blackpill actually ruined my life

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people always say things like "bro, leave the blackpill before it's too late." most of the time, these people just seem like attention-seeking nerds, but i have to admit there's truth to it. my life is still normal - i don't have thoughts of harming myself or anything like that. it's just that the quality of my life feels like it's taken a huge hit

i can't stand having photos taken of me anymore. i can't even make eye contact with attractive girls because i imagine them seeing me the way i see myself in photos - disgusted. i find myself squinting constantly but it doesn’t make me look better. instead, i just look odd, to the point where people ask if something’s wrong with my eyes. i’m always checking my reflection in my camera, and i’m genuinely revolted by what i see. my face doesn't match the image i have of myself in my mind

i want to be attractive and there’s a part of me that believes i could be, but i know i’m not and will never be. the realisation, that conflict between what i want to believe and the harsh reality hits me over and over. i’m not above average in any way. i never will be.

i've tried everything; maintaining a low body fat percentage, following a high frequency gym split, eating loads of red meat, avoiding estrogen, getting sunlight. i've even tried cope things like thumb pulling hoping it would make a difference. none of it works. i’m stuck with a face i can’t stand.

the only thing that represents my existence, my face, brings me so much sadness and disgust. this thought lingers in my mind constantly and it makes life feel miserable. and as much as i’d love to believe otherwise i know it’s true. looks matter so much, and i can’t escape that reality no matter how much i want to.
 
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brutal, hope it gets better
 
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people always say things like "bro, leave the blackpill before it's too late." most of the time, these people just seem like attention-seeking nerds, but i have to admit there's truth to it. my life is still normal - i don't have thoughts of harming myself or anything like that. it's just that the quality of my life feels like it's taken a huge hit

i can't stand having photos taken of me anymore. i can't even make eye contact with attractive girls because i imagine them seeing me the way i see myself in photos - disgusted. i find myself squinting constantly but it doesn’t make me look better. instead, i just look odd, to the point where people ask if something’s wrong with my eyes. i’m always checking my reflection in my camera, and i’m genuinely revolted by what i see. my face doesn't match the image i have of myself in my mind

i want to be attractive and there’s a part of me that believes i could be, but i know i’m not and will never be. the realisation, that conflict between what i want to believe and the harsh reality hits me over and over. i’m not above average in any way. i never will be.

i've tried everything; maintaining a low body fat percentage, following a high frequency gym split, eating loads of red meat, avoiding estrogen, getting sunlight. i've even tried cope things like thumb pulling hoping it would make a difference. none of it works. i’m stuck with a face i can’t stand.

the only thing that represents my existence, my face, brings me so much sadness and disgust. this thought lingers in my mind constantly and it makes life feel miserable. and as much as i’d love to believe otherwise i know it’s true. looks matter so much, and i can’t escape that reality no matter how much i want to.
i hate the niggas on tiktok that say that shit its so corny but it deadass affects you mentally so horrible my whole day is judged on how good or bad i look, it gets to the point i just want to hide my face. relate to this thread a massive amount
 
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people always say things like "bro, leave the blackpill before it's too late." most of the time, these people just seem like attention-seeking nerds, but i have to admit there's truth to it. my life is still normal - i don't have thoughts of harming myself or anything like that. it's just that the quality of my life feels like it's taken a huge hit

i can't stand having photos taken of me anymore. i can't even make eye contact with attractive girls because i imagine them seeing me the way i see myself in photos - disgusted. i find myself squinting constantly but it doesn’t make me look better. instead, i just look odd, to the point where people ask if something’s wrong with my eyes. i’m always checking my reflection in my camera, and i’m genuinely revolted by what i see. my face doesn't match the image i have of myself in my mind

i want to be attractive and there’s a part of me that believes i could be, but i know i’m not and will never be. the realisation, that conflict between what i want to believe and the harsh reality hits me over and over. i’m not above average in any way. i never will be.

i've tried everything; maintaining a low body fat percentage, following a high frequency gym split, eating loads of red meat, avoiding estrogen, getting sunlight. i've even tried cope things like thumb pulling hoping it would make a difference. none of it works. i’m stuck with a face i can’t stand.

the only thing that represents my existence, my face, brings me so much sadness and disgust. this thought lingers in my mind constantly and it makes life feel miserable. and as much as i’d love to believe otherwise i know it’s true. looks matter so much, and i can’t escape that reality no matter how much i want to.
Ignore your looks and opinions of others, low inhib and live however you want you got it
 
I dont get it what do people expect from blackpill? Happiness? Obviously not tf
 
i hate the niggas on tiktok that say that shit its so corny but it deadass affects you mentally so horrible my whole day is judged on how good or bad i look, it gets to the point i just want to hide my face. relate to this thread a massive amount
real bro. take a picture of yourself with back camera and flash while completely relaxing your face. it’s fucking brutal.
 
