Jonas2k7
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I have turned into a total mess..
I've had more then one experience with rape.. which makes me think I am the problem. I rarely talk to anyone about any of this but this place felt safe.. The first time still haunts me and it's hard to put into words so sorry if I do a bad job.
I was 13 and my bff's dad raped me during a sleepover. The way he did it and the way it made me feel was so horrible. His words were so gross and I had never felt a man on top of me like that. And the worst part.. I had an orgasm. It's like my body betrayed me, tell me I should like it or something. Sorry if I'm rambling I just don't know how to better put it into words.
I also feel like I have become hypersexual. It gets in the way of my day to day life and I have trouble being in control. While part of me thinks this is who I am the other parts also hates it. I don't know what to think, sorry.
I've had more then one experience with rape.. which makes me think I am the problem. I rarely talk to anyone about any of this but this place felt safe.. The first time still haunts me and it's hard to put into words so sorry if I do a bad job.
I was 13 and my bff's dad raped me during a sleepover. The way he did it and the way it made me feel was so horrible. His words were so gross and I had never felt a man on top of me like that. And the worst part.. I had an orgasm. It's like my body betrayed me, tell me I should like it or something. Sorry if I'm rambling I just don't know how to better put it into words.
I also feel like I have become hypersexual. It gets in the way of my day to day life and I have trouble being in control. While part of me thinks this is who I am the other parts also hates it. I don't know what to think, sorry.