv she wont lol its over everyways even about 2 days back she was okey with it but last day our convo went brutual she said roguh and her words were so harsh i couldnt even imagine.she wouldprob shift to japan just after a year

why did she said those things? how was the conversation in overall?

 

[marshadow]

Writing this maybe out of sadness? About a year back, on January 11th, I met this girl. At first, I wasn’t sure what to think, but later I fell in love with her—or maybe it was her who seemed obsessed with me. I felt it every day. She had a rough past, with r*pe and abuses from her family it was her uncle and cousin brother , but despite all of that, she was pretty and really rich.

All year, she seemed deeply devoted to me. She would get approched by guys every literally everyday and she wouldnt even care to react abt that. She’d do things like post my pictures in her stories or write my name on her plate when she went out. It felt like she truly loved me. Her family, though, was terrible, and all the abuse she went through messed with her in ways that would sometimes show. She said she wouldn’t live past 21 because she have cvd, and there were times when she’d get violent with other guys. Even with all that, I didn’t care because, deep down, I believed she cared about me.

But things started falling apart a few days ago. She told me she doesn’t feel anything for me anymore. It felt different this time, like it’s permanent. In the past, she’d leave and come back, but now I don’t think she’s coming back at all. What makes it worse is the way it ended. She said some really harsh things about me and even about my parents, things I never thought I’d hear from her.she few days back try to fake a story about her liking someone older which i got to know a fake ass thing but later yah everything got resolved and she got back to me about 10 days back but just yesterday things got worse she again came up with all that and yah the guy was talking about was her fathers bestfriend lol (he is 29 lmao) altho i very sure tho she did it to fire me up and make me leave
View attachment 3417906

It just sucks right now. All this time, I thought we were building something, but now it feels like everything’s just gone. last few days have been brutual for me i cant just accept it idk how do i even cope with it lol i lost everything money and all.
(TBH theres more to add here which is something insane to add but i dont want y'all to make joke on me)

Sorry bro. Wishing you luck in your shitty situation. Sending prayers brother.

 

[saumya_19]

why did she said those things? how was the conversation in overall?

Well, nothing much—it's just that for the past few months, I’ve felt there’s been a bit of detachment between us. The main reason is probably how I used to make her cry over every small thing. I used to be an obsessive, mad guy, getting angry even if she showed affection to kids or even her little brother—lmao. Her friends would describe how I used to make her cry at every instance. That’s when things started to deteriorate.

It also happened after my conversation with a girl got leaked and reached her. She probably got disgusted with me after that. But honestly, that was a whole year ago! Tbh, I always tried to present myself as a guy who never interacted with girls before—lol.

When she found out, that’s when she brought up the idea of me leaving her. But every time, I would deny it and beg her to stay. Just a few days back, she came up with a fake story about loving someone else. Although she came back to me for a few days after that, yesterday she said she was leaving again. She posted a story, and that triggered me badly. That’s when our conversation got brutal. She said things I couldn’t even imagine. I legit felt like crying.

 

[saumya_19]

went from dark triad to oofy doofy, tough life man. Tho it is hard to understand your writings, it seems your English is a little bit off.

haha i remember back when she asked me " saumya do u really wanna be with me knowing my past you deserve better you see i am not pure maybe theres always something be missing in me will i be really be able to satisfy you" and last night she came up with " i am out of your league how can you even imagine yourself with me " lmao

 

[gymcel64]

nah yah more like i am shaking rn i am feeling so numb since last day dk how do i even cope with it lol. just about 20 days she posted my pics in her stories and last night she came up with "who wants to be with an ugly ass like you" lol

Brutal. I'm sorry dude, it'll get better I promise you

 

[arfac]

Well, nothing much—it's just that for the past few months, I’ve felt there’s been a bit of detachment between us. The main reason is probably how I used to make her cry over every small thing. I used to be an obsessive, mad guy, getting angry even if she showed affection to kids or even her little brother—lmao. Her friends would describe how I used to make her cry at every instance. That’s when things started to deteriorate.

It also happened after my conversation with a girl got leaked and reached her. She probably got disgusted with me after that. But honestly, that was a whole year ago! Tbh, I always tried to present myself as a guy who never interacted with girls before—lol.

When she found out, that’s when she brought up the idea of me leaving her. But every time, I would deny it and beg her to stay. Just a few days back, she came up with a fake story about loving someone else. Although she came back to me for a few days after that, yesterday she said she was leaving again. She posted a story, and that triggered me badly. That’s when our conversation got brutal. She said things I couldn’t even imagine. I legit felt like crying.

so You started all this shit cuz of ur low self esteem... what do You want to do about her? did You love her or sm?

 

[saumya_19]

so You started all this shit cuz of ur low self esteem... what do You want to do about her? did You love her or sm?

yh i did btw loll she got back again lmao

 

[arfac]

yh i did btw loll she got back again lmao

How do You feel about it?