Ignore your looks and opinions of others, low inhib and live however you want you got it
but then how will i live my stacy pulling fuckboy fantasy ?
 
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bro i do this in the shower all the time its straight ropefuel its so brutal
same 😭😭 i genuinely look like a sub3 but then when i’m infront of a mirror with downlighting i convince myself i’m a htn
 
Why pull a stacy if you can get htb and stacy lites?
when you view yourself as a sub5 there’s no way to feel htb’s being an option. i could maybe pull a mtb if i didn’t fucking squint like a weirdo
 
when you view yourself as a sub5 there’s no way to feel htb’s being an option. i could maybe pull a mtb if i didn’t fucking squint like a weirdo
Pull any girl if you're high t you would hit, and have fun with the girl that's how you enjoy life
 
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people always say things like "bro, leave the blackpill before it's too late." most of the time, these people just seem like attention-seeking nerds, but i have to admit there's truth to it. my life is still normal - i don't have thoughts of harming myself or anything like that. it's just that the quality of my life feels like it's taken a huge hit

i can't stand having photos taken of me anymore. i can't even make eye contact with attractive girls because i imagine them seeing me the way i see myself in photos - disgusted. i find myself squinting constantly but it doesn’t make me look better. instead, i just look odd, to the point where people ask if something’s wrong with my eyes. i’m always checking my reflection in my camera, and i’m genuinely revolted by what i see. my face doesn't match the image i have of myself in my mind

i want to be attractive and there’s a part of me that believes i could be, but i know i’m not and will never be. the realisation, that conflict between what i want to believe and the harsh reality hits me over and over. i’m not above average in any way. i never will be.

i've tried everything; maintaining a low body fat percentage, following a high frequency gym split, eating loads of red meat, avoiding estrogen, getting sunlight. i've even tried cope things like thumb pulling hoping it would make a difference. none of it works. i’m stuck with a face i can’t stand.

the only thing that represents my existence, my face, brings me so much sadness and disgust. this thought lingers in my mind constantly and it makes life feel miserable. and as much as i’d love to believe otherwise i know it’s true. looks matter so much, and i can’t escape that reality no matter how much i want to.
Sounds about right
 
people always say things like "bro, leave the blackpill before it's too late." most of the time, these people just seem like attention-seeking nerds, but i have to admit there's truth to it. my life is still normal - i don't have thoughts of harming myself or anything like that. it's just that the quality of my life feels like it's taken a huge hit

i can't stand having photos taken of me anymore. i can't even make eye contact with attractive girls because i imagine them seeing me the way i see myself in photos - disgusted. i find myself squinting constantly but it doesn’t make me look better. instead, i just look odd, to the point where people ask if something’s wrong with my eyes. i’m always checking my reflection in my camera, and i’m genuinely revolted by what i see. my face doesn't match the image i have of myself in my mind

i want to be attractive and there’s a part of me that believes i could be, but i know i’m not and will never be. the realisation, that conflict between what i want to believe and the harsh reality hits me over and over. i’m not above average in any way. i never will be.

i've tried everything; maintaining a low body fat percentage, following a high frequency gym split, eating loads of red meat, avoiding estrogen, getting sunlight. i've even tried cope things like thumb pulling hoping it would make a difference. none of it works. i’m stuck with a face i can’t stand.

the only thing that represents my existence, my face, brings me so much sadness and disgust. this thought lingers in my mind constantly and it makes life feel miserable. and as much as i’d love to believe otherwise i know it’s true. looks matter so much, and i can’t escape that reality no matter how much i want to.
Brutal world we live in
 
The blackpill liberated you. If you think about it, having no confidence and low self esteem is a good thing as a sub5. There are few things society hates as much as sub5 men who are confident and "dont know their place"
 
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if your a 6'1 chad then yes the blackpill will give you happiness
No, it won't because there are always people better than you. Not only that, if you are thoroughly blackpilled, looks WILL GO away.
 
welcome to the club :rolleyes:
 
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Yall ever think about what got you into all this lookism stuff? I’m talking about a specific event that kickstarted everything. In my case, I was at a clothing store with my mom when I walked past a mirror and just stared at my short legs and thought about how fucking ridiculous it looked. That happened when I was like 15 and 5 months:feelswhy: just wanted to have a normal height and now im here:lul:
 
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Better to be aware of your true looks bracket rather than live in complete denial.

I've been a normie 5/10 my whole life before discovering the blackpill and genuinely thought I was a 7/10 JFL. Bluepill makes you think that.

Now I know I'm a High MTN at best and still need to improve to reach the HTN solid 7/10 bracket in spite of several hardmaxxing procedures to correct my flaws.
 
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people always say things like "bro, leave the blackpill before it's too late." most of the time, these people just seem like attention-seeking nerds, but i have to admit there's truth to it. my life is still normal - i don't have thoughts of harming myself or anything like that. it's just that the quality of my life feels like it's taken a huge hit

i can't stand having photos taken of me anymore. i can't even make eye contact with attractive girls because i imagine them seeing me the way i see myself in photos - disgusted. i find myself squinting constantly but it doesn’t make me look better. instead, i just look odd, to the point where people ask if something’s wrong with my eyes. i’m always checking my reflection in my camera, and i’m genuinely revolted by what i see. my face doesn't match the image i have of myself in my mind

i want to be attractive and there’s a part of me that believes i could be, but i know i’m not and will never be. the realisation, that conflict between what i want to believe and the harsh reality hits me over and over. i’m not above average in any way. i never will be.

i've tried everything; maintaining a low body fat percentage, following a high frequency gym split, eating loads of red meat, avoiding estrogen, getting sunlight. i've even tried cope things like thumb pulling hoping it would make a difference. none of it works. i’m stuck with a face i can’t stand.

the only thing that represents my existence, my face, brings me so much sadness and disgust. this thought lingers in my mind constantly and it makes life feel miserable. and as much as i’d love to believe otherwise i know it’s true. looks matter so much, and i can’t escape that reality no matter how much i want to.
so relatable
we'll escape MTN hell one day
 
Yall ever think about what got you into all this lookism stuff? I’m talking about a specific event that kickstarted everything. In my case, I was at a clothing store with my mom when I walked past a mirror and just stared at my short legs and thought about how fucking ridiculous it looked. That happened when I was like 15 and 5 months:feelswhy: just wanted to have a normal height and now im here:lul:
saw a pic of mike pishek and realized there's levels to this lmao
 
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There isn't just "some truth" to people saying to drop the blackpill, and it isn't "attention seeking nerds" who tell you this. It's people giving you authentic honest advice. Look what happened because you ignored it.

It's a shame because it doesn't matter as much as your head makes it seem. You're gonna disagree because you brain rotted but one day you will see what I mean. The only way out of this is to seek therapy and drop the black pill. Most blackpill content is just demoralized dudes giving other dudes advice. It's a way to drop out of trying, because you convince yourself it's impossible to do what you want cause you don't have abs or aren't 6 foot.
 
No, it won't because there are always people better than you. Not only that, if you are thoroughly blackpilled, looks WILL GO away.
this is so cope lol
5 chads in a room even the worst looking is going to pull so they can laugh off the other chads being better
only sub5's and low mtn truly struggle from the blackpill
 
this is so cope lol
5 chads in a room even the worst looking is going to pull so they can laugh off the other chads being better
only sub5's and low mtn truly struggle from the blackpill
He mentioned constantly worrying about looks. You mentioned "pulling" so clearly this is a whole different issue. His self esteem is damaged not because he "can't pull".

If you care a ton about looks and you have looks, you still won't be THAT happy. Because since you care a lot about looks, you will start comparing yourself/wanting to look like chico or whoever is above.

And lastly, dude what do you think happens as you get older, you will lose your looks. The thing you cherish the most is now stripped from you.
 
people always say things like "bro, leave the blackpill before it's too late." most of the time, these people just seem like attention-seeking nerds, but i have to admit there's truth to it. my life is still normal - i don't have thoughts of harming myself or anything like that. it's just that the quality of my life feels like it's taken a huge hit

i can't stand having photos taken of me anymore. i can't even make eye contact with attractive girls because i imagine them seeing me the way i see myself in photos - disgusted. i find myself squinting constantly but it doesn’t make me look better. instead, i just look odd, to the point where people ask if something’s wrong with my eyes. i’m always checking my reflection in my camera, and i’m genuinely revolted by what i see. my face doesn't match the image i have of myself in my mind

i want to be attractive and there’s a part of me that believes i could be, but i know i’m not and will never be. the realisation, that conflict between what i want to believe and the harsh reality hits me over and over. i’m not above average in any way. i never will be.

i've tried everything; maintaining a low body fat percentage, following a high frequency gym split, eating loads of red meat, avoiding estrogen, getting sunlight. i've even tried cope things like thumb pulling hoping it would make a difference. none of it works. i’m stuck with a face i can’t stand.

the only thing that represents my existence, my face, brings me so much sadness and disgust. this thought lingers in my mind constantly and it makes life feel miserable. and as much as i’d love to believe otherwise i know it’s true. looks matter so much, and i can’t escape that reality no matter how much i want to.
the curse of being sub-htn and blackpilled
 
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