 

[saumya_19]

Brutal. I'm sorry dude, it'll get better I promise you

she textedd me few mins back again lol as i have sent her a pic asking if i should cut of my hairs

 

[saumya_19]

How do You feel about it?

good tbh i cant let her go i am broke once i get her imma be rich (her dad is millonare) also to mention the fact she is brahmin and i am lower caste lol if u know how caste works in india status maxxing lol

 

[arfac]

good tbh i cant let her go i am broke once i get her imma be rich (her dad is millonare) also to mention the fact she is brahmin and i am lower caste lol if u know how caste works in india status maxxing lol

Good, if you really like her try to not fuck up that again

 

[gymcel64]

she textedd me few mins back again lol as i have sent her a pic asking if i should cut of my hairsView attachment 3418458

Just stop dude, it's over, You'll only make it worse by texting her and going back to her

 

[saumya_19]

Good, if you really like her try to not fuck up that again

yh but s

Just stop dude, it's over, You'll only make it worse by texting her and going back to her

nhh man she came up with alot stuff started explaning her day shared reels what should i do?

 

[gymcel64]

yh but s

nhh man she came up with alot stuff started explaning her day shared reels what should i do?

You do whatever but if I was you I would NOT. Her history and your experiences with her should be enough to deter you from pursuing her

 

[saumya_19]

You do whatever but if I was you I would NOT. Her history and your experiences with her should be enough to deter you from pursuing her

its about the money honestly once i get hands on her once i wont have to work anymore in my life ;klol and also coming from a shit country like india uk how brutal and harsh is life here alsoo i wanna maxout myself and need money for surgeries in my early 20s jfl

 

[gymcel64]

its about the money honestly once i get hands on her once i wont have to work anymore in my life ;klol and also coming from a shit country like india uk how brutal and harsh is life here alsoo i wanna maxout myself and need money for surgeries in my early 20s jfl

It's okay you want to find excuses to justify your choices. You should own the fact that maybe you're a bit desperate so you go back to her....

 

[saumya_19]

It's okay you want to find excuses to justify your choices. You should own the fact that maybe you're a bit desperate so you go back to her....

It's okay you want to find excuses to justify your choices. You should own the fact that maybe you're a bit desperate so you go back to her....

nh man she aint getting i just assumed wrong last night she just texted back and shared some of her pics nothing much theres very less hope. the good part is i have not acted as a desparate guy (it was very hard altho). all tho as everytime i open my insta its driving me crazy on how she have not texted back since morning i made a goodmorning text thats all lol

 

[gymcel64]

nh man she aint getting i just assumed wrong last night she just texted back and shared some of her pics nothing much theres very less hope. the good part is i have not acted as a desparate guy (it was very hard altho). all tho as everytime i open my insta its driving me crazy on how she have not texted back since morning i made a goodmorning text thats all lol

Yeah so you are desperate, let go man, or just pump and dump her if you can

 

[saumya_19]

Yeah so you are desperate, let go man, or just pump and dump her if you can

Something crazy just happened a few minutes ago, and honestly, I don't even know if it's true. Bestie of hers sent me a blurry video of her dancing with a guy. The face wasn't clearly visible and the video was blurry af i cant see her face even for a moment but her bestie claimed it was her and btw she posted it as a story. It’s confusing because in the past, she’s done similar things just to push me away, especially when I was messing around, like talking to other girls or trying to cheat.


When I saw that video, I got so mad I started slurring at her and her best friend. A moment later, she texted me, asking me to let out whatever I was feeling. In return, I just went off on her, throwing slurs at her even make joke about her rape and connect it with this . She altho stayed texted calmy to my outbust



I don't know what's next lol its so messed up wtf

 

[saumya_19]

Yeah so you are desperate, let go man, or just pump and dump her if you can

ik i am cooked at this point but cant deal with the wave of emotions

 

[gymcel64]

ik i am cooked at this point but cant deal with the wave of emotions

You are beyond saving... I'm sorry man

 

[JeanneDArcAlter]

Writing this maybe out of sadness? About a year back, on January 11th, I met this girl. At first, I wasn’t sure what to think, but later I fell in love with her—or maybe it was her who seemed obsessed with me. I felt it every day. She had a rough past, with r*pe and abuses from her family it was her uncle and cousin brother , but despite all of that, she was pretty and really rich.

All year, she seemed deeply devoted to me. She would get approched by guys every literally everyday and she wouldnt even care to react abt that. She’d do things like post my pictures in her stories or write my name on her plate when she went out. It felt like she truly loved me. Her family, though, was terrible, and all the abuse she went through messed with her in ways that would sometimes show. She said she wouldn’t live past 21 because she have cvd, and there were times when she’d get violent with other guys. Even with all that, I didn’t care because, deep down, I believed she cared about me.

But things started falling apart a few days ago. She told me she doesn’t feel anything for me anymore. It felt different this time, like it’s permanent. In the past, she’d leave and come back, but now I don’t think she’s coming back at all. What makes it worse is the way it ended. She said some really harsh things about me and even about my parents, things I never thought I’d hear from her.she few days back try to fake a story about her liking someone older which i got to know a fake ass thing but later yah everything got resolved and she got back to me about 10 days back but just yesterday things got worse she again came up with all that and yah the guy was talking about was her fathers bestfriend lol (he is 29 lmao) altho i very sure tho she did it to fire me up and make me leave
View attachment 3417906

It just sucks right now. All this time, I thought we were building something, but now it feels like everything’s just gone. last few days have been brutual for me i cant just accept it idk how do i even cope with it lol i lost everything money and all.
(TBH theres more to add here which is something insane to add but i dont want y'all to make joke on me)

Send me her faxe in pms

 

[saumya_19]

You are beyond saving... I'm sorry man

she's gonna be dead in few yrs thats all what i letf to cope about(same thing used to make me shed tears few months back